i’m heartbroken and so full of feels. i honestly didn’t think i’d love this book this much. i this is up (2009) in book format basically
i am in TEARS
i’m heartbroken and so full of feels. i honestly didn’t think i’d love this book this much. i was indifferent in the beginning but then when things started coming together and making sense and the whole way grief is intertwined in the mundane life because it’s how fleabag said “i don’t know what to do with it, with all the love i have for her, i don’t know where to put it now”.
“his heart is too big,” the doctor states crassly.”
i have to say when i was younger, I was one of the people who were taken away by the defendant's "cunning and genius" due to all that I was fed by thei have to say when i was younger, I was one of the people who were taken away by the defendant's "cunning and genius" due to all that I was fed by the countless expositions focusing on the defendant and the documentaries and movies and so on. in an essence, romanticizing, without really saying that word, the actions of a loser serial killer. i had thought "oh he was so smart. was a lawyer. escaped prison twice, and worked in the same department that was out looking for him. what a very smart and sophisticated horrible person!" and it was only when I got older that I thought.... what? what the hell was i thinking?
and this book beautifully dismantles that ideology. most of these murders, most of the murders in general, could have been avoided had the ones in charge of protecting the people done their goddamn job. there is nothing smart nor alluring about these loser, has-been, pathetic men.
in a nutshell, how these two sides are perceived: women lose their friends in a horrific murder and try to handle it with dignity = the media writes how these women were loose and unladylike and maybe got what they deserved because why were they out dressed like that? why were they having fun? why are her friends crying so loudly (they did not) and disrupting the allure of what a woman should be. also who knows what their names were and we don't care. the defendant violently and brutally rapes and murders women = the media and the judge and the reporters talk about how he was like so smart and what a shame such a brilliant mind was wasted on crimes and he's like sooooo handsome (no he's not) and women had no choice but to fall head first into those beady little eyes and then he killed :( them :( he didn't mean to though
oh they ate so good with this book holy cow!!!! no because the book didn't bluff... the romance!! was!!! so!!!! good!!!!! i wanted fun, drama, romanceoh they ate so good with this book holy cow!!!! no because the book didn't bluff... the romance!! was!!! so!!!! good!!!!! i wanted fun, drama, romance, humor and a good third-act conflict and yay! delivered :D 10/10 on yelp no notes! ...more
i cried. i had very little knowledge about what happened in cambodia in the seventies and i am glad i can bear witness now that i know. that i will noi cried. i had very little knowledge about what happened in cambodia in the seventies and i am glad i can bear witness now that i know. that i will now learn and research more. this reminded me of palestine, congo, sudan, syria and all the people fighting for their lives right now. it’s the same story of humanity’s atrocities repeated over and over and over again while so few know about it and even fewer help. it made me think of our recipes infused so much with our land’s love and generosity.
this memoir was written with love and resilience and so much heart ♥️ i did the audiobook and it made me sob to know that the author’s daughter is the narrator....more
i started crying without even realising it. this felt like being submerged in an ocean and there’s nothing around you and you’re just there in your gri started crying without even realising it. this felt like being submerged in an ocean and there’s nothing around you and you’re just there in your grief suspended with no gravity and nothing holding you down or raising you up. the grief was palpable, like molasses in its slowness and in the way it makes you feel every insurmountable amount it comes with. there is no fast forwarding, no slipping into a coma until it passes. it’s here and you’re going to feel it and you’re going to get through it.
it made me long for my culture and heritage and history. it made me nostalgic for my own experiences if that’s possible. it made me want to write.
also i feel an incredible kinship to michelle zauner as we’re both born march 29th, arguably the best day of the year. she doesn’t know it yet but we’re best friends already ...more
yes i understand the cuteness. cheers to noelle who was very much aware of how attracted she was to theo even when she hated him. finally an mc with eyes i understand the cuteness. cheers to noelle who was very much aware of how attracted she was to theo even when she hated him. finally an mc with eyes and common sense and also reading comprehension! ...more
okay who had that i’ll be crying in the final chapters?
10/10 on yelp.
recommending to friends.
i saw replies on one of my updates “don’t read this at okay who had that i’ll be crying in the final chapters?
10/10 on yelp.
recommending to friends.
i saw replies on one of my updates “don’t read this at 2:00 a.m” asking if it was nerve wrecking or addicting.
yes.
but i am baby and i used to get scared reading the goosebumps series and watching detective conan that i couldn’t sleep.
but ohmygod. just!!!! ohmygod. i love it here!! the way holly wrote these characters that feel so tangibly real. the emotions that come from being someone who had something taken from you. the hints scattered all along the story. the full circle that happens. the sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach. i loved it. need it to be adapted into movie/tv show bc this works. imagine documentary style filmed from multiple cameras with spaces for the watcher to fill them. netflix, hire me. ...more
this was a banger of a dystopian vampire. very much enjoyed. 10/10 on yelp.
still me personally, I don't want to be a vampire. never tasting roasted cthis was a banger of a dystopian vampire. very much enjoyed. 10/10 on yelp.
still me personally, I don't want to be a vampire. never tasting roasted chestnuts or curly fries again? no, thank you. not even eternal life (overrated and a curse) would be enough to tempt me. but happy for you though! ...more
you know that scene in the office where micheal scott is playing the five second free sample of “goodbye my lover by james blunt” over and over again you know that scene in the office where micheal scott is playing the five second free sample of “goodbye my lover by james blunt” over and over again whilst being sad? yeah me right now but with mirrorball— CUZ I’M A MIRRORBALL I’M A MIRRORBAAAAALLLLLL I’’LL SHOW YOU EVERY VERSION OF YOURSELF TONIIIIGHHHHTTTTT~ shoutout to my boy julius gong ...more
i'm 29 years old and have read this book for the first time today. and now i think of ten-year-old zoulfa and how this story would have made her sit bi'm 29 years old and have read this book for the first time today. and now i think of ten-year-old zoulfa and how this story would have made her sit by her little desk with crayon drawings strewn all over and just Think for a while. she would have drawn the sheep over and over again until she was satisfied she got it right, and she would have vowed never to become an adult. she was an anne of green gables girlie through and through with her worn-out copy her mom bought her when she was just a baby, but she would have thought (and i do too) that these stories belong together.
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