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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[ Imprisonment, war, racism, classism, graphic torture, graphic violence, genocide, forced breeding, miscarriages, infe
Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[ Imprisonment, war, racism, classism, graphic torture, graphic violence, genocide, forced breeding, miscarriages, infertility, death of loved ones, graphic executions and in front of loved ones, burned to death, arson, rape, attempted rape, sexual assault, non-consent, dubious consent, suicide ideation, attempted suicide, self-harm, sex slaves, PTSD, trauma, panic attacks, slut-shaming, agoraphobia, seizures, starving, kidnapping, stockholm syndrome, abortions (sometimes forced) (hide spoiler)] “I’m going to take care of you. I swear, I’m always going to take care of you.” [image] MEL, I HATE YOU FOR MAKING ME READ THIS. After that masterpiece, I’m just sitting here waiting. For what? Maybe my own personal Draco? This story may be dark and angsty, but it is beautiful. I recommend you check the triggers if you are not used to anything dark, this book has so many fucked up things that happen. Push through 25 chapters and you will understand why people love this book. You need to know some background of Harry Potter to read this. I remembered the basic stuff but I did have to Google some things. You can try reading this without reading/watching the series but it might be confusing. This review will have spoilers for Harry Potter. [image] Imagine a world where Harry never won the war while facing Voldemort. A world where Voldemort rules and the members of the Resistance are either dead or taken prisoner. Hermione is a prisoner who is taken to be in Voldemort’s breeding program. Since many Pureblood couples are having a hard time conceiving, Hermione and others are assigned to a Death Eater to breed babies. Voldemort wants to access memories Hermione no longer remembers. To get access, she would need to get pregnant. So he entrusts her to his loyal general, the High Reeve, Draco Malfoy. “If he’s a monster, then I’m his creator.” Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ Part 1 Starting this book was rough, no one knew that Umbridge hid Hermione in a cell. A healer named Stroud says that Hermione is in the breeding program. Voldemort tries to see Hermione’s memories by using Legilimency, a painful way of prying through someone’s head. Stroud tells him that they can get the memories if Hermione is pregnant. The person who gets her pregnant will be able to use Legilimens on Hermione. They assign her to the High Reeve, Draco Malfoy. The prisoners are forced to be sex slave surrogates to the Death Eaters. They have manacles that suppress their magic and are controlled to not hurt others including themselves and must obey their owners. Draco is married to Astoria who is pissed that this is happening. Draco makes Hermione stand at a table and rapes her, this happens 5 times every month when she is supposed to be fertile and he leaves immediately when done. She thinks of suicide, is depressed, has agoraphobia, and seizures. Draco pries through her head to see if he can recover memories. Every other month, Hermione is forced to see Voldemort who does the same. Astoria was having an affair with Montague but Draco doesn’t care. [image] Umbridge is killed by an arrow and the locket she is wearing is destroyed. The locket was the last Horcrux and since Voldemort needs Horcruxes to live, he is dying. Montague finds Hermione and attempts to rape her. He is close when Draco finds him and later rips his organs out and kills him. Astoria is jealous that Draco is always at the manor after Hermione came. He abandoned Astoria at the manor after they got married. She thought she had Montague but he wanted Hermione. Astoria tries to rip Hermione’s eyes out but Draco stops her and helps heal Hermione. Stroud says that Hermione isn’t pregnant and they need to use a bed. After the rape, he goes straight to the washroom to vomit, he couldn’t stomach doing it. She was there for 6 months and runs into Draco while he is drunk. He says that if he knew she would cause him this much pain, he never would have been with her and kissed her and Hermione reciprocated. He pushes away shocked and says she is playing her role well. She is mentally and physically hurt that she hits her head on the glass trying to kill herself. Draco stops her and later, Stroud tells Hermione that she is pregnant. Draco was soft with her when she was asleep but when she was awake, he stayed away. She wakes up with memories and we see the past. Part 2 Two years ago when they were 22, Draco killed Dumbledore and it triggered the start of the war. He was a Death Eater and worked for Voldemort. Snape is a double agent and works for the Order. Hermione went abroad to learn how to be a healer after her friend Colin died since she failed to save him. Harry and Ron became closer and once she was back, she was left out. Snape taught her how to make potions so she was valued in the Order which was run by Kingsley and Moody. Moody says a Death Eater will spy for them if Hermione were to go to them willingly. Hermione wanted everyone to use Dark Magic as self-defense which caused a rift between her and Harry. Moody and Kingsley asked her to meet with the Death Eater who was Draco to get intel. Hermione couldn’t tell anyone which made her feel alone and she thought Draco wanted to sleep with her. Draco sets a day for them to meet weekly and says they should kiss on it and is surprised she gave in so easily. He gave her rings and if she felt it burn, she needed to meet him. He realizes she is Occlumens like him, she can hide memories and says he will train her. He kisses her the second time she goes to their meeting place at a shack. After that second time, he only gets close to intimidate her. Hermione started to notice that Draco was cruel to her when he was vulnerable. After every meeting, he gave her a scroll with information that Moody and Kingsley used to make raids and save prisoners. This made the Resistance think they were winning but they had no idea that Hermione was sacrificing herself for intel. Draco gave Hermione very valuable information and as a result, Voldemort drew poisonous runes with Nagini’s blood into his back. There was Dark Magic and it was too late for Hermione to fully heal him. His information saved so many lives and Hermione realized that Draco didn’t care if he died. Hermione put the Heart of Isis in his chest to heal him, it purified him every time he used Dark Magic. Hermione starts to tell Draco not to die. “Be careful, Draco. Don’t die.” She did surgery to close the wounds on Draco’s back. He says that they should drink together and kisses her. Hermione is tired of being lonely and thinks that Draco sees her for who she truly is. I didn’t expect their kiss scenes to be so passionate. When Draco senses that she tenses, he stops and they fall asleep together. After that, he didn’t appear in the shack for over a month. Hermione goes foraging and a vampire bites her. She goes to the shack to heal herself, Draco appears and watches her. Ever since then, Draco looked at Hermione to check if she was okay. He got all the medical supplies she may need in case she is injured again. He always did things for her because he wanted her to live. Harry cares for Ginny and Ron but barely thinks of Hermione. Draco hates him and he grows to care for Hermione. “You’re like a rose in a graveyard.” During Christmas, Harry tries to mend things with Hermione but she says they should use Dark Magic to defend themselves since she is tired of people dying. Draco gives Hermione a cloak and when Hermione gives him a healing potion pack, he gives her daggers. Moody and Kingsley secretly make Hermione heal Death Eaters who were tortured by spies. Hermione healed Montague and he was given a potion by Kingsley which made him obsessed with her. Hermione is ordered to have Draco show his loyalty or hand her memories of Draco so that he will die once he is ratted out. The only way for her to make sure he stays loyal was to get him attached to her, she felt coerced into fucking him by Kingsley and Moody. When Draco teaches Hermione physical self-defense, she kisses him. They ended up fucking and Hermione was in pain since she was a virgin. When he realized she was a virgin, he was devastated. When Snape finds out, he is soft with Hermione and gives her potions. Draco is helping the Order to get revenge for his mom Narcissa. Narcissa was tortured by Voldemort in the Malfoy Manor when Lucius went to prison. Draco got the Death Mark and killed Dumbledore so that Narcissa would be freed from a cage. His mom dealt with so much torture that she got seizures. His dad doesn’t know since he would have gotten them killed by going after Voldemort. He said he couldn’t care for anyone ever again since it hurt too much. Narcissa died in a house fire in Lestrange Manor. Draco chose Hermione as his contact since he needed someone who wouldn’t die and knew she wasn’t fighting on the fields. It’s sad knowing he has to go through the same thing with Hermione in the future, she is tortured and refuses to leave without him, plus HE had to torture her. Draco makes the Unbreakable Vow to keep Hermione alive, he promises to be loyal to the Order and not overthrow Voldemort. Draco grows resentful of Hermione, he admits his feelings for her but hates her for it. He says that her manacles seem heavier than Voldemort's. Harry goes to Hogwarts to find a Horcrux but Ron gets kidnapped. Harry does not hesitate to put Hermione in danger by asking her to join a suicide mission to save Ron when she has not been on a mission in years. When they get Ron, they are trapped by Death Eaters. Hermione uses a Dark Magic curse when Ron is attacked. Draco appeared with a mask, killed all the Death Eaters, and got everyone out after obliviating them. He realizes Hermione knew this was a trap and doesn’t care if she dies. “You are not replaceable. You are not required to make your death convenient. You are allowed to be important to people. The reason I took that fucking Vow was to keep you alive. To keep you safe.” Hermione feels so cold and it is because she used Dark Magic. Seeing how badly it affected Hermione made me realize that Draco used so much Dark Magic with no support. Hermione goes to the shack and Draco says that she can use him if she is lonely. They have sensual sex and Draco can tell Hermione has feelings for him and is obsessed with her. Since then, every time they meet they treat it like their last. He asks if she is alright and she heals him while he holds her. When they cuddle, Draco says that he will take care of Hermione and she does the same to him when she is healing him. When she tells him not to die, he promises to come back since she is his. Draco resents the Order and tells Moody and Kingsley that Hermione needs to be alive. During an attack, Hermione gets injured but is healing everyone while bleeding out. Draco got his elf to bring Hermione to his manor. He heals her and says that he will kill the Order if something happens to her. Draco begs her to run away but she doesn’t want to. She says one day they will but they can’t since Draco has the Dark Mark. If a person cuts off the arm with the Dark Mark, they will bleed out. It can only be removed if Voldemort dies. “I have warned you. If something happens to you, I will personally raze the entire Order. That isn’t a threat. It is a promise. Consider your survival as much a necessity to the survival of the Resistance as Potter’s. If you die, I will kill every last one of them.” Hermione makes a bomb for the magical shield around Hogwarts. They plan to kill Voldemort and Nagini, thinking those were the last Horcruxes. Ginny finds out she is pregnant and tells Hermione to hide it from Harry since it will put pressure on him. Hermione finds out that when Harry was cursed by Voldemort, Voldemort made him a Horcrux. Harry is accepting of dying and she tells Harry that Ginny is pregnant. He makes her promise to take care of Ginny and the baby. He tells Hermione she was a good friend. Neville kills Nagini and Harry lets Voldemort kill him. Turns out they were missing a Horcrux. Draco tells her she needs to leave since they lost. Ginny was kidnapped to a lab and Hermione begs Draco to save her and promises she will do what he asks. Draco rescues Ginny but blows his cover since the records show he was there. Hermione wants to tell Snape about the Horcruxes so someone can kill Voldemort. Hermione tells Draco to take Ginny and once he is back, she will leave with him. Hermione leaves a note saying she loves him. She blows up the lab to save Draco from getting his cover blown but is caught by Montague. She is in a cage and sees Harry’s body rotting and Lucius burns all her friends. Hermione pushes her memories away of Draco. Manacles are put on her that suppress her magic and she slowly forgets Draco. Umbridge locks Hermione in a room in Hogwarts. Hermione is in there for 16 months until the breeding program. Part 3 Draco realizes she got her memories back, he couldn’t find Hermione and looked all over the world. He was forced to marry Astoria and had to fuck her to reproduce. But he stayed away once she was barren. Draco hurt and raped Hermione since Voldemort probably checked his head and it was all an act for him. Hermione was supposed to leave months ago with Snape but he is in Romania. Draco was willing to let Hermione leave without remembering him and knew he was going to be killed once she was gone. She tells him she will find a way to save him. Hermione says she wants to try having sex with Draco. She tells him to stop in the middle and cries and Draco hates himself. Draco was mad at her because she manipulated and left him. He asks if saving him was worth it since he had to live his nightmares. He had to rape her and Montague did too but Hermione says Draco came in time. His wife almost got her eyes out and she is dealing with seizures. Hermione says he was worth it and she will save him. Lucius comes to the manor and Astoria can’t stand him since he is killing animals and drags blood around. Lucius is sick of her so he beheads her but Draco planned it. Hermione realizes they need Phoenix's tears to remove the Dark Mark. Hermione was having a girl and she wanted to tell her stories about Draco, he even said she didn’t have to keep the baby. It had me crying to see how little Draco cared for his life and how he valued Hermione “Why are you so resigned to dying? Even at the beginning, when you made your offer to the Order, you were always planning to die like it wouldn’t matter to anyone. Why are you still like that? Now—” her voice broke, “—when it does?” Draco and Snape planned Voldemort’s downfall politically. Draco was the High Reeve so he held the most power in Voldemort’s forces. People were realizing that Voldemort was becoming weak and were pulling away their support. They find out Snape died but Draco has other ways to get Hermione out with portkeys that teleport to places. Lucius sneaks a portkey into Hermione’s room to make her go to his room. Voldemort threatened to kill Draco if Lucius didn’t find the last Order member. So she tells him that Draco worked for her and she was the last Order member. Lucius forces his way into her head and Hermione pushes all the Narcissa memories to him. Lucius is devastated when he finds out what happened to Narcissa. Draco got Lucius off Hermione and Lucius has enough Phoenix's tears for Draco. Hermione had to amputate Draco’s arm to get rid of the mark and the potion prevented him from bleeding out. Lucius burned the manor to make it seem like they all died inside. Draco had a portkey to an island in Japan where Ginny and James were. He made a house with all the things Hermione loves with books everywhere. Once they get to the island, Ginny slapped him since Hermione was pregnant through rape. She tells Hermione that she doesn’t need to be with Draco but Hermione loves Draco. Anytime Draco is away, she is scared he is dead and is codependent on him. Even if its toxic, I didn’t care since their love was so deep. Draco had a lab and foraging baskets so she can make potions. Ginny pissed me off since she kept trying to separate Hermione and Draco. Draco and Hermione always cuddled and Draco couldn’t sleep without her. Draco openly looks at her possessively and it was nice to see him laugh and smile. She made him a prosthetic arm with a wand in the forearm. She gave birth to Aurore and when Aurore grabbed Draco’s hand, he was attached. Aurore became closer to James as they grew older. They followed the news and saw that people stepped in now that Voldemort was going to die soon. Ginny is pissed they didn’t mention how Ron, Harry, and the others. “I’m going to take care of you.” She held his hand tighter and pressed it against her chest. “I’m yours, as long as you want me.” His hand slid up to cradle her face. He stared at her, his silver eyes intent. “Always. As long as I live.” Ginny leaves when James is 5 and it takes her a year to kill Voldemort, she tells everyone the truth about the war. She doesn’t mention Hermione and she knows Draco will never be redeemed. Ginny takes James with her so that he can go to Hogwarts. Aurore learns about the history of her parents and it devastates her. Once she is old enough, she gets a job and reunites with James and Ginny. The book ends on a devastating note, we get a happy ending for Dramione. But all of their sacrifices go unnoticed. Draco is seen as a monster, people act like he is Voldemort. Hermione is nothing but a footnote, that she was a surrogate and did not fight. Hermione gave all of herself to the war but no one will ever know the truth. “She was a non-active member of the Order of the Phoenix and did not fight.” It’s fucking sad and Draco is right: “He pressed his lips against her forehead. “You’re better than anyone,” he said quietly, the words brushing against her skin. “This world doesn’t deserve you at all.” The world does not deserve Hermione. I love these two so much, their love for each other was immeasurable. The sacrifices they made for each other and the war is devastating. I am just glad they have all the time in the world to live together in peace. (hide spoiler)] Stay safe folks! [image] ...more |
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Trigger warnings: (view spoiler)[ Cheating (MMC has to have a fake relationship with OW and FMC consents even if she doesn’t like it. It got physical and went to kisses and hand-holding. FMC saw the MMC and OW kiss on the red carpet with tongue and this happened without her approval), social anxiety (FMC is shy and vomited when on the red carpet for the first time, putting this here in case), sharing nude photos without consent, body-shaming (hide spoiler)] Note: The author who has added the books to Goodreads is not the author who has written these books (the account is not theirs, this has been verified by the author on Wattpad). Out of respect for the author, I won’t be posting detailed reviews for these books. I’ll add trigger warnings for those who wanna check them out as well as the link to where to read them. I’ll have personal ratings for me but I won’t be posting them either. I have already read a lot of their books and might have to copy and paste some portions of this on other "reviews" since I do wanna add these books to my shelves. But their books are freely available on Wattpad, they are kind enough to let their stories be free for us all to read. Unfortunately, a lot of people have plagiarized from this author and have tried to add their books to pay-per-chapter apps. If you can help and report this when you see it, that would help a ton. Link to book: https://www.wattpad.com/story/3195587... This is about Rio and Polly, Rio is an upcoming singer and his girlfriend is Polly. For him to become more famous, his agent asks him to get into a fake relationship for PR. Rio refuses at first but then, he asks Polly if it’s okay. Polly is hesitant but gives in and eventually the demands grow more, how many appearances he has to make as a couple as well as his actions. When Polly wants to talk to him about it, she goes to him when he is with the OW and he acts like he doesn’t know her. People chase her down and he lets her go, he doesn’t prioritize her or her safety. I loved Polly’s pettiness and the grovel was satisfying, great read. [image] Happy reading folks. I love GroveltoHEA and they have surprised me by making MMCs do TERRIBLE things and have me forgive them with grovel. And y’all know how much I love grovel. There are so many things I’m against but they somehow manage to make it work. And even if I don’t forgive the MMC entirely in the end, the stories are so well-written. ...more |
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Trigger Warnings: Not sure if this is a trigger but there is an OW that gets a lil too close to the MMC and he doesn’t push her away. Nothing happens, no feelings are involved but just putting it here in case people need it. Note:The author who has added the books to Goodreads is not the author who has written these books (the account is not theirs, this has been verified by the author on Wattpad). Out of respect for the author, I won’t be posting detailed reviews for these books. I’ll add trigger warnings for those who wanna check them out as well as the link to where to read them. I’ll have personal ratings for me but I won’t be posting them either. I have already read a lot of their books and might have to copy and paste some portions of this on other "reviews" since I do wanna add these books to my shelves. But their books are freely available on Wattpad, they are kind enough to let their stories be free for us all to read. Unfortunately, a lot of people have plagiarized from this author and have tried to add their books to pay-per-chapter apps. If you can help and report this when you see it, that would help a ton. Link to book: https://www.wattpad.com/story/3321978... This is about Lyra and Gideon who are high school sweethearts. They moved in together after college and are so in love. That is until Lyra walks in on Gideon during a friend get-together. She overhears him saying that she’s clingy to the point that it annoys him. He made it seem like some sort of chore to deal with her. So Lyra confronts him and gives him the space he wants. I loved how short this was and the grovel was satisfying. The writing is amazing as always, if you need something quick check it out. [image] Happy reading folks. I love GroveltoHEA and they have surprised me by making MMCs do TERRIBLE things and have me forgive them with grovel. And y’all know how much I love grovel. There are so many things I’m against but they somehow manage to make it work. And even if I don’t forgive the MMC entirely in the end, the stories are so well-written. ...more |
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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Death of loved ones, drowning, panic attacks, struggles with dyslexia, PTSD, trauma, parent infidelity, nightmares ins
Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Death of loved ones, drowning, panic attacks, struggles with dyslexia, PTSD, trauma, parent infidelity, nightmares insomnia, self-harm, suicide, depression, arson, abusive parents mentioned, addiction, drugs, eating disorder, bullying, rape, grooming student to sexual activities, sexual assault, homophobia, pedophilia, bullying (hide spoiler)] Gibsie belonged to the rest of the world. Gerard belonged just to me. This is the 5th book in the Boys of Tommen series and you have to read the books in this order: Binding 13 Keeping 13 Saving 6 Redeeming 6 This book focuses on our sunshine couple Claire and Gibsie. They have been best friends since they were babies and are each other’s life. Gibsie is battling his demons and Claire is the sunshine that scares them away. But the longer he waits to make things official, the further Claire pulls away. I would never cause harm to Claire Biggs. She was too important to me. She was everything to me. I was skeptical when it was announced that the future couples in the series would only get one book. This book was the shortest in the series, and we only get one book for Clibsie so the pacing was off. I liked the beginning since the transitions of recalling events in Clibsie’s friendship were done well, it wasn’t the typical past and present chapters. But then it felt like I was reading an entirely other book. The ending was abrupt, there was so much more that could have been explored. There was a focus on drama on other characters that took away from the romance between the main couple. It felt like long chapters were summarized into small paragraphs. This didn’t feel like a book for Clibsie, it felt like an epilogue for couples and an intro for other couples. There was repetitiveness of recaps of couples that we know. We know about JohnnyShannon’s and AoifeJoey’s stories. But every time they appear, Claire and Gibsie go into detailed monologues about them. The romance between Clibsie didn’t do them justice, this story was mainly focused on trauma. And I fucking hate the people who posted spoilers before the book was out. I was not able to view things in an unbiased way cuz I knew about one character’s traumatic past and it made me feel more hate for a specific character (starts with an L). These specific stans failed to mention certain spoilers (their fav character being the biggest fucking bully). I adored the family moments (but there wasn’t enough), and the friendships so I am rating this high, but it was disappointing. [image] Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ The prologue had me crying, it was the funeral for Gibsie’s dad Joe and his little sister Bethany who died while drowning, Claire’s dad saved Gibsie. Claire is 5 and holds Gibsie’s hand who is 7. Gibsie hates his mom’s boyfriend Keith and son Mark so he goes to Claire’s place and holds her hand while he sleeps. Fast-forward to the present, they have cuddled and shared a bed since then. They were best friends but they spent more time together over the summer. Gibsie and Claire tell each other they love each other but Claire believes he doesn’t love her the right way. They do everything a couple would do except intimate things and labelling their relationship. Gibsie has nightmares and the only person who knows is Claire, she cuddles him when he sleepwalks to her room. Gibsie’s nightmares got worse and were triggered after Lizzie pushed him into the water in K13. He sees a therapist but Keith lives with them and Gibsie hates him. Mark was abroad since he was accused of raping Lizzie’s sister. Lizzie can’t stand Gibsie cuz of Mark and blames Gibsie for her sister’s death. [image] Hughie and Gibsie crack me up. “See?” Grinning wickedly, Gerard waggled his brows at the same time as flexing his pecs. “I’m not corrupting her.” “Don’t you shake your tits at me,” Hugh warned, waving an accusing finger around. “And don’t even think about cooking up anything fishy in here with my sister, either.” “I don’t cook fish, Hugh, I bake buns,” Gerard shot back with a wink. “In ovens.” Or this “Ignore your cranky uncle, babies,” Gerard called over his shoulder, as he sauntered out of my room. “Daddy will be back tonight.” “Go the fuck home, Gibs!” “Fine. I need to go check on your nephew anyway.” “He’s not my nephew, you freak. He’s a hedgehog in hibernation in your mam’s hot press because you and my sister have issues with taking in strays.” Hughie saw Gibsie as his own brother and looked out for Claire; we see more of his personality in this book, he is a sweet brother even to Gibsie. But he was emotionally cheating on Katie with Lizzie, Gibsie called him out for it. Hughie and Lizzie used to be best friends but she shut him out when her sister died, they dated when they were young but she broke up with him and it broke Hughie until he found Katie. The friend group goes on a camping trip and it was nice seeing the group together, but it is ruined cuz of Lizzie. When Katie sees that Lizzie is eating marmite, she asks Lizzie why, it was harmless. This resulted in Lizzie making a comment about Katie having an eating disorder in front of everyone. “Yeah, because sticks and stones will break my bones and words will make me starve myself to death.” Lizzie narrowed her eyes. “Isn’t that how the saying goes?” Gibsie’s mom treated him well and was best friends with Claire’s mom but she forces Gibsie to accept Keith as a father. She cheated on Joe, Gibsie’s dad, with Keith while Joe worked his ass off. Once Joe died, Keith and Mark moved into their house and Gibsie hated it. Claire helped Gibsie get into a bathtub to help him get over his fear of water. They were parents of kittens and a hedgehog, it was funny seeing them fight over custody whenever they had fights. “You can’t keep my kids from me. I have rights.” “Are you serious?” I shook my head and gaped at him. “Oh my god, Gerard, I’m not going to keep the babies from you.” Gibsie was having breakdowns and kept telling himself he was fine. Dee, the school secretary, was nasty as hell and Gibsie ended things and felt guilty cuz of Claire. He would pleasure Dee but she never touched him. She was a predator who groomed him, they started when he was 15. Lizzie bullies Gibsie, she makes fun of his dyslexia and says he has no right to be happy. Claire and Gibsie stood up for each other, they were fed up with her bullying. It pissed me off that Shannon and Feely were excusing Lizzie because of her trauma. Trauma does not excuse bullying. Lizzie dismisses Gibsie’s trauma about his family drowning. She makes it seem like her sister’s death is more important. It was fucking disgusting, even when Gibsie said he lost his sister too, Lizzie didn’t care. If you were to say anything around her, she would turn it into something negative. Like when Claire told Gibsie she got a job, Lizzie told them not to make a big deal since it was just a job. She instigates a fight with Gibsie and mentions that the wrong sibling was saved the day of the accident. She is so fucked up for saying that and Gibsie believed it. Feely and Shannon were quiet when Gibsie was being bullied by Lizzie. But the second he starts defending himself, they tell them to stop fighting, like what the fuck? Why are y’all not calling her out for starting the fights? Claire and Johnny always had his back. “You’re instigating an argument,” Claire cut in, releasing her hold on me to face her friend. “Stop it.” “You’re always taking his side,” Lizzie snapped, throwing her hands up. “Every goddamn time, Claire.” Lizzie said the most traumatic, triggering things to Gibsie. Lizzie wanted Claire to choose her over Gibsie. Claire didn’t do that since she was close to Gibsie since they were babies. It wasn’t some random boy she was throwing her friendship for. Lizzie was treating everyone like shit and never prioritized others but she expected Claire to prioritize her. I felt bad for her and what she went through. But there is always a limit, people can’t always be punching bags. Shannon and Lizzie started a babysitting business without telling Claire. I love Shannon but she was bullied in the past, seeing her excuse Lizzie’s behaviour because “hurt people hurt people” just pissed me off. Would she say the same thing about Bella if she had trauma to justify her behaviour? Mark moves back into Gibsie’s place which triggers him. Claire tells Lizzie’s mom that Lizzie might be cutting herself again because of the cut she saw on Lizzie’s leg which Lizzie said was from barbed wire (Claire didn’t believe it). Lizzie shows up at Claire’s place to yell at her since her mom has heart problems. Gibsie defends Claire and Hughie is the one to calm Lizzie down. Gibsie stays at Johnny’s place and seeing him spooning Johnny was funny. Johnny and Gibsie’s friendship goes both ways, they are both loyal and needy for one another. [image] “Gibs, for the last time, stop bleeding spooning me!” was the first thing I heard my best friend say on Wednesday morning, swiftly followed by the heel of his foot digging into my shin. “Okay, ow,” I huffed, blinking my eyes open when pain ricocheted up my leg. “That fucking hurt, Cap. You know I bruise like a peach.” Claire got into a fight with Lizzie since she was hurting Gibsie. Instead of apologizing, Lizzie tells Claire that Jamie wants to ask her out. Jamie is a guy Claire went to a dance with as a kid and he tried to touch her so Gibsie saved her. Lizzie insists that Jamie is different but she was wrong. Gibsie heard Jamie talk about wanting to fuck Claire. Lizzie wanted Claire to move on from Gibsie since she believed he was a fuckboy. Hughie did mention that Gibsie fingered someone years ago. Gibsie admits to Claire he made mistakes in the past but Claire is it for him. When Jamie asks Claire out, Lizzie is the one who accepts the date on her behalf. If Claire did the same to Lizzie, Lizzie would have lost it and told her to mind her own business. Claire called her out saying that this was Lizzie’s way of trying to hurt Gibsie. Shannon was the one to notice Claire was uncomfortable and told Jamie to give Claire time. Not only did Lizzie not care that Claire was uncomfortable, it felt like her motive was just to separate Claire and Gibsie, and Jamie was a shitty guy. Aoife and Joey had their baby and Aoife is like their big sister. Joey joined Johnny and Gibsie and helped ruin Jamie’s car. “Okay, this could actually be fun.” Aoife grinned. “The sex talk: Aoife Molloy style.” “Molloy,” Joey warned, returning from his shower just in time to spoil the fun. “Whatever it is you’re thinking about telling them, don’t. They’re only in fifth year.” Claire decides to go on the date with Jamie and Gibsie is jealous. When Jamie kissed her, Claire pushed away and said ew and left. Gibsie asks how the date was and she admitted she hated it but was tired of waiting for him. Gibsie didn’t think he was mentally ready to be in a relationship because of his trauma. Claire continues to push Gibsie and he helps her masturbate in bed. He doesn’t kiss her but she is happy they made progress and he ends up avoiding her. He says he is scared to lose her since she is important to him and he loves her the most. They continue this back and forth for the whole book. Claire is mad at him and walks in the rain, he follows her and they finally kiss. During a party, Gibsie’s mom sends Keith to pick up Gibsie with Mark. There is a big fight and Gibsie runs away. Dee finds him and touches his crotch, he pushes her off and leaves. She was wearing a costume so no one knew it was her. Someone takes a picture and shows Claire who cries, thinking he cheated. Gibsie promises it was nothing but he doesn’t tell her who it was. “Me?” His eyes widened in outrage. “You’re the one in the relationship when you’re already in a relationship.” “I am not in a relationship, Gerard.” “Yes, you are,” he roared back at me. “With me!” “We are not together, Gerard.” “Yes, we are!” “I’m not yours.” “Well, I’m yours,” he came right back with. “I’m yours, Claire.” Gibsie asks Claire to be his girlfriend and Hughie tells Gibsie to never break Claire’s heart. Hughie was sick and I felt like he might have cheated on Katie with Lizzie. There was a shift and Katie became quieter. Lizzie has more breakdowns after she bullies people and Hughie is the one to calm her down. He would hold her to his chest in front of Katie, I can’t imagine how she is feeling. Lizzie continues to blame Gibsie for her sister’s death and when everyone reminds her that it was Mark, she says that Gibsie was his step-brother. I don’t understand her logic. If a family member does something, why is another family member blamed? She hates Gibsie more than Mark, I swear. Gibsie sees Mark in his room and we find out that Mark raped Gibsie from when he was 7 to 11 years old. My heart broke for Gibsie, I knew this spoiler because of Lizzie stans, but I didn’t know how young he was. Despite all of his trauma, all Gibsie did was put good into the world, even when Lizzie blamed him when he was the victim. Gibsie tells Mark to leave his house before he tells the cops what he did. Mark had a son and wife so he left. Gibsie works the courage to tell Claire since he has a suicide letter that Lizzie’s sister sent him. He tells Claire about Dee and Claire tells Dee to quit or she will tell the principal. “Gerard.” Her tone was soft, too fucking soft to handle in this moment, and when she covered the hand I had resting on the gearstick, I almost lost it. “It’s okay to not be okay.” Gibsie visits his father and sister’s grave and sees Darren visiting Lizzie’s sister’s grave. Darren is a victim of rape. Gibsie asks him questions about intimacy since he struggles with Claire, Darren sensed something and told Gibsie to contact him if he wanted to talk. I don’t understand why this was here since he never contacted Darren. Claire and Gibsie have sex in their treehouse. Gibsie was a virgin just like most Clibsie stans predicted since he believed Claire was it for him. I still wanted to know the details of him with other girls but it seems like he never let anyone touch him, only Claire. Later the group go to a dance, Gibsie forgets the tickets so Claire goes to his place. Claire accidentally took Lizzie’s sister’s suicide letter since it was with the other stuff. At the dance, Claire reads the letter with Shannon by accident. The friend group is in a room and Claire tells Lizzie to never insult Gibsie again. She ends her friendship with Lizzie and reveals that Gibsie was the real victim. In Lizzie’s sister’s letter, she says that Gibsie told her that Mark touched him inappropriately, she was his babysitter. Lizzie’s sister was dating Mark and thought Gibsie was jealous and shut it down. Months later, she walks in and sees it happen. She left the letter with a statement for the police and hoped that her presence being gone would help Gibsie heal. Lizzie screams she doesn’t believe it while Gibsie is in shock. His trauma was revealed to everyone by Claire without his permission. He had no time to prepare and it honestly was fucked up. I can understand why Claire did it, when you are so worked up to protect the person you love, you blurt shit out, especially since Lizzie was saying vile shit to Gibsie. Claire shouldn’t have done it and it should have been Gibsie’s choice, but I don’t hate her. Claire shows Johnny the suicide note. Johnny breaks down crying, hugged Gibsie and said Gibsie is his, I was crying. “And if you think this is going to chase me off then you’ve another thing coming, fucker, because I’m never leaving you. Do ya hear me? Because you’re my Gibs.” “And you’re my Kav.” Gibsie broke things off with Claire since he thought she couldn’t love him. Johnny didn’t leave Gibsie’s side and his mother separated from Keith. Mark left the country so the cops couldn’t arrest him and Gibsie refused to give a statement on Dee so she was never arrested. Lizzie didn’t believe Gibsie and continued to make things about herself. Johnny told Lizzie he was fed up with her behaviour and wasn’t gonna stand around anymore. “Back off,” Johnny warned, quickly cutting her off. “I get that you’re one of Shannon’s best friends, and I’m trying to respect that relationship, really I am, but don’t walk over a line here, because he’s my best friend, and I won’t hesitate to take his side.” They all cried for Gibsie when they found out the truth. Johnny encouraged Gibsie to meet Claire and they got back together. Claire apologized but she said she would do anything to protect him and wanted the truth to come out eventually, especially since Mark had a son. But Gibsie had to deal with people staring at him differently. The book ended so abruptly, right when they got to school, the friend group wasn’t the same and Gibsie asked Claire to take a walk with him. We never see how he deals with his trauma, how Claire and Gibsie continue their relationship, what Gibsie plans for the future, if Gibsie ever talks to Darren, a conversation between Gibsie and his mom about Keith and Mark, literally nothing. Gibsie has a care bear tattoo that’s brushed over when it’s clearly for Claire. So much could have been explored but it ended so fast. Lizzie’s bullying took up half the book and the trauma was the other half. We didn’t see many family moments between Claire and Hughie’s families. But I am still happy to have seen more Johnny and Gibsie moments. The book kinda left on a cliffhanger since the friend group was broken. I don’t know if we will get another book in the series since the bullies managed to scare the author away but I hope we do, even if I might be disappointed. “Snuggling my Claire-Bear equals a happy Gibsie. Running laps on the treadmill until I puke equals a very unhappy Gibsie.” The feel of his big body pressed to mine set loose what felt like a cage of wild butterflies in my chest. “It’s all about priorities, babe.” “And I’m yours?” I teased. “Always,” he confirmed sleepily, tightening his hold on my waist.” (hide spoiler)] Stay safe folks! [image] ...more |
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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Sexism, misogyny, cheating ex, death of loved one, parents abandon kid, homeless minor, suicide ideation, self-medicat
Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Sexism, misogyny, cheating ex, death of loved one, parents abandon kid, homeless minor, suicide ideation, self-medicating drugs, parent imprisoned, light BDSM (light choking, guy dom), slut-shaming (hide spoiler)] I’ll be completely honest, I saw my friends’ ratings and wasn’t looking forward to this. Flawless is the first book following Rhett and Summer and it is adorable, and the second book is Heartless, CadeLukeWilla ARE EVERYTHING. So going from them to this was just plain boring. Still, I was glad to get crumbs of my fav couples. The beginning of this book wasn’t terrible but it was anticlimactic. As I went on, I grew bored of the characters, especially since they are away from the family for most of the book. I didn’t care for Jasper or Sloane. Jasper kept giving mixed signals that made no sense and Sloane was too boring for me. But I can finally read Winter and Theo’s book! [image] Jasper is an NHL goalie who is childhood friends with Sloane. Sloane has always had a crush on Jasper but she got engaged to someone else. Once she gets an anonymous text message before her wedding, she turns to Jasper for help. Jasper will do anything to protect Sloane so once she asks him to help her, he decides to help her run away from her own wedding. Jasper: Sunny. Be less cool. Come save me. The waitress keeps trying to talk to me. Sloane: So talk to her. Jasper: I don’t like talking to people. Sloane: You talk to me. Jasper: You’re not people. Sloane: Lmao. What am I then? Jasper: My person. Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ Sloane is engaged to this spoiled rich asshole named Sterling. Jasper was best friends with Sloane since they were kids. Sterling ignores her throughout the dinner which pisses Jasper off. Jasper is a goalie in the NHL and had a rough upbringing. Jasper is practically brothers with the Eaton brothers and Sloane is their cousin. Jasper calls Sloane “Sunny”, which is adorable. Sloane met Sterling 5 months ago, her dad has a partnership with Sterling’s dad and is rushing the marriage, Jasper hates her dad. On the wedding day, Sloane doesn’t wanna get married and cries. She’s always liked Jasper but he didn’t return her feelings. A private number texts Sloane a video of Sterling cheating on her. Cade and Rhett are there with Summer and Willa. Willa overheard Sterling yelling at Sloane so Jasper goes to check. Sterling fucked a stripper the day before the wedding. Jasper pushes him to the ground and Sloane says she wants to leave and go to the ranch. When they’re gonna escape, Willa falls to the ground acting like she’s in pain while Cade is trying not to roll his eyes, I fucking love them. Jasper gives Sloane a piggyback ride and looks at her in a heated way, too soon bruh. When they get to the ranch, Harvey tells Jasper that Beau is missing. Harvey was the one who loved and raised Jasper. Harvey said Beau was on a mission and the military is doing an investigation since something went wrong during Beau’s mission. We see a flashback of someone bullying Jasper because he was homeless. His parents abandoned him and he lived in a Honda car. A guy was hitting Jasper and Beau hit him back. Beau says he can take what he needs and come live with him. [image] Jasper was leaving for his game and Sloane tags along. She got a jersey with his number on it. Sloane buys makeup and asks him about her face and he says she’s his girl and looks good in anything. Sloane watches Jasper during the game and he doesn’t do well. Jasper tells his teammates that his brother Beau went missing. His coach Roman says he needs to take time off since family comes first, suspending him and giving him a hug. Sloane’s mom Cordelia called and said if she were Sloane, she would stay away, supporting her. Jasper is sleeping in his childhood bed and Sloane hears him punch the wall. He’s gone to therapy after losing his sister but it’s getting to him again because of Beau. Sloane is wearing his jersey and goes to his room, cleaning the hand he hurt, and he’s turned on. Ever since she got engaged, he realized he wanted her. He thinks back to when he used to rub her feet. After seeing her moan, he saw her as a woman and stopped. He didn’t wanna be with her since they had an age gap, they were friends, and he didn’t wanna complicate things (which doesn’t match up with his reasons in the future). He starts punching his pillow and says his head is fucked up, he hates that Beau is missing. Sloane tells him to move over and sleeps in bed with him, they cuddle. [image] We see a flashback of Sloane asking Jasper out to prom. Jasper was 24 and she was in high school. Jasper says he can’t since she deserves better and he’s in the media and old. He wants to be with her now but sees her engagement ring, she isn’t ready to say goodbye to her old life. Harvey says Violet, his daughter, wants him to drive up with a trailer full of hay. Cade and Harvey wanna stay home in case there’s news about Beau, plus Willa is pregnant. Jasper says he will do it and Sloane says she will go too. Sloane asked if Jasper thought of her and he says he did every single day, I doubt that. Sloane says they should play I Spy and Jasper says something blue which is one of his favourite things in the car. I knew immediately it was her eyes, and she is shocked. Jasper noticed Sloane’s ex and dad calling and asked if she was gonna answer. Sloane told Sterling and her dad she doesn’t owe them shit, Jasper is proud. [image] At the hotel, they get two twin beds and Jasper has a flashback of his family when he passes out. His little sister Jenny and he were driving quads. Jasper crosses the highway and his dad tells him to check if it’s safe. Jasper turned to his family when he sees a trailer passing the road. He makes a signal to stop but realizes his sister doesn’t know those signals. His sister ends up getting hit, and their dad tried to prevent it but it was too late, and Jasper blames himself. Sloane is in the water outside and she dares him to go in, asking what Beau would do, so Jasper strips and joins her. They go to a restaurant and Jasper convinces Sloane to play pool and she doesn’t know how. He stands behind her, the typical close proximity shit. She tells him she feels like she’s in a movie and he says it isn’t like a movie since they’re just friends and that hurts Sloane. She sees girls fangirling over Jasper. They ask if Sloane is with him since she has the ring on and she says no they’re friends. [image] The girl asks Jasper to sign her shirt so he holds her shoulder and Sloane hates seeing his hands on another woman. Then a girl asks him to sign her boobs and Jasper says no. She says they can do it in the washroom and Jasper is uncomfortable. Sloane tells the girl to stop embarrassing herself and the girl insults Sloane for whoring it up with Jasper. Sloane laughs and Jasper takes her away, it woulda been nice to see him stick up for her. Sloane is drunk and Jasper says she needs to drink water and accidentally throws the bottle at her face. He lets her do a facial on him and Sloane stares at Jasper while putting the clay mask on. When it’s his turn, he stares at her mouth. Sloane couldn’t handle the tension and said she would do the rest herself. The next day, Sloane apologizes for cockblocking him, he says he likes sex but nothing that comes with it. Sloane says she’s seen him with women and he says he doesn’t know them well, just fuck buddies. It’s cringey seeing Sloane act this way and it also shows Jasper’s feelings for Sloane IMHO isn’t as strong since he’s fucked around this entire time. Jasper’s mom only calls him for money, his mom got on drugs and is in prison or rehab and he blames himself. His dad has a wife, kids, and a cat. He blames Jasper for the accident and said nothing when he saw Jasper. Suddenly, the brakes on the vehicle are malfunctioning and Jasper is tryna stop. [image] Jasper manages to get them off the road and uses an emergency brake. Jasper is in so much shock he recoils. He isn’t hearing Sloane calls his name so she climbs into his lap. She presses her forehead to his and says she’s okay and he finally looks up and holds her to him. Her nose has a little bump from the bottle he accidentally threw so he asks if her nose hurts. He kisses her nose, forehead and cheek. Then he starts to kiss her jaw and lick her, and he says he can’t ever lose her. He says he might fuck up what they have and kisses her. He stops and says it isn’t the right time or place. He says she’s too precious to take chances with so she asks when is the best time and he says when he says so. Sloane is pissed he’s only realizing now that he likes her. Jasper says he knows she likes him since she reciprocated during the kiss and Sloane told him her feelings never went away. He says they both had their careers and got busy and she got engaged but she was mad. They got to an inn and they didn’t have separate rooms. There was only one bed so Sloane asked for a cot. Jasper is relieved but shocked that she liked him for 18 years. Sloane asks how she’s supposed to believe weeks after she would’ve gotten married that Jasper was into her. She’s angry since she’s liked him for years and seen him with other women and thought he always saw her as the little cousin. [image] Jasper said when she was 18 and he was 24, he helped her move in. But Sloane’s dad saw and told Jasper not to cross the line with her or he will get Jasper off the hockey team. Jasper never thought of Sloane as anything then but he had nothing but hockey. Since Sloane’s dad was rich, he could pull strings to get Jasper off the team. Jasper says he missed her first ballet show in fear of her dad. But he isn’t afraid anymore and she’s his. Sloane cries, thinking about how her dad manipulated everyone. Jasper wipes her tears and asks how to make her feel better but she leaves to take a shower. Jasper goes in after she’s done and Sloane goes into the washroom to see him masturbating. He continues while telling her to sit on the counter. Once he’s done, she tells him she came to see the tattoo on his ribs. He has a tattoo of a ballerina because he missed her first ballet show. He wanted to be there but cuz of her dad, he couldn’t so he got the tattoo instead. You’re telling me this guy didn’t know he had feelings for her but got a tattoo for his friend? Bruh. He says since her dad told him to stay away, he realized he may have feelings for her. This makes no sense since he says he had feelings for her once she got engaged. Then he said he wanted to avoid a relationship cuz of their age gap and ruining their friendship. The fuck? [image] Jasper asks her to come to bed and when she refuses, he lifts her up and puts her on the bed. She couldn’t sleep and Jasper asks if she needs him to take care of her. He hates the ring on her but says to keep it on as a fuck you to Sterling. He helps her get off while asking if she imagined him while fucking other people. Once she’s done he gets away thinking about how he’s scared of hurting her since he always pulls back from people. He wanted to hold her but she turns away saying boys are dumb. Jasper wakes up to Sloane on him and loves it but Sloane wakes up annoyed. They make it to Violet’s and Violet tells Jasper that they found Beau and he’s safe. Sloane hangs out with Violet and her friends who are from another series, I honestly didn’t care. Violet set up a cottage for Jasper and Sloane. Once they’re in the cottage Sloane asks if they’re gonna hang for a bit at Violet’s. Jasper asks what she wants and Sloane is pissed, asking him to tell her what he feels for once and Jasper says he’s afraid of losing her. Sloane says he’s never gonna lose her and to fuck her since she’s been dreaming of it for years. He says he gets off on telling Sloane what to do and having control. He says she doesn’t need that since she’s always had men boss her around. I don’t know what the fuck is going on. First, he says he saw her as a sister and their age gap and doesn’t wanna ruin their friendship. Then he says he started feeling things when she got engaged. But he got a fucking tattoo for her before all that. Then he said he felt things for her after her dad told him to stay away. Now he’s saying he wants to stay away cuz he wants to control her. Which one is it Jasper? The man wasn’t consistent. Jasper tells Sloane to strip and take off the ring while crawling to him. I guess this is light BDSM, Sloane was into it, I was not, but they fuck. [image] Jasper asked about birth control, she had an IUD. But when he asked if she wanted to tell him anything else, she was pissed and called him out for fucking around. When they were making out, Jasper threw everything off the counter. So when she said that, he left her lying there and started to clean. I’m sorry but this man getting up to clean in the middle of sexy times was too funny to me. Sloane asks Jasper if she’s the only woman in his life. He says she is and says they’ve been with others but it doesn’t matter because he only thinks of her. They have a serious convo while driving but Jasper tells Sloane to masturbate, I didn’t find these scenes hot, I’m sorry. He tells her to move in with him and has multiple houses in Chesnut Springs. Harvey and Beau Facetime them and Jasper doesn’t hide that they’re together. Beau got some burns and won’t be able to go back to the military. Jasper goes to see Roman and says he needs to play and Roman is relieved they found Beau. Sloane tells Jasper to wait in the hallway while she goes to Sterling’s penthouse to get her things. Sloane says she realized nothing in the penthouse mattered to her but she took her stuff. Sloane and Jasper live their boring lives. She dances since she was a ballerina while Jasper goes to games and comes home, they both live together. They hang out with the family and Sloane hangs out with Willa and Summer. Jasper and Sloane are in their car when they see Winter get out of hers, yelling at the guy behind her which was Theo, he calls her Tink. She says he was following her and seeing Winter yell at Theo was so funny. Rhett shows up and Winter is still married and he says he will get her outta that marriage. Theo was so confident that Winter was not gonna be with her husband. [image] Jasper goes to Sloane’s ballet concert and they fuck in the dressing room. Sloane’s dad is pissed to see them looking like they clearly fucked. Sloane’s mom Cordelia looks upset with her husband while he threatens to end Jasper’s career. When her dad invites her to her birthday party dinner, Sloane says she isn’t coming. It’s so stupid, Jasper says he has to go to his game and in his POV he was literally thinking he loves Sloane. She starts crying and Jasper says he knows it’ll hurt to lose family so she should go mend the relationship. But Sloane is afraid her dad will ruin Jasper’s career since he has connections. Sloane asked if he’s willing to gamble on that and Jasper stops talking. This is why I can’t take Jasper seriously. Sloane says she can’t always put Jasper back together if they’re gonna be together. All Jasper had to do was say he was willing to gamble with his career cuz he loved her but he doesn’t and it hurts Sloane. Willa, Winter, Summer, and Sloane, go out for drinks. Sloane says she wishes Jasper showed he wanted her as much as she wanted him. She’s tired of it since she ran after him her whole life. [image] Jasper told Harvey that Sloane asked if he wanted to gamble with his career and he wanted to make sure he can and fixed it with his team. Harvey asked if he told Sloane and called his kids idiots. Once Jasper comes home, he calls Sloane but she’s with the girls. He sleeps in the house next to theirs rather than meet her. Harvey asked if Jasper loved Sloane and he did. But Jasper never said it because the people he loves either die or leave him, god stop. Harvey says Sloane has been patient with Jasper and it’s his turn to prove he wants Sloane. There’s a knock on the door and it’s Cordelia, Sloane’s mom, HARVEY’S WIFE’S LITTLE SISTER. She says she needs a room and Harvey says she can stay. Cordelia tells Jasper not to let Sloane’s dad or Sterling get to him. AND HARVEY IS STARING AT HER WITH INTENSITY. IM SORRY BUT NO WHAT THE FUCK? HARVEY AND CORDELIA?! NO. SHE IS HIS WIFE’S LITTLE SISTER. I’m sorry I would rather he be single but if he’s with someone, HIS WIFE’S LITTLE SISTER?! I don’t care how many years it’s been. I’m sorry but I hate it, even if Cordelia is sweet. [image] Sloane meets her dad and Sterling, Jasper comes and says he would gamble anything for Sloane and supports her while she tells her dad and Sterling off. Sterling comments about Sloane whoring and Jasper kicks his chair. Sloane says her dad should think about how to deserve a relationship with her and Sterling needs to get lost. He asks for his ring back and Jasper said he fucked it off her. Jasper apologizes for taking so long and they say they love each other. It was nice seeing the family together, even Luke. 6 months later, Harvey and Cordelia still live together and bicker. Cade has his baby girl Emma and the family is together at Jasper’s game, Beau is back and healing. Jasper’s team wins and he proposes to Sloane. Harvey walks Sloane down the aisle since her dad doesn’t come. Harvey gave Jasper some land as he did with his other sons to keep them close. He said Jasper is his son and he’s proud of him, it was so sweet seeing him pour his love out to everyone. Jasper got a tattoo on his ring finger. Cute ending but terribly boring, thank goodness it’s over. [image] (hide spoiler)] Stay safe folks! [image] ...more |
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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Civil War, journalists kidnapped, parental abandonment, parental death (pulmonary embolism), hemophobia (hide spoiler)
Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Civil War, journalists kidnapped, parental abandonment, parental death (pulmonary embolism), hemophobia (hide spoiler)] I saw Natasha Anders was gonna release a new book soon. Since I’ve read The Unwanted Wife so many times, I wanted to try something new. I read Husband’s Regret and DNFed it which I RARELY do but I hated it so much because of the MMC. I went into this hoping I might like it a lil. A bonus to this book is we see more of Theresa and Sandro from The Unwanted Wife since Theresa is the FMC Bobbi’s friend. Gabe was immature and stupid, this book lacked angst and grovel for me. It did have grovel but I didn’t find it sincere and it didn’t move me like I wanted it to. The MMC Gabe didn’t like how Bobbi dressed or looked and his demands were unreasonable, he was acting like a child so I couldn’t really like him. And Bobbi was a doormat, she stood up for herself every now and then and did make Gabe work at some point, but I didn’t care for her much. This book was addicting and it did pass the time but I wouldn’t say I loved it. [image] Bobbi had a crush on her childhood friend Gabe for years. Gabe doesn’t see Bobbi as a woman he wants to be with. After getting drunk and kissing him, they decide to have a friends-with-benefits relationship. Bobbi loves Gabe but he thinks of her as his dirty little secret. [image] Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ Bobbi is taken to Sandro’s party by her best friend Gabe who she is in love with. Once they’re there, he ignores her and flirts with Sandro’s sister Rosalie. Theresa, her friend and Sandro’s wife threw a surprise party for Sandro. Gabe was attracted to Rosalie but she was off-limits since she was Sandro’s sister. Bobbi is his opposite, he considers her messy when he’s neat and tidy. She’s been his close friend forever and he can’t imagine his life without her. Bobbi is pissed since she was Gabe’s date at the party but left her, when she’s drunk she asks him to dance with her. Bobbi started to unbutton his shirt and he stops her. He holds her face asking who hurt her since she was crying. She surprised him by kissing her and he kissed her back. Gabe told Bobbi to wait but Sandro got Theresa to put Bobbi into a guest room. Apparently, Sandro can’t stand to be at parties without Theresa so Gabe takes over looking after Bobbi. Gabe broke up with his ex months ago and was celibate, he thinks that’s why he kissed Bobbi and planned on finding someone to fuck. [image] Bobbi woke up hungover and Gabe wanted to get away because seeing her turned him on. He was changing when Bobbi sees him and starts touching him. He intentionally called her “Runt” and tells her to stop and she leaves, upset. Gabe was with Rosalie outside, he was wearing sunglasses and talking to Rosalie but he was watching Bobbi the entire time. Bobbi was hurt he was with Rosalie so she left. Gabe tried to confront Bobbi about the kiss and touching but she played it off as being drunk. Gabe invited Bobbi over for a movie and Bobbi said she doesn’t think it’s a good idea and they have a moment where he holds her hand. Bobbi owned a mechanic store and had guys working for her. When everyone put Bobbi down for starting an auto shop, Gabe always encouraged her. Gabe showed up, she had grease on her and he wiped it and showed her with disgust. Gabe went to the store thinking that seeing Bobbi working with grease will get rid of his attraction for her, which is fucked up. But it didn’t work and they leave for lunch. Bobbi told Gabe he should change things up, he always dates blondes (the typical shit we see in romance books) and orders the same food. He tells her she needs to learn to be more responsible with her company. How people rely on her, to stop being childish. He had the audacity to tell her to wear different clothes. He said her shorts are too short and that she should wear a bra. Gabe doesn’t wanna be with Bobbi since she isn’t the woman he envisioned being with. Bobbi says she isn’t gonna change the way she dresses for him. Their friend brings a guy named Kyle over. Kyle flirts with Bobbi and Gabe is so pissed when Kyle offers Bobbi a ride. Kyle asks Bobbi out and she still had feelings for Gabe. Gabe tried calling some women but didn’t have the energy to go on the dates. Gabe goes over to Bobbi’s place and hangs with her stepdad Mike. Gabe asked if Bobbi went out with Kyle but Mike didn’t know who that was. Gabe asks if it was okay for Bobbi to be out this late, she’s an adult and it felt like he was snitching. Mike told Gabe that Bobbi’s personal life is hers but has security at the shop. [image] Bobbi was at her friend’s place but Gabe keeps calling her phone. He asks where she is since it’s late. She says it’s none of his business and hangs up. So he texts Bronwyn’s husband to find out when she’s coming home. Bobbi goes home annoyed and he’s at her place. He said he was concerned about her when she asked why he was there. He touches her saying he knows she wants him and he wants her. They make out and he says that they are friends and he doesn’t wanna lose that friendship over meaningless sex. He thinks they can get it outta their systems and go back to normal without telling anyone. Bobbi asked what it was like with his “blondes” and he normally took them out to dinner and then went home to fuck. But he doesn’t wanna do that with Bobbi because he was ashamed of her, fuck him. Bobbi said okay to the arrangement while being cold and Gabe asked what she wanted. Bobbi knew she was gonna get hurt but wanted whatever she can get from Gabe. Gabe took Bobbi to his place and they fucked and fell asleep cuddling. Once Bobbi woke up and tried to leave since she didn’t wanna show she was hurt. Gabe asked her to stay but she said if they wanted to keep this from everyone she had to leave. Bobbi’s stepdad Mike was handing his company to Gabe. Gabe was panicking since he didn’t want Mike to know he was with Bobbi. Even though Gabe wanted meaningless sex, he felt things when they fucked. He called Bobbi and she didn’t answer so he cancelled all his appointments and went to Bobbi’s shop, I liked that he was the needy one. [image] The way this man had to use a handkerchief to wipe the seat before sitting, lord. Gabe asks her out for lunch and Bobbi says she’s working. Normally Gabe never takes her to brunch so she asked why he was changing things when he wanted them to be normal friends. Meanwhile, he’s confused at why she’s cagey, like bro you asked for meaningless sex and that’s what she’s giving you. Chase, his twin brother, asked if Gabe can pick him up at the airport. It’s funny Gabe was so shocked that Bobbi easily acted like he was her friend when he had a hard time doing the same. Gabe picked up Chase and they watch a movie when Bobbi rang their doorbell. He kisses her and Bobbi asks if she can talk to Chase and stay. Chase hugged Bobbi and even kissed her on the mouth which was weird, they were super affectionate. I was surprised Bobbi seemed closer to Chase and didn’t fall for him when he’s Gabe’s twin, so he’s just as handsome and sweeter. Chase tells her to sit next to him, has his arm around her and has her cheek on his chest which pisses off Gabe. Gabe admits he hates seeing Chase’s hands all over her and Bobbi said Chase is like a brother to her. Gabe asks why she doesn’t want Chase who looks exactly like him and Bobbi said she just wants him. [image] Chase asks when Bobbi left and realizes they’re fucking. I fucking loved Chase for standing up for Bobbi. He said if Gabe didn’t plan on being serious with her he would kick his ass. Gabe said they’re working it outta their systems and it’s a perfectly normal adult relationship. Chase called him out for hiding the relationship which is something he didn’t do with his exes. Chase said he’s treating Bobbi like she’s only good for fucking. Gabe thinks that Bobbi dresses ugly and doesn’t have the look he wants in a woman he wants to be seen with. It’s such a fucked up thing to think. Gabe hasn’t seriously dated women for more than a month and once they break up, he cuts them out of his life. He can’t do that with Bobbi since she’s his close friend. Bobbi admits Gabe makes her feel great when they’re together but when he sends her away she feels unworthy and pathetic and Chase is pissed. Gabe says he loves Bobbi’s smile, sense of humour, and eyes and Chase knows he likes her. [image] When Bobbi went to the football game meetup, Chase met up with her first. But she sees Gabe with his hands around Rosalie and is hurt, they’re close and acting like a couple. Gabe was pushing Rosalie’s hair off her forehead. This Rosalie shit was never resolved in the end, Gabe was a hypocrite with Bobbi. Bobbi was gonna play football and Bobbi called Gabe out for being with Rosalie. He said Rosalie is just a friend and Bobbi was being childish. When she’s hit in the face with a ball, Gabe tries to touch her and she moves away. Seeing Rosalie with Gabe pissed me off so I was glad Kyle showed up. Gabe was sad some guy will be with Bobbi in the future, this guy is so stupid. Gabe sees Kyle and Bobbi together and he’s pissed at Bobbi for allowing it. When minutes ago he had his hands around Rosalie, what a load of bullshit and double standards. Bobbi was hurt again and on her back and Gabe got into a fight with the guy who accidentally fell on her. Bobbi was bleeding and Gabe carried her away. He fought with the guy that injured her so Bobbi went to stop the fight. Gabe sees Bobbi bruised and asked how he could even consider a real relationship with her. How she never styles her hair, doesn’t know how to dress, and has grease under her fingernails. It’s such a fucked up thing to say, telling her he can’t have her in his life, how she doesn’t even wear makeup, the fuck? Bobbi says she’s been in love with him for years and never felt good enough. She knows she deserves better and leaves while crying. Kyle was sweet enough to follow her and walk her home. Gabe feels betrayed that Bobbi kept her feelings from him for years thinking he doesn’t even know her. The way he constantly victimizes himself pisses me off. Gabe was gonna follow but Chase told him to give her space and if she’s still hurt. [image] For two weeks Gabe didn’t contact Bobbi. She gets a call to her office and it’s Gabe, he asked how she was and surprised Bobbi by asking her to the ball his company was throwing. Bobbi says no and he said that he wants to do it right this time but she says she doesn’t care what he wants. He leaves voicemails on her work phone every day. She made her coworker monitor calls so Gabe wouldn’t be able to get through. She ignored Gabe’s phone calls on her cell where he left voicemails begging her to call back. He called her home phone, he called each of her friends with messages to ask Bobbi to call. But then she comes home to her dad saying Gabe sent a buncha white roses. He left a cheesy poem on the back saying he missed her and though Bobbi was amused, she called Chase and told him to tell Gabe to stop. One thing I love seeing is more confrontation and angst. But when a girl avoids the guy, it prevents us from seeing that but I loved Bobbi’s backbone. Gabe was happy to have gotten a reaction from her since he knew this would piss her off. Gabe sent flowers to Bobbi’s auto shop and had a poem where he said his life is blue without Bobbi. Bobbi needs time to get over him. When she goes to sleep she wakes up to Gabe in her room, Mike let him in and told him where Bobbi was. Gabe asked who she was going to the ball with and she wouldn’t answer. Gabe said he would be honoured if she was with him but she asked if she dressed with a tank top and shorts if he would be okay. She quoted his words about her not dressing well. Instead of saying it was a fucked up thing to say, he said he was sorry it hurt her but she doesn’t dress to fit his lifestyle. I’m sorry but does this guy ever learn? The fucking audacity. [image] I loved that Bobbi said she isn’t going to change who she is for him. Then Gabe says it isn’t fair for him to make changes. I’m sorry but what changes does he have to make? The fucker said he has to change the woman he will be seen with outside. I fucking hate Gabe, I’m sorry but Chase is so much better and they’re identical so go for him bro. Bobbi asked what would he be sacrificing. Having a less attractive person by his side, the fuck? And she knew that once he was over her he will move on while she would be publicly humiliated because she wasn’t good enough. He says that’s not true and she asks if he loves her and he says yes but she asked if he is in love with her. He said it isn’t fair to ask that since her confession threw him off. She asked him to leave since she isn’t willing to change anything and he said it wouldn’t kill her to go to a hairdresser and get her nails done because she is a woman. This guy is so unbearable, the way he’s openly admitting he doesn’t find her good enough to be beside him in public unless she fixes herself, the fuck? Does he hear himself? And the way he says it’s cuz she’s a woman? As if that’s all she’s good for? Luckily Bobbi didn’t give in and insisted he leaves so he did. [image] Gabe sent a tool bouquet with a note that said he found her attractive even if she has grease stains. The tools were everything Bobbi needed. Her store has been busy and Gabe came to visit. A worker went to shake Gabe’s hand and had grease and Gabe took it thinking about hand sanitizer in his car. He wanted to avoid being squeamish because it’ll piss Bobbi off. Bobbi sees Gabe and tells him she doesn’t want the tools but he said he won’t take them back. He lied about his Lamborghini needing a fix because he knew Bobbi has always wanted to take it apart and he just wanted to win her over. She says she can have her coworker look at it and he said he only trusted her with it. She said he should’ve months ago and Gabe is annoyed. He throws a tantrum saying she’s punishing him for not loving her and keeping the relationship a secret. How he cares and respects her but that’s not enough, bro calm the fuck down, he constantly bothers her at work. The way he told Bobbi to grow up and to understand that not all relationships have love right away is so stupid. She knows it will be temporary and is protecting herself. But he’s pissed she won’t give in. He says they can have a relationship and fuck and if they last they do but if they don’t, they don’t. He is honestly so disgusting, he expects everything to work his way. I don’t know what Bobbi sees in him. But Bobbi said they can go to the ball but she won’t change her appearance for him. He apologized for making her feel that way saying that she was beautiful. He then said he hopes she wears a bra though. He kissed her in front of everyone and Bobbi was happy. [image] Bobbi’s brother Billy threatened Gabe for hurting Bobbi and to be careful. Gabe admits to Billy that they are dating. Gabe was with Mike tryna explain that Bobbi was going on a date with him. Mike asks how long it’s been going on and Gabe says a month. Mike realizes the flowers were sent as an apology and told Gabe to treat Bobbi with respect since she’s been miserable. They went on a date and the way Gabe hates her clothes but “looked past it” because she’s beautiful was so stupid. His inner commentary was kinda like “Despite her shitty clothes and rat hair, she’s hot.” Gabe drives Bobbi home and she asks if she should come over but he said he didn’t wanna do things and rush everything. Some posh customer was at Bobbi’s store when Gabe visited. The woman was flirting with Gabe and tried to insult Bobbi so Gabe pulled Bobbi to him and kissed her. Gabe wanted people to know he was with Bobbi and when they went to the restaurant they normally go to, he was openly affectionate. Gabe started to change the way he acted by ordering stuff he never would order and stopping himself from arranging the table. Gabe found it hard to believe Bobbi thought he would like the customer who was a bitch. Bobbi said she wore makeup and a dress like Gabe liked and he called himself an idiot for telling Bobbi that. They made plans to meet during the game and at the game, Bobbi told her friends she was scared her relationship will end because of how she dresses at events. Theresa said how it wouldn’t kill her to wear a dress to some formal events Gabe has to go to. She asked if he was ashamed of being seen with her in her regular clothes at the restaurant and Bobbi said no. So Theresa said she should be willing to be a little formal at these events. It get it, it’s just the way he worded shit, expecting her to wear makeup, get a hairstylist, calling her fingernails nasty, that pissed me off. [image] The girls help Bobbi go shopping to find something she will like. Bobbi and Gabe went home and fucked, Gabe didn’t want Bobbi sneaking out. She said I love you but Gabe never said it back. Bobbi accidentally injured herself while working. Gabe immediately realized he wanted Bobbi for the rest of his life. Bobbi was close to being seriously injured but is safe. Gabe understood he loved her. Everyone came to visit Bobbi but Gabe and she was worried. He finally came with flowers and gives her a bouquet with a cheesy poem that says he loves her. He wrapped the thorns on a rose and it had an engagement ring, saying he wanted to marry and have kids with her. That was quick but whateva. She had a dress that suited her that she actually liked, she had it for the ball and Gabe loved it. In the future Bobbi is pregnant with twins and they were married for a year. It was a cute ending to their story even if it wasn’t as angsty or with amazing grovel as I would’ve liked, nice way to pass time though. [image] (hide spoiler)] Stay safe folks! [image] ...more |
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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Parental abuse (physical, verbal, emotional), bully, parental abandonment and neglect, stalking (hide spoiler)] I start Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Parental abuse (physical, verbal, emotional), bully, parental abandonment and neglect, stalking (hide spoiler)] I started this since I knew it was short and had grovel. It was so short that I finished it in a coupla hours and I was surprised to have enjoyed it. If you go into this expecting well-developed characters and a good plot, this probably isn’t for you. It’s a very chill quick read and the romance is very insta-love. I didn’t care too much for the characters or the storyline but it was entertaining. The characters don’t even know each other that well. I was surprised to have liked the grovel, it was half the nouvella but Allie doesn’t make him work hard cuz of circumstances. We don’t see much of the bullying since it starts off with a time jump but it is expected for a short read. Moore, the MMC was stalky and obsessive whereas Allie, the FMC, doesn’t make the guy work as hard since she’s horny. They only properly knew each other for a coupla days despite them going to school together for a while. But despite all of that I liked seeing Moore’s remorse and grovel. It had a cozy cabin feel with forced proximity which I liked, I’m glad I read it. [image] After one heated moment between Moore and Allie, Allie avoids Moore like the plague. Moore is pissed since he thinks a rich girl thinks that he isn’t good enough since he’s poor. For two years he bullies Allie hoping she will give him her attention but she never does. Until one day she reaches her limit and says something for the first time. Moore regrets his actions and does everything he can to make it up to her. [image] Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ Allie was out in a field during a storm avoiding her home. She’s in high school and 16 years old and Moore finds her. He tells her to go inside, he’s the same age in all her classes. But she’s avoiding home because of her abusive father, she loves lying in the field during storms. Allie has had a crush on Moore and once he gets her up, he admits he has feelings for her too and touches her. He begs her to go inside so they can fuck but her dad comes. Her dad called Moore to be their handyman and fix their roof. Allie is rich and her dad is very condescending and told Moore that Allie is going to places unlike him. Allie ran to her room while Moore fixed shit up. Once he left, her dad broke into her room and hit her. He told Allie that she needs to stay away from Moore or he will ruin Moore’s life, fuck him. So when she sees Moore at school, she avoids him while hiding her bruises. [image] Two years later Moore is pissed since he’s been obsessed with Allie ever since that night but she avoided him. Since she avoids him and it’s made his life a living hell, he decided to do the same by bullying her since he wanted her attention. Moore’s parents abandoned him so he lives in their trailer alone. His aunt is a guidance counsellor at his school and slips Allie’s schedule to him and matches it so that he can be in the same classes. He puts something in Allie’s locker and finds a basketball player flirting with her. Moore made sure no one asks Allie out since he thinks she is his. He tells the basketball boy to get to class, Moore is one of those guys who rides a motorcycle to school. He asks Allie if she’s into rich boys hoping she would respond but she ignores him and he hates it. He tells her he will scare everyone away so she will be alone at prom and Allie actually reacts and he can tell he’s getting to her and it makes him sick. He feels terrible for hurting her and wants to comfort her but desperately wants her attention. He tells her she will likely fuck someone but “poor people” are better at it, saying she will slum up to him, and Allie tells him to stop. Surprisingly, Moore was a virgin and never touched anyone since he saw Allie. When she told him to stop and tried not to cry, Moore was determined to apologize, he felt terrible for the two years of bullying. He was so happy she finally talked to him since she never said a word to him in the past two years and all he wanted was a reaction, it’s a bit pathetic but whateva. He was so obsessed with her, he wanted to know what college she went to so he could move there and work as a handyman while stalking her. Lmao the fuck he needs a life. [image] Moore follows Allie when class finishes, but the second she gets to her locker, she finds what Moore left her. It’s a picture of her from the yearbook and he captioned it with “Most Likely to Be a Trophy Wife.” She’s trying not to cry and he feels terrible and decides to go to the field where it all went wrong. Allie’s mom left ages ago and Allie is left to deal with her dad. Allie got a C on her test and he’s pissed so she zones out and looks out the window when he slaps her. She is still attracted to Moore but he has become a person she dreads to see every day. When he talked to her today, she was turned on when he said poor people would be better at fucking and how she would someday go to him to slum it up. Her dad says she got into college but got no scholarships, it’s cuz she wasn’t allowed to do extracurriculars. She asks if he can pay for it but he says he lost all his money in the business, and that they’re poor now. Haha fucker that’s what you get for being a condescending piece of shit. He asks if she wanted to leave like her mom and she tells him to go to hell for the first time ever. Her father beats her while she looks for a weapon but when she looks out the window she sees Moore was watching horrified. [image] Moore goes in and hits the dad before he can continue to hit Allie. Allie was bruised everywhere to the point of almost dying. He tries to pick her up but she tells him not to touch her, calling him “bully” rather than Moore. Moore feels horrible and apologizes, wanting to help her. He says if he knew this was happening he would’ve helped her and she said he isn’t her saviour and is her enemy. He says he can take her away but she asks how she will know it’s safe with him. Once she hears her dad, she asks to get some things. He goes to her room and helps her pack her things, ready to make it up to her. Moore calls her baby and tells her she has to leave, asking how long it’s been going on. Her mom left her in 7th grade and it's gotten worse since then. She told him her dad threatened to ruin Moore’s life and hurt her more if she was with him so she avoided him. He realized he did this to protect him and he tortured her for it and feels terrible. She says she’s sorry for hurting him and to just give her a ride and stop bullying her. He knows he has to stop scaring the other guys away and doesn’t wanna do that but he wants a chance with her. So he promises and takes Allie away. [image] Allie has no money but Moore takes her to his aunt’s cabin where she can stay. Her dad comes out screaming for her to get back or she is not allowed back home and she gives him the finger. Moore praises her and takes her away after putting her helmet on for her. He lifts her off the bike holding her a bit longer than he should. Once she’s off she backs away from him. He tells her she should probably take a shower to get rid of the blood and it starts raining. Moore says he knows she wants him to leave but he doesn’t think he can, if she’s uncomfortable he’s willing to sleep outside on the ground. He says he knows once he leaves she’s gonna shut him out and wants to make up for the two years, asking what he can do. Allie surprised him by saying he could fuck her so she could get it outta her system. I was like bruh don’t you need to recover after being heavily beaten? Whateva makes ya happy I guess. Even though he bullied her, she couldn’t stop thinking of him when masturbating and shit. She wants to have one night so she can stop thinking about him that way. He asks if there will be a future for them if it works out but she says there can never be since he hurt her too much in the past. He makes sure she’s sure and carries her to a lake where he makes out with her. [image] Moore admits he never fucked anyone else when he fucked Allie. He tells Allie he’s obsessed with her and wants her to be his. Allie is shocked he’s a virgin too and figured out he waited for her. He said he did everything to get her attention. Allie knows that after this night they can’t be together. She barely knows Moore and knows he lives in a trailer and asks what he plans to do after they graduate. He admits he was tryna find out her college to follow and bully her, saying he knows it’s fucked up, I woulda ran but okay lmao. He said he thought she ignored him after she found out he was a handyman and thought she was beneath him. Allie said she missed Moore and he said he missed her back. She tells him about her dad hiding her college applications and then being poor and Moore says he can help her when they get back to school. He thinks it isn’t safe for her at school so he can help her get the loan application she wanted and talk to the guidance counsellor for her. He wants her to wait in the cabin in case her dad comes. He admits his aunt was the guidance counsellor and he bribed her with chocolate to get into her classes. His aunt thought it was a crush. Allie knows her dad won’t press charges since he doesn’t want people to know someone bested him. Allie doesn’t wanna give Moore hope but she says yes to him going for her and they continue fucking. [image] Moore admits he wants to do things he doesn’t know why and Allie gives him permission so the guy dirty talks in degrading ways low-key, nothing horrible, just bringing back the slumming up comment but she likes it. He spanks her and wants to fuck her ass. Moore is freaking out since he wants to win Allie over by Monday since school starts. She’s sleeping in bed and says she’s cold so he cuddles her. Moore wants to work in construction on porches so people can watch storms from home, it was inspired by Allie. He doesn’t wanna go to college and can’t afford it anyway. Allie wants to study storms and become a meteorologist. She says she forgives him and figured he can’t deal with abandonment cuz of his parents. They continue to fuck and she asks him to “bully her” while they fuck so he uses degrading language and she’s into it. He apologizes after and promises he didn’t mean anything but she reassured him. [image] It’s Monday and Allie is afraid that staying with Moore is like trading her dad for him since Moore hurt her too. She was looking through a notebook and found an old note Moore wrote her where he said she is pathetic. Moore used to write notes to Allie to hurt her and he tells her not to read it but when she does he says he’s sorry, kissing her. She says she forgave him but he knows she can’t forget. She says she needs space, she knows she wants to go to college but doesn’t know what to do about Moore. Allie fell in love with Moore on the night they first met and is still in love with him. Moore gives her a flare gun and tells her to shoot it if she needs him. He leaves to get her paperwork from school. Moore’s aunt came instead of Moore, she brought the paperwork and apologized to Allie. Moore sold his bike and got his aunt to give money to Allie believing that letting her go would be best. Allie wanted to grow as a person herself so she knows if Moore is good for her. [image] 5 months later Allie is attending college far from home. She got an apartment for student rent and did yard work. Allie misses Moore, she called his aunt and he disappeared the day he sold his motorcycle. She still had his flare gun and believed he was good for her so she shot it at the sky. Allie feels terrible thinking she lost him and has no phone number to contact. But then she runs into him since he heard the flare gun. He asks if the flare gun was used to say goodbye or if she needs him and she says she needs him. They launch themselves at each other and say they love each other. She’s not surprised he was nearby waiting for a sign. 5 years later, they’re married and she works at a news station as an apprentice for a meteorologist. She’s a lot happier and he moved in with her in her apartment and started working. Moore built a construction company on his own. Moore wanted to give Allie space to recover from her dad’s abuse. But one day he begged his aunt to find out where she went, sold his trailer and went to stalk her. He lived in a motel for 5 months and watched her until she fired the gun. He built a house for her with a glass ceiling so she can see the sky while he fucks her or whatever. Anyway, they’re happy, the end. [image] (hide spoiler)] Stay safe folks! [image] ...more |
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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Bullying physical, suicide ideation and attempt, suicide, miscarriage, parental abuse (babies & children), domestic vi
Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Bullying physical, suicide ideation and attempt, suicide, miscarriage, parental abuse (babies & children), domestic violence, homophobia, drug addiction (from 13/14), alcoholic parent, foster care trauma, rape, child exposed to rape, sexual assault, attempted rape, cheating, parent infidelity, slut-shaming, depression, loss of loved ones, girl pregnant at 14 by 17/18-year-old, arson, PTSD, seeing dead bodies of parents (hide spoiler)] I can’t believe I finished Joey’s story, it was so painful. He deserves so much love for how selfless he is. And Aoife? Her persistence, strength, charm, and loyalty? She is perfect for Joey, she did everything for him and even put herself in danger for him. This is the fourth book in the Boys of Tommen series, the first being Binding 13 and the second being Keeping 13. I recommend you read those which focus on Johnny and Shan before you start Joey and Aoife’s story, starting with Saving 6. This book is dark and has a lotta triggers. I wish there were more happy moments, the pacing was off at points, and the ending felt rushed. But I still loved this book and can’t wait for the next one. Joey Lynch is the protector, dealing with his abusive dad while tryna keep his siblings safe. Dealing with his own demons, the only person that makes him forget is Aoife. Joey can’t afford to love anyone, he doesn’t want to bring his mess of a life into another. But the first day Aoife saw Joey, he caught her attention and she was not willing to let him outta her sight. [image] “Now, tell me you love me.” “I love you.” The words flew off my tongue in record time. “Say it again.” “I love you.” “How much?” “A lot.” Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ It’s been two weeks since the breakup and Joey has been clean. Teddy propositioned Aoife many times at work but Aoife called him old and disgusting. Gibsie, Feely, and Hughie ask Joey for weed, they offered $200 and invited him to Hughie’s party. Casey and Katie convince Aoife to go to Hughie’s party. At the party Liz is fighting with Hughie since he’s stopping her from going up with Pierce. Joey calls Liz out for sleeping with Hughie but he won’t commit so she’s with someone else, Hughie is cheating on Katie with Liz. Aoife is at the party and sees Gibsie and Claire, who are dancing in their own world. She sees Joey with Liz, Joey is just asking Liz about people in Shan’s year. Joey and Aoife get back together. It’s Shan’s first day and seeing Joey terrified for Shan had me teary-eyed. Casey thinks Aoife is hiding her pregnancy and Aoife had no idea she was pregnant. Shan called needing a ride but Johnny offered one. Tony was in the background begging for tickets once they found out Johnny was the rugby player. “That’s no boy,’ Tony mouthed accusingly, gaping at the phone, ‘That’s a fucking man’s voice.’ ‘I know,’ I mouthed back, ‘shut up and let me think.” It’s been a week and Aoife doesn’t want an abortion but she hasn’t told Joey. Shan had bruises on her face from her dad. Marie tried to stop him but he beat her too when she’s pregnant. They both left the kids alone at home. Aoife said they should call authorities so Joey told her his and Shan’s experience in foster care compared to Darren who was raped. Aoife and Joey run into Johnny and Aoife offers Johnny a ride. Joey told Johnny that Shan has had a hard life and Johnny promised not to hurt her. Joey never thinks of the future but he tells Aoife he sees it with her. Aoife tells her mom over the phone that she’s pregnant. Aoife took the kids out, cleaned the house, and even bought Joey groceries. It was Shan’s birthday and Shan and Joey go to Johnny’s place to give his phone back. I loved how Gibsie was hovering like a child while Joey cooked, they’re grumpy-sunshine. “You’re a strange one,” I said, and then had to, once again, ward him off with the spatula. “Would ya step back?” “Why?” “I don’t fucking like people breathing down my neck.” “I wasn’t breathing down your neck,” he replied. “I was admiring your cooking skills.” Joey asked Gibsie about Claire and he said they’re gonna get married, it was planned when she was 4 and he was 6. Teddy called Joey since Marie had a miscarriage from their fight. Joey goes to the hospital and Aoife was home with the kids when Teddy attempted to rape her. Seeing him say he wanted her while she begged him to stop terrified me, but Joey came in time. Joey beat him but what the fuck was wrong with Marie?! She’s helping Teddy on the ground rather than checking on Aoife. Aoife was dealing with trauma and she’s pregnant. When Aoife said that when she sees Joey she sees Teddy, it fucking hurt, but she was lashing out cuz of her trauma. These words fucked with Joey since it’s his biggest fear. This was why Joey couldn’t go into the house. He tells Shan they should tell the authorities. Shan feels betrayed and I understand her cuz of her book. Joey apologized to Aoife, giving her space when she flinches. Joey asks if she wants to break up and tries to leave but she tells him to make her forget. They end up fucking and when they finish, Aoife asks for space. Aoife says that ever since he came into her life, every horrible situation is because she puts him first. She blames him for not telling her where he was. Joey goes back to Shane to numb his head. [image] Aoife went back to school, and saw Joey for the first time in class. She told Joey she didn’t mean a word of what she said and he said she did. Aoife realizes Joey has been back on drugs since he left her place. Aoife runs into Marie, nasty pig Teddy was in the car. Marie says Joey needs Aoife after Teddy and Marie ruined his life. Joey was gonna fight Teddy but Aoife and Joey make up. It’s been three weeks and Aoife hasn’t told Joey about the pregnancy. Aoife sees Joey snorting drugs and says she needs him cuz they’re having a baby but Joey wasn’t registering it cuz he was high. Kevin hears Aoife talking to her mom and realizes Aoife is pregnant and calls her stupid. Shan comes home in the middle of school to see Joey. Marie didn’t give Shan the talk so Joey had to do it. Shan asks questions and Joey answers while dying inside. Shan asks about Joey’s first time and Joey says he wasn’t in his body since he was high. Shan realizes Joey never consented, Joey says he must’ve enjoyed it if he went back to her ew. Shan said it didn’t matter since he didn’t consent. “What if his, you know, is too big? What if it doesn’t fit in, um, well, you know?” “It fits.” I dropped my head in my hands and groaned. “It always fits.” “But how?” “Magic.” “Joey.” Paul tells the class that Aoife is pregnant since stupid Kevin told him and that’s how Joey found out. Joey tells Aoife he will find a full-time job and Aoife insists he finishes school. She begs him to stop with the drugs and he says he will. They go to Aoife’s place and Joey’s parents are over. Teddy yells at Joey for getting Aoife pregnant. The way he is sitting comfortably and acting like he didn’t assault Aoife boggles my mind. Marie says Aoife should get an abortion. If Tony had any idea what Teddy did to his daughter, he would’ve killed him. Joey told Teddy Darren raised Shan and him and he raised everyone else at 12, how he is capable of being a father. Joey says he doesn’t wanna talk to people he doesn’t plan on letting his baby around. Teddy manhandles him so Aoife claws his hand. Teddy whipped Joey with a belt once he got home. At school, Kevin begged Aoife to forgive him and Paul called her a slut. Joey comes and both Paul and Kevin run lol. They had an ultrasound and see the baby for the first time. Joey realized the baby was a boy and is afraid the cycle will continue. Joey was stressed because he has to worry about his siblings, Marie, Aoife, and the new baby, when does he have time to worry about himself? Teddy was beating Shan on the ground while Tadhg protected her. Joey beat Teddy and instead of checking on Shan, Marie was protecting Teddy. Joey tells Marie that she needs to choose between the kids and Teddy or they are leaving and she doesn’t leave Teddy. Teddy beats Marie, saying he will burn the house with the kids before he lets her go. Joey defends Marie and in turn, he was beaten by Teddy. Joey realized Shan was dying. Tadhg held a knife to Teddy telling him to stop and cuts his neck when he doesn’t. Teddy was gone and despite having injuries, Joey drove Shan to the hospital. Joey woke up and Marie never came to check on him. The doctors say Joey has been abused since he was a baby. Marie came with Darren and Darren was acting like everything was normal when he was gone for 6 years. Marie has been in contact with Darren and never told Joey, he feels betrayed. Aoife said Joey was Marie’s son and he deserves the same amount of love. I fucking hated how Darren judged Joey. Aoife called Marie out for Joey’s mental abuse. Darren says he will pay her to get rid of the pregnancy but she stands her ground. [image] Shan ran into Joey who was high and took him to Johnny’s place. I can’t lie, I was expecting Shan to check up on Joey but she didn’t. I feel like she kinda takes him for granted sometimes and could be there for him more. Aoife yelled at Joey for disappearing for 8 days and told him not to give up. “You've got a beautiful mind, Joey Lynch, and a wonderful heart. You can beat this. You just have to want to. It's half the battle. You can still fix this. You have time. You can get better. Just try, Joe. That's all you have to do. Just try, baby. I love you so much. Watching you self-destruct like this is killing me.” Aoife went to Shane, telling him to give Joey’s stuff. The way this girl puts herself in danger even when pregnant is insane. Joey owed Shane $600 and Gibsie didn’t hesitate to give Aoife the money. Joey met Edel, Johnny’s mom, who insisted he eats and bulldozed. “I have places to be.” “Not on an empty stomach.” “My girlfriend’s waiting for me.” “I’m sure she wouldn’t mind you having a bite to eat first.” “I’m not hungry.” “Humor me, love.” Tadhg went to Aoife’s bar and said he knew Aoife was pregnant but Joey is done living, he isn’t fully here anymore. He told Aoife not to give up on Joey since he is a good person, I love him. “Joe’s the only parent I remember having, so, trust me when I tell you that your kid…” He paused to gesture to my stomach before adding, “Is going to have one hell of a father.” Joey keeps showing up late to Aoife’s pregnancy appointments and Aoife says he is a heroin addict that is killing himself. Joey says he wants to die on his own terms and Aoife tells him he needs to stay alive. Shan calls Joey to pick her up from Tommen cuz Bella attacked her. Everyone is worried Johnny is gonna fight since he’s in a contract so Joey beats Bella’s boyfriend. Bella slapped Joey so Aoife beat her. The principal calls the cops so Joey tells Aoife to leave. Joey is arrested and John, Johnny’s dad, came to the rescue. John said he is going after all the social workers and police that let Joey down while he faced abuse. John knew Joey fought the boy to protect Johnny’s future so he will protect Joey’s, how Edel is his fan. John got the case thrown and had the judge apologize. Seeing Edel and John say they wanted to keep Joey and the kids, had me crying. “We want to keep you!” his wife blurted out, causing John to drop his head in his hands and groan. “All five of you,” she continued, hurrying over to the island and catching ahold of my hand. “Especially you.” She smiled down at me. “I think I want you the most.” “The fuck?” I choked out, yanking my hand out from under hers. “What are you…” Shaking my head, I practically fell off the stool in my bid to get away from this strange woman and her hands-on nature. “You want to keep me?” Joey said he’s fucked up but his siblings need parents. Joey is willing to tell the authorities the truth. Edel asks Joey about the drugs, knowing all the symptoms, was Edel a drug addict? Edel says it isn’t late for Joey to have parents but he refuses to be fostered, he only cares for Aoife, admitting she’s pregnant. “You’ve been traveling down a very long road, love. Maybe it’s time to rest those feet and let someone else carry the load for you?” She implored me with her eyes to listen. “Let me help you. Let me save you, Joey.” Joey ran into Teddy who asked Joey if he could ever leave Aoife. Teddy said that was like him for Marie and how Joey will be just like him. Joey went back to Shane and once he is home, he said Marie managed to break him. Marie slapped him and said not to blame her. Joey packs his things and the kids ran after him. Aoife was waiting outside and Joey apologized, saying he couldn’t do it anymore, he slipped her a letter and walked away. Joey was ready to jump off a bridge when Liz finds him. Liz hugged him from behind and said no one was there to stop her sister from jumping and that none of his family will accept his death. I have so much respect for Liz. Joey’s letter said he wanted to save Aoife from becoming Marie. He left a detailed report of the abuse from his parents to give to John. Joey went back to his house to see it in flames, he goes inside and saw the burnt bodies of Marie and Teddy. Johnny told Joey all the kids were safe while dragging Joey away. “So, what’s it going to be, Joey Lynch? Are we dying tonight, or are we living? “You’re living,” I begrudgingly conceded, allowing her to pull me back over the railing and onto solid ground. “I’m being emotionally blackmailed.” Joey blames himself for his mother’s death, he is traumatized at seeing the bodies. Fuck Darren for telling Edel he didn’t want Aoife near Joey. I loved that Edel said it wasn’t his call to make. Darren makes Joey sign papers for rehab. Edel came for Aoife knowing Joey needed her. Joey hasn’t eaten or spoken a word since the fire. Joey reacts when he hears Aoife’s voice and she gets him to eat. Aoife told Edel not to give up on Joey, how he is protective of his family. But she shows her Joey’s suicide note, how he never would’ve attempted suicide without knowing the kids were safe. Edel was gonna take care of the kids while Joey was going to rehab. “I see you, Joey Lynch,” I whispered, pressing a kiss to his cracked and peeling lips. “You can’t hide from me.” Joey went to rehab, and in therapy, Joey admits he was high when he lost his virginity. He imagined Aoife but it was Danielle, they were making out and then suddenly she was on his dick, and the therapist clarified he didn’t consent. Joey said he was not a victim but the doctor said if Shan said the same how would he feel, and he got angry. Aoife is working when Paul admits he was a shitty cheating boyfriend and apologized. Paul made sure that Shane was going to prison to make it up to Aoife. Darren suggests Joey stay in rehab longer, it’s been 11 weeks. Edel and John came to see Joey and Edel stands up for Joey, saying Joey is her family. John got Joey a spot in Tommen once he is out of rehab. When Joey was out of rehab, Edel came to pick him up and bulldozes. “And I already told you that we’re keeping you,” she chuckles. “Finders keepers, Joey love. You’re mine now.” Joey went to Aoife’s place and was clean for 170 days. Joey apologized and Tony told him off to only hug him. The kids were all together holding a welcome back sign for Joey. When they all dove for him and fought to hug him, I was crying. Gibsie even dove into the group and hugged him. Joey’s reunion with Sean had me crying. John and Edel made Joey a small home for Joey’s little family behind their place. “O-ee.” He didn’t hesitate to scramble onto my lap. “Seany loves O-ee,” he whispered in my ear, as he stroked my cheeks with his chubby little hands. “O-ee make Seany happy.” “Joey loves Seany back,” I replied, wrapping him up in my arms, overwhelmed by just how well his speech had come on since the beginning of summer. “Seany makes Joey the proudest brother in the world.” Seeing Shan and Johnny as a couple while Gibsie banters with Johnny was everything. “Anything, Shannon like the river,” Gibsie parroted in mocking tone, clutching his chest. “You can have anything, baby.” “Gibs,” Kav warned, climbing to his feet and pocketing his wallet. “Give it a bleeding rest, will ya?” “You can have my battered sausage,” Gibs continued to gush mockingly. “Like I said: anything for you, baby.” Joey made it just in time for Aoife’s water breaking. Joey’s granda left him $15K once he leaves his father. Aoife named the baby Anthony Joseph Lynch, AJ for short, named after Joey and Tony. On Joey’s first day at Tommen, Shan defends Joey in the hallway, I loved seeing her growth. Gibsie saved him a seat in every class and stood up for him. I love that Aoife and Joey are part of the core group. Claire sat in Gibsie’s lap since there were no seats, god I love them. “If I’m broken then what does that make you, Claire-Bear?” “I don’t know, Gerard,” she teased. “What does it make me?” “My it girl,” he purred, as he closed the space between their noses. “My everything girl.” Ronan was fighting Tadhg so Joey calmed Tadhg down and made fun of Ronan. Once Ronan made comments about Aoife, Joey punched him. Joey was suspended and Edel picked them up. Joey told Tadhg to be better and not fight like him. Joey went to Johnny’s room and walked in on Johnny and Shan fucking, LMAO, he was traumatized. Seeing AJ with Joey was so cute, he was a pro. Trish and Tony refuse to let Aoife and AJ move in with Joey so he gives them the money his granda gave him. Aoife can come to Tommen using some of that money. Joey asks Aoife’s parents to look after AJ while they go to school. Months later, we see Shan’s POV, and seeing Aoife and Joey happy with AJ was nice but I wanted more. They both went to Tommen and lived together. Johnny hits Shan with a snowball while battling Gibsie. Seeing them all happy was so sweet. This book was heavy but I loved seeing Joey and Aoife’s journey, even if it wasn’t an easy one. [image] (hide spoiler)] I can’t wait to read more BoT books, I need Gibsie’s book GAAH [image] ...more |
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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Bullying physical, suicide ideation, parental abuse and neglect, domestic violence, homophobia, underage drinking, dru
Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Bullying physical, suicide ideation, parental abuse and neglect, domestic violence, homophobia, underage drinking, drug addiction (from 13/14), alcoholic parent, foster care trauma, rape, child exposed to rape, cheating, parent infidelity, slut-shaming, postnatal depression, loss of loved one, girl pregnant at 14 by 17/18-year-old (hide spoiler)] I have been WAITING to read this book. I buddy read this with amazing Mattie and had a blast. I wanna protect Joey, I knew I would love him. And Aoife is perfect for him, I fucking love her, she’s badass and confident. This is one of the books where I don’t mind the girl pining, Aoife just makes it work. I recommend you read Binding 13 and Keeping 13 first. I can’t lie, it took me a bit to get into this, I wasn’t a fan of the OP drama or time jumps. These books are darker, I do like B13 and K13 more because of the cast of characters. Definitely read the books in order because you will have a lot more appreciation for Joey. Joey Lynch is the protector, dealing with his abusive dad while tryna keep his siblings safe. The only person that makes him forget his inner demons is Aoife, his boss’s daughter. But Joey can’t afford to love anyone, he doesn’t want to bring his mess of a life into another. But the first day Aoife saw Joey, he caught her attention and she was not willing to let him outta her sight. [image] “I want you to know that you’ve been the best part of my day every day since I was twelve years old.” Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ Joey is 12 and it’s his first day in secondary school, Darren is walking him down the hall. Darren gave Joey a hug and Joey felt that Darren was off when he left. Joey flirts with Aoife and they hit it off. A coupla months later, Joey is at home dealing with his psychotic abusive father. The only thing motivating Joey to stay alive was his siblings. Darren left them, he was never beaten like Joey. Darren was raped when he was in foster care and told Joey and Shan they had it easy. Joey knew his dad raped their mom at the age of 10, and he walked in on it. Joey was terrified his siblings would be exposed to what he was, he guarded their rooms to protect them. Joey thinks he will never become like Darren, he will protect his siblings with his life. [image] It’s a year later and Joey is working for Aoife’s dad Tony, fixing cars. Joey felt relief in helping his mom by giving her his wages, his dad didn’t work. Tony asks Joey to walk Aoife home. Aoife asks why Joey avoids her, he stopped talking to Aoife after the first day of school. Joey asked why she was with Paul, her boyfriend. Joey beat Paul up for talking about Aoife’s underwear. She asks him to say something nice so he says she has nice legs. Aoife holds Joey’s hand as they walk and invited him over to eat coco pops. He ate while Aoife bulldozed with questions. Later Joey saved his mom Marie and she promises their dad is gone but Joey knows she was lying. Joey asked if she loved him but his mom just said she loved the kids, so Joey says Darren was right to leave. He regrets it but she says he isn’t anything like Darren. Marie says he is exactly like his father Teddy after Joey did everything to protect her, fuck her. Marie was the reason Joey was driven to do drugs, he started in 5th grade and called Shane to get a new fix. [image] It’s the second year and Joey played the sport, hurling and he was number 6. Aoife asks him to cook for her, saying she has two steaks. I love how pushy Aoife is because Joey has so much on his plate and doesn’t love himself enough to make moves. “Snuggle me.” “No.” “Do it.” “It’s not happening, Molloy.” “Snuggle me, Joey.” “I said no.” “Snuggle me or I’ll scream.” “For fuck’s sake, fine,” I snapped, lifting my arm up for her to nestle into my side. “There. We’re snuggling. Are you happy now?” “I will be,” she cackled, shifting closer to drape her long legs over my lap. “Once you do one more thing for me.” “Oh Jesus, what?” “Tell me that we’re friends.” Marie is pregnant and says things will be different but Joey knew she was lying. Joey has a plan that at 18 he would get a place and take Shan. He planned on bringing Ollie and Tadhg later. But this new baby ruins those plans because he can’t let his siblings take care of the baby. [image] It’s the third year, Aoife kept cheering for Joey during their hurling match so Paul dragged her away and Joey beats Paul up. Paul wanted Aoife to end her friendship with Joey but she said she never will do that. But later some girl slips her hand under Joey’s desk, he gives her a heated look and they leave the room. I didn’t care about Paul since he sucks but seeing Joey with other girls gets to me, Joey fucked around quite a bit. Joey didn’t wanna tell the teachers about the abuse since Darren told him the foster care system is bad since he was raped and they will get split up. Joey took the kids trick or treating, he told Marie he was going to a party. He gives his mom money, how could she say he’s just like their dad? After Paul manhandles and slut-shames Aoife, Joey steps in and Aoife breaks up with Paul. Shane comes and Aoife begs Joey not to go but he does. Aoife sees Joey making out with Danielle once he’s back at the party, he’s high and there is a point where he feels someone touching him but doesn’t know what’s going on. Then Marie is giving birth to Sean and Joey is high. Aoife is back with Paul after 3 weeks. There’s a rumour Joey slept with Danielle at the party and now they regularly hook up. Aoife is pissed that Joey didn’t tell her Paul was sexting Danielle and texts Paul who says it was a joke. Joey says nice legs to Danielle when cleaning a mess, which is his thing with Aoife. Joey asks Aoife why she was pissed and she tells him he told Danielle she has nice legs. He says they aren’t in a relationship and she was with Paul. Joey confirms he fucked Danielle and Aoife walks out upset. Paul finds Aoife crying, she admits she likes Joey. Paul says he slept with Bella from Tommen, he lost her virginity to her, holy shit. It was the same night Aoife broke up with him. They promise to be honest with each other and makeup. Coupla weeks later Aoife sees Joey at her place snorting crack. Joey’s body was trembling so she sat in his lap and calmed him down. Joey hasn’t been sleeping since he’s taking care of Sean, and his mom is depressed after giving birth. Sean’s crib was in Joey’s room and he relies on Shane for drugs. [image] It’s the fourth year and it’s Shan’s first day, Joey tells her it’ll be fine and walks her to school. Teddy showed up at Tony’s place, telling Joey his granddad is going to the hospital. Grandpa Murphy was the first man that Joey didn’t fear touching. I cried so much hearing his granddad have so much love for Joey. His granda knew Joey was the protector of the family and told him not to give in to the demons that his father put into his head. Once he passed away, they had a funeral and Joey was there keeping his siblings together. Tony said Marie was pregnant at 14 because of Teddy who should’ve been thrown into prison. [image] They’re in their fifth year and Joey has tattoos now. Joey is home and told all the kids to get ready for school, he was the one that packed their lunches, he’s literally their parent. Joey playfully teases Shan to distract her from bullies as he walks her to school while their Nanny walks the boys. Aoife has been with Paul for 3 and a half years on and off. Aoife asks Joey to drive her and he is excited while she vents about Paul. Aoife tells him to admit he likes her as she likes him and he’s pissed. He tells her she’s a turn-off for laying there like a slut being desperate. Aoife yells at him for calling her a slut and Joey hugs her, apologizing and admits he cares for her too much. Joey is at Danielle’s party thinking about suicide. Shan was jumped by bullies and their mom had the audacity to blame Joey for not looking out for her. Paul tries to pressure Aoife to fuck but she stops him. Joey walks in with Danielle and he’s high, Aoife lets them have the room while heartbroken. Once Danielle is done Aoife finds Joey in the room naked with a condom. Joey doesn’t fully know what happened with Danielle and it shows that he was taken advantage of. Joey lost his virginity to Danielle in his third year. Ciara was bullying Shan and they hit her and cut her hair. Joey found Shan in the washroom and I cried so much when Shan said she wanted to die. Joey hugged her, asking what he would do without her. Shan says she makes things worse for him and that he keeps getting into fights for her. She says she loves him and he says it back, I was bawling. [image] Aoife found out that Joey is being abused and took his stuff to his house. She introduced herself to Shan and can hear Joey, Teddy, and Marie arguing about what happened at school. Teddy asks who Aoife is and Joey says she’s here for him. Joey told her to leave and when Aoife tried to touch him, he walked away so she bulldozed. Aoife says he isn’t his father and kisses him and they make out but Danielle and Rebecca see them. Danielle is pissed since she fucked Joey a week ago while Joey says he wasn’t fully there since he was high. Rebecca calls Paul who shows up and yelled at Joey while Paul’s brother holds Joey so Paul can kick him. Tadhg runs to protect Joey, he took a handle and beat Paul’s brother while Joey and Paul fought. The cops came Aoife started to defend Joey but the cop arrested Joey. Joey had no one to protect him, his parents just let it happen. Paul says Aoife had an emotional affair with Joey and won’t take her back after Joey is done, fuck him. [image] It’s been 3 weeks since Joey talked to Aoife and she says she likes him and knows he likes her, she’s done with Paul. Aoife kissed Joey and he kisses her back thinking that no one touched him with this much affection. A month goes by and Aoife tells Joey she just wants him to be clean and sober. Weeks later he hasn’t smoked, he’s dealing with withdrawal. Gibsie runs into Joey and Aoife making out and I was dying, he gave Joey a condom. Johnny takes Gibsie away oh my god I miss them. “Yeah, I know you were, Gibs, but those people are strangers, and what did we say about you talking to strangers?” “Don’t do it?” “Exactly.” Joey was in Shane’s car and Aoife kicked his car and told Joey to get out. He follows her and says it’s none of her business and she says he is her business. They make up once Aoife says he loves her as she loves him. Joey was potty training Sean who called him dada and babysat the others, I loved Sean and Joey's moments so much. Later Joey went with Aoife to a music festival and he had her name tattooed on his heart while his name was on her ass, they were drunk when it happened. Tony asked if Joey loved Aoife and he said he did for 5 years. Then he asked if he saw a future with Aoife and Joey said no because he didn’t see a future with himself. Tony said he didn’t wanna lose a good worker, saying he’s good for Aoife. Tony says he saw Joey growing up and is proud of him, Joey needed to hear that. [image] It was 6th year and Shan was begging Joey to help because Tadhg had a broken nose. Aoife and Joey were together for 9 months. She hates that his family takes him away from living his life, she feels bad but even wants to take him away from his siblings. Ciara, Shan’s bully, bothers Shan and Aoife tells them to back off before she cuts their ponytail off and chokes em with it. Aoife told Shan Joey cares for her so she will too and they become friends. Joey was lying to Aoife about being clean since the beatings got worse. Shane offered heroin which Joey didn’t do but took since there was a shortage. Joey was bleeding out of his nose and told Aoife not to hate him since she’s all he has to wake up to in the morning and she takes him away. Joey told Aoife he had a slip since his dad punched Tadhg. Aoife says she loves him and they can leave but Joey doesn’t want to leave the kids as Darren did. It was Aoife’s birthday and she deleted Shane’s number from Joey’s phone. Joey’s gift was a silver locket with the date they met, saying it was the first time he felt something for someone outside his family and says he loves her. Aoife went over to Joey’s place and introduced herself to Marie. Tadhg and Ollie start fighting so Joey goes to sort it out. I hated how Marie said Joey was like Teddy. Marie said Joey has an addiction problem and love won’t save him, telling Aoife to save herself, what the fuck. Aoife asked how could she say that, saying Joey loved her. Marie said she does love him but Joey scares her. Joey hates that he brought Aoife to his place and she tells him she wants him. She wants to put a good memory in his house, telling him to take her virginity. Joey didn’t have a condom but Aoife says it’s okay since she’s on the pill so they fuck. [image] Aoife noticed Joey and Shan weren’t at school so she went to Joey’s place. She ran into Teddy and didn’t hesitate to tell him Joey was carrying his dead weight. She found out Joey was with the police because Shan was attacked on her way home. Nasty ass Teddy said once she’s tired of Joey she can sleep with him, and she told him Joey is fine, I fucking hate the disgusting prick. Ciara accused Shan of flirting with her man and attacked her. Joey got better at hiding his addiction from everyone. Joey took care of Sean and cooked while making sure Tadhg did his homework since Marie wouldn’t get up. Ollie insists on finding out what a click-or-is is and Joey is terrified, telling him he will tell him when he’s older. Joey missed two weeks of school and work, he called and texted Aoife. Aoife went to his place and Joey was arrested. Teddy was away for two weeks and came back to fight Joey. They arrested Joey since he won the fight while his dad is at the doctor's with Marie, fuck her. [image] Aoife slept on the steps of the police station waiting for Joey and once he is out he yells at her for waiting for him. Joey told Aoife that his dad cheated and went away while his mom checked out, so he had to take care of his family. Once his dad was back, Marie told him to leave so he beat her. Shan tried to pull him off and Joey saw him hit her so he beat him and then the cops came. The social workers came and Joey lied to them as per usual but Aoife was confused since his parents got away with everything. Aoife says if he isn’t gonna say something she’s going to. He said if she talks to the cops, they’re over and it’s been a week since he’s talked to her. Shan was pulled out of school to go to Tommen, Marie argued about putting Shan there before but Teddy refused. Marie paid for Tommen an expensive private school to take Shan away from her bullies. Marie says she’s pregnant again and Joey is done. Joey was running around acting crazy and admits to Aoife that he feels pain and that his life doesn’t matter. Joey believes he’s like his dad and she will end up like his mom and leaves her. Aoife looks for Joey and goes to Shane’s place. Aoife didn’t hesitate to put herself in danger to get Joey. Aoife told Shane to send Joey out or she will go and get him, and Shane chokes her after she insults him. He realizes she wasn’t gonna leave and lets her in. Joey is on a filthy mattress with a needle in his arm. Luckily Shane and his friends didn’t do anything to Aoife, I was freaking the fuck out. Aoife took Joey home and said he was bad for her but she loved him while crying into his chest. He tells her they need to break up because this is toxic. Aoife told him not to leave but he told her she was the best part of his day since he was 12 but couldn’t continue to hurt her. [image] Joey came home on Christmas and is thinking of dying. Despite thinking about dying constantly, Joey selflessly buys the kids gifts. Joey had given Marie money to buy gifts for the kids but she gave it to Teddy. Shan made Joey a cake for his birthday, the way Joey asked if she got the CD Santa got her, fuck I love him. Everyone told Joey they loved him and he knew he could never leave them. After Marie constantly tells Joey he is just like his dad, it fucked him up so much he started to believe it. Joey tells his siblings to hide his phone to avoid texting Shane for heroin. Shan knew he was struggling with his addiction and Joey knew but they didn’t talk about it, she was just there for him. It was New Year's Eve and Shan was down with Joey while their parents were out. Joey and Shan’s last New Year’s Eve was spent together with Darren. It was the last time Joey was sober. Joey hates Darren for leaving, he mentions Darren never answered their calls when they reached out for 5 years. Shan told Joey that he was a survivor and she was grateful for him. Aoife knocks on his door and she asks why he’s sober and he says he is trying to turn a new leaf. He admits that because he lost Aoife, it motivated him to try being sober. Joey says he loves her and wants to do the right thing. She says that she isn’t enough for him because she isn’t a drug and Joey says that’s not true. He says he’s messed up and she’s enough but he needs to deal with this addiction on his own. He admits he’s loved her the whole time and they make a promise for a break. They promise to have no one else during the break. Aoife’s persistence and strength, Joey’s inability to love himself, it fucking hurts so much I just want them to be happy. [image] (hide spoiler)] My heart is not ready for the next one. Stay safe folks [image] ...more |
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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Racism, bullying, suicide of parent, poverty, death of loved one, cheating, depression, dub-con, teenage pregnancy, ab
Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Racism, bullying, suicide of parent, poverty, death of loved one, cheating, depression, dub-con, teenage pregnancy, abusive household (hide spoiler)] This is the fourth book in the second chances series, the first being It Just Had to Be You, the second being My Debacle with De Lorenzo, and the third being My Infatuation with Isabella. If I’m being completely honest, I recommend you read the first book and act like the other books don’t exist. I adored the second book but honestly, my favourite ships all sank in the third book. I love the author’s writing style but what happened to the characters pissed me off. I loved Scott and Cat in Book 1 and when I found out they broke up my heart broke. My curiosity pushed me to read the other books and I ended up rage-reading the third book. This series is entertaining, don’t get me wrong, but I didn’t like the characters much after I finished. Cat felt more selfish in this book just like Dylan was ruined for me in the last book, but I do still love Scott. [image] This is a second-chance romance between Scott and Cat. After getting engaged, Cat got some opportunities and went outta the country, promising Scott she would return in a year. After a year, she promises to come back in a coupla months. It keeps going for the next two years and Scott breaks up with her. 4 and a half years later, Cat’s sister is marrying Scott’s best friend. Scott and Cat are reunited after years and they wanna avoid each other. [image] “Baby, I gave up everything to be with you...but I can’t...I can’t give this up, too.” Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ 5 years ago Cat is back from Europe for her mother’s wedding. Cat tells Scott to leave with her for Europe but he wants to be stable financially before they marry. Her project got extended for another year and Scott is upset since she promised to be done months ago. Cat promises they will marry. But in present-day Cat is with Jean Pierre. Cat’s sister Isa emailed her about her wedding a month ago which made her not wanna have sex with JP anymore. She loves JP, they have an apartment in Paris. Scott and Cat did long distance for a year and a half but he randomly dumped Cat. What pisses me off is she kept telling Scott she would come back and expected him to just wait for her, the poor guy did so much for her. Cat still has his engagement ring since he bought it for her when he had nothing. JP has been with Cat for 18 months. [image] Cat misses Scott and can’t get over him breaking her heart. JP is different from Scott, he isn’t that affectionate, he is gentle during sex, and hates dancing. I hated seeing them make out bro, it’s so fucking hard to see characters you love with other people. Scott moved to Santa Monica and his dad is over with Peter. Scott’s dad keeps sending him on blind dates. Peter fucks around while Scott doesn’t. Cat is flying in on her own and JP will fly in before the wedding. Peter says he will pick her up but Scott insists he does it. Cat gets off the flight and Scott is there. Scott got Cat jelly beans which is a throwback to their high school days. Peter bought Scott his apartment on the beach and they use renters to pay it off. Scott teaches tenth grade and is an assistant football coach, he has a wall of notes from students. Cat constantly lives with change and doesn’t wanna settle while Scott is settled. Scott still has pictures of Cat and himself in his bedroom. Scott says he never brings women over and Cat was the first but it was a bad idea. He admits that he still wishes he was with Cat. Cat is pissed since he never answered her phone calls. What pisses me off is Cat says if Scott had answered one phone call or text, she would’ve come home after her project was done. Be fucking real, she said that every time, saying it would be the last project and then would pick up another. [image] Scott realizes Cat still wore the ring and asked if JP knew about him but Cat said he doesn’t. Scott is offended and thinks he’s just a chapter Cat filed off. Isa and Cat’s mom see Cat, it’s been two years since Cat came home. Scott is close with her mom who is now married to Keith. Keith comes over and hugs Cat, Isa calls Keith “dad”. I didn’t feel bad for Cat, she was so career-focused she didn’t really focus on her family. To be honest, this is realistic but I feel like when it comes to your family, you make time for them. Sure they had facetime calls but she was barely home, it’s been 2 years. She didn’t realize that while she grew, everyone she cared for grew as well, and their relationships too. Maybe it’s because I value the people in my life but I would do what I can to make time for them. Don’t expect life to just sit on pause for you, it seems like Scott is on pause for Cat though. Cat is self-aware of this, but she is hurt she missed out on everything and feels like an outsider. Tommy is Isa’s maid of honour which hurts Cat but I don’t care. Keith is close to Scott and Peter, they play basketball every Saturday. Isa fills Cat in on her new job as a radio host with Tommy. It makes me mad how Cat said Scott didn’t show signs of wanting to end things. Scott’s last call to her was him being upset when she agreed to another project, he begged her to come back. She already accepted the job and Scott was pissed she didn’t even talk to him about it. Cat was like why do I have to run my decisions by you? The fuck? Girl, he’s your fiancé. Cat said that life would be mundane and boring, which hurt Scott. Cat begs him to come and it broke my heart when Scott said he gave up everything for her but he can’t give up this either. She couldn’t even get on a plane to talk to him. Cat called for three months but he didn’t answer and they were over. [image] Scott and Cat drop by the shelter to pick up his dog Rocky. His longest relationship after Cat was Courtney, for 8 months. They broke up a year and a half ago. Courtney said he was emotionally unavailable and needed therapy and can’t fall in love. JP called and Cat said she was with a friend from high school. Scott calls her out for wearing his engagement ring. JP made the rule to not talk about exes since Cat was hungover on Scott. Throughout this whole book, it felt like it showed how incompatible Scott and Cat are. Cat wants to travel while Scott is settled, Cat is adventurous while Scott calculates everything. Scott asks to dance at the beach, saying this was where he proposed and doesn’t know when he wasn’t enough. [image] Scott and Cat go back to his place, and he gives her his hoodie and boxers. They watch movies together and she cooks for them. His TV is in his bedroom so they lay flat and share popcorn. Even though she enjoyed the day, she doesn’t see herself doing this every day. Scott attempts to kiss Cat but Cat stops him since she doesn’t wanna cheat on JP. Scott asks what her body count is, they’re both turned on. Scott slept with three people since Cat and she slept with 2 and a half. They both couldn’t fuck anyone else for a year. Scott can tell Cat and JP’s sex life isn’t exciting and asked Cat if he should remind her of their sex life but she pushes him off. Peter, Scott, his dad, and Dylan go to Cat’s place to play basketball with Keith. Peter and Scott win the game and they’re doing this victory dance that has me smiling. Dylan and Isa are having a joint party and Tommy mentions he might be interested in Dana, Dylan’s sister. They go to a club for Isa and Dylan’s party and Scott takes Cat to the dance floor and they sexy dance. [image] Scott gets extra touchy and has his mouth on her neck. Cat kisses Scott and Scott asks her to go home with him. Cat regrets kissing him and goes to the washroom. He follows her and corners her. She says it’s a mistake but Scott kisses her again and asks her to either come home. He takes her to his apartment and they fuck. Cat wakes up in regret, not remembering much. Scott is pissed she’s treating them like a one-night stand. Cat says she loves JP and Scott says it only took 4 days for them to fuck, so she slaps him. She says she was drunk so Scott throws her on the bed and says they’re gonna play a game now that she’s sober. He kisses parts of her and if she wants him to stop, she has to say she doesn’t want him. Rather than saying she doesn’t want Scott, she says she doesn’t wanna hurt JP. Cat says it’s his fault since he broke up with her. Scott said it was her fault since she didn’t wanna fight for them. Cat says he broke up with her and how she found someone to make it work so Scott kisses her and they fuck. The scene is hate-fucking, lowkey dub-con since Cat refuses but she also doesn’t. Scott is angry, he says he gave up everything for her, how she’s wearing his ring, all while fucking her. He then lets her take control and she says she wouldn’t have changed the ring to an accessory if he didn’t break things off. Scott asked if there were no available flights and Cat couldn’t answer. Scott gives Cat a key to his place, kisses her and says he loves her. [image] Cat regrets cheating since Cameron cheated on her. JP was worried and she lied about crashing over at Scott’s with her friends. Scott’s words really hit Cat, he said she can talk to JP while she feels him and shit. JP is going on some wilderness trip and won’t be able to call Cat for the next few days. Keith asked if JP was okay with Cat spending the night at Scott’s and Isa said Cat is loyal. Isa says Cat and Scott would never create a scandal at her wedding, yikes. Cat tried calling JP to come clean but he already left. Isa says she loves her life with her little family and noticed that even though Cat goes on adventures, she yearns for something. Cat is offended and says she’s happy with her life, honestly I really don’t like Cat in this book. She’s listening to Isa and Dylan’s show and Scott has a segment. In his throwback clip, he’s interviewing someone and says his ex thinks he’s boring and Cat can tell he’s still heartbroken. It was a year after their breakup and the interview was funny but it’s sad seeing Scott all lonely. [image] Cat didn’t want bad blood with Scott so she went to his place using his spare key. Cat said she didn’t mean what she said just like Scott but he said he meant every word. How he hates that they’re not together cuz he will never get over her. How he never had doubts from the start of their relationship while Cat always doubted them. Cat is pissed since she loved him too. She says they both made mistakes, she should’ve come home but he should’ve answered the phone. I don’t agree, she should’ve come home regardless because he made his points clear. If he answered, it would’ve been a cycle of her promising to come home after the project. She told Scott the reason why JP doesn’t wanna hear about their relationship, how she was so hungover on the breakup that JP didn’t wanna be friend-zoned. This makes Scott happy he says he loves her and flirts with her. Scott says they should fuck and Cat says they shouldn’t since she has a boyfriend. Scott starts masturbating, so they fuck saying it’ll be the last time. [image] Cat shows up at his place the next day to do a run. Cat asks if Scott regrets their relationship since they broke up and he says he doesn’t cuz his life is a lot better than having an empty marriage while being rich. Dylan comes over so Scott hides Cat, but Dylan sees her shoes and is pissed, telling Scott this better not ruin his wedding. Dylan and Scott go to pick up Peter who is with a model from the party night. He never brings women home but he brought Lia over. Lia has been living with Peter since her dad kicked her out. Cat never left Scott’s place and has Scott’s hoodie on and is dancing. Scott is frustrated since Cat always comes over every day and is in all his private spaces. Scott was going stargazing and she asked to come. He made a bed out of his trunk to stargaze. Cat feels things and kisses him and they fall asleep together. The next day, Scott asks why Cat is coming back into his life, cooking and texting him, and now kissing him. Isa and Dylan hear the whole thing and Dylan is pissed. Isa is upset since this was before their wedding and doesn’t want a scandal. But Keith comes home and surprise surprise, JP is there. Dylan and Scott go to the basketball court and Dylan asks why Scott couldn’t stay away. I loved that Scott called him out for emotional cheating. Dylan, you ain’t no saint, I’m not gonna forget the shit he pulled in the last book. [image] It’s been two days and Cat feels so disgusted with herself. She lied to JP and said her mom doesn’t like unmarried couples to share a bed so they stay in separate rooms. They’re at Dylan’s father’s restaurant. Peter left early with Lia and they all think she’s a gold digger. JP and Scott have a discussion about women and Scott likes his outlook but hates that he has Cat. JP thinks Scott has a crush since he stared at Cat the whole time. [image] It’s Dylan’s wedding day and Peter brought Lia. Tommy thinks Dana is cute which pisses Dylan off. So I’m guessing Tommy and Dana are gonna be a couple and Peter and Lia? Seeing Isa and Dylan marry was cute despite their book being a mess. Scott’s speech to Isa and Dylan was so fucking cute. Lia wants to marry and everyone says it’s a red flag but Peter says he is just having fun. Lia says she wants to find someone and Peter teases her saying she might like him when the thought repulses her. Scott looks out for Peter and tells Lia not to manipulate Peter. Cat has no choice but to share a room with JP and he starts to kiss her. She finally tells him she slept with Scott, saying he was her ex-fiancé and JP is shocked. JP says she humiliated him and he trusted her but she was dancing with him, so he storms out. Scott is at the bar and JP punches him, Scott lets JP hit him since he knows Cat told him. JP says he humiliated him and Scott said they wanted to tell him but they didn’t wanna ruin the wedding. JP asks how many times since he can forgive Cat if it was once, oh boy. JP cries so Scott drinks and talks with him. [image] Cat is at the airport and filled her mom and Keith in on what happened. Scott comes to say hi and he’s bruised. Scott hugs her and reminds her that they can be more than just memories, how he wishes her all the success but if she leaves, it is her choice to leave, not his. I was glad he said this because he did so much for her and I feel like Cat blaming him for the breakup is just not it. He says he loves her and Cat still walks away. Scott goes home and throws the picture of him and Cat the day he proposed, he holds Rocky. JP was on the flight with Cat and he’s sweet enough to comfort her during turbulence. He knows the ring she wears is her old engagement ring and feels like their whole relationship was a lie. He wanted to propose to Cat and Cat apologized. JP said it was his fault since she wasn’t ready for a relationship and he pushed for it, he wishes her the best and they stop talking. [image] It’s been three weeks and even though Cat is excited, she is heartbroken. Scott can’t get over Cat and is just chilling with Rocky. But Cat shows up in his bed using the spare key she has and she’s crying. Cat starts asking Scott why he always looks out for her and puts her needs first. Cat regrets taking Scott’s love for granted cuz he goes all out and doesn’t care if he’s vulnerable, he has no expectations. She says she wants to try again but Scott says long distance will take them back to square one. They play the same game they played in high school, telling each other their secrets on paper. Cat says she loves him, she doesn’t want adventures anymore since she just wants a life with Scott. Scott believes they won’t work since Cat will be bored. Scott says she has a contract but she says she pulled out and they might sue her, so her career is gone. Cat says she wants a future with him and asks him to marry and they’re gonna get married tomorrow. She finally apologized for not coming home after the breakup. They make up so Scott calls Dylan and Peter to get ready for their wedding. Scott says Peter can bring Lia since he likes her and Peter says she’s pregnant. Scott calls his dad who is paying for the wedding. Cat owes the company back for all the hotels, flights, and shit but they won’t sue, so she’s gonna be broke. I like how Cat ended up sacrificing everything for Scott as he did for her, they both became broke for each other. [image] Cat and Scott have a small wedding and get married, I honestly didn’t feel that emotional because I couldn’t root for them. I loved them in their first book but this book destroyed their relationship for me, it may be realistic and the story was angsty but I hated it. 6 years later Cat and Scott have a kid who he loves so much. Cat and Scott were broke at first, but she eventually made a YouTube channel and got clients. She ships her sculptures out and since Scott is a teacher they travel every summer. I wish they had this shit from the start, this is what I was thinking, Scott can travel, it’s just not all the time. Seeing Cat and Scott with their daughter was cute. I’m curious about Peter’s book and seeing him as a dad. I would just stick with book 1 since the rest is messy but it was entertaining. Ya win some ya lose some. [image] (hide spoiler)] Stay safe folks! [image] ...more |
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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Racism, bullying, suicide of parent, poverty, death of loved one, slut shaming, drug overdose, PTSD, sexual assault, a
Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Racism, bullying, suicide of parent, poverty, death of loved one, slut shaming, drug overdose, PTSD, sexual assault, alcoholic, underage drinking, underage clubbing, fat-shaming, homophobia, sexism, misogyny, hit and run, panic attacks, disassociative amnesia, cheating, infertility, dub-con, social anxiety, depression, kidnapping, torture, pedophile, possible rape, abuse (hide spoiler)] This is the third book in the second chances series, the first being It Just Had to Be You and the second being My Debacle with De Lorenzo. This is in continuation of the second book which is a duet about Isa and Dylan. And you know what? My friends said they didn’t wanna continue the series because Scott and Cat had a nice end and the last book is after they separate, but I was curious. I read the second book and I loved it but this? This book destroyed the couples I loved, it ruined the characters for me. Dylan went through a lot but he was so whiny and self-centered. I’m so upset, this book was a rage read. Literally, two chapters in, and I was fuming. This book has a lot of tropes I hate, it has time jumps and the arguments are repetitive. [image] Honestly just don’t read the second book, enjoy the first one and leave it there. If you wanna read this anyway, it’s about Isa and Dylan. They dated for a year in high school and separated. 9 years later they are forced to sit through anger management therapy because of something they did. They tell their story from the very beginning. Isa’s dad died and she was bullied, so she started sleeping around. The only guy she ever wanted isn’t interested in getting with her and that’s Dylan. Dylan likes Isa but wants someone who will stick around and love him, he hates hookups and that’s what Isa does. So he never sleeps with her even when she goads him. [image] Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ This part takes place in the year 2027. Dylan is managing parts of his parents’ restaurant and Dana is around, she is 23 now. She doesn’t trust men other than Scott and Peter. Dylan is going to the sessions with Isa and Isa is upset he left her after they fucked during the Christmas party. Dana went to the washroom and thought someone locked her in, the door was jammed so they called maintenance. By the time they got there, Dana was hysterical. There was a screwdriver and Dylan got there and she stabbed him in the arm. They rushed Dylan to the emergency and his phone died so he couldn’t contact Isa. Once he was able to call the hotel, Isa was gone. Scott refused to give him her number cuz of a pact. Dana says it’s her fault he doesn’t have proper relationships but Dylan said it is his fault since he doesn’t know how to deal with things. [image] When I found out Dylan was in a five-year relationship with Fran I was pissed. The whole time, we think he cheated on her. He technically did cheat both emotionally and physically. He kept thinking of Isa and imagined fucking her when with Fran once he sees Isa again, 4 years into his relationship with Fran. He undressed Isa at one point and had his hand on her crotch but he stopped himself, so technically he did cheat. The beginning of this book ruins Dylan, some people may DNF right there thinking he went all the way with Isa because it takes so long for it to be revealed that he was divorced when he fucked Isa. He had so many opportunities to tell Isa that they were divorced. Dylan didn’t see a point in telling Fran about Isa since they were divorced. I think the reader at least should have known they were divorced cuz I hated Dylan for half the book. Again, he is still nasty cuz he does cheat but he never fucks Isa until they’re divorced. In 2021, Dylan started dating Fran and they got married two years later. We see them together for more than half of the book through flashbacks. Plus even when he wasn’t dating Fran, she lived with him since her classes were near his place. So the entire time, they were still in close proximity. How would this make me root for Isa and Dylan? [image] In 2023, two years into dating Fran Dylan tells Scott and Peter he is gonna get married. Scott tells Dylan he’s seen him in love but Dylan believes what he had with Isa was a fling. He hates that she cheated on him and it took two years for him to recover. Cat has been gone and Scott is upset when Dylan brings it up. What’s with this book destroying my ships? Cat is in Europe getting new jobs. Scott broke up with her two months ago since she isn’t coming home. Do I blame Scott? No, he had this future with Cat and she isn’t even thinking about him. Scott still comes over to hang with Keith, Isa’s stepdad. Scott isn’t talking to Cat and he said she constantly promises to come home and doesn’t. So if she wants to talk she can come home, I’m with Scott. He knows she’s never coming home so he’s letting her go. Scott tells Isa Dylan is marrying Fran, they haven’t spoken since the breakup. Scott and Isa make a pact where Isa won’t talk about Cat and he won’t talk about Dylan. [image] In 2025 Isa goes to meet Tommy at his cleaning job at a recording studio. Isa doesn’t wanna sleep with anyone until she loves them. She wants another Dylan in her life and Tommy told her it was a bad idea to get a tattoo dedicated to him, it was on her neck. She admits she didn’t sleep with the guy at the party years ago, she even lied to Tommy. Guys were hitting on Isa and the guy asked if she wanted to go into the room since she looked uncomfy. Charlotte filmed them and spread rumors when Isa just talked to the guy. Turns out they were on air the whole time so people called in to say they related to Tommy and Isa. Scott sent Dylan the link to Isa’s show, breaking the pact. Dylan’s messages show he still has feelings for her. He’s shocked she got a tattoo dedicated to him. He hears her say she lied about the cheating and loses it. Dylan is grocery shopping with Fran, he’s been married to her for 2 years and has been with her for 4. Dylan keeps thinking of Isa and is angry she lied. He has a box full of memories with Isa hidden in his closet. He goes to her workplace since he heard it over the radio. He checks her out thinking she’s sexy and some guy is harassing her. Isa tells him to stop and Dylan tells the guy he’s her boyfriend. Dylan yelled at Isa for lying to him since it ruined their relationship. She said he was with Fran during the three weeks anyway and now they’re married and it doesn’t matter. She starts touching him and he keeps saying he’s happily married to his wife. Isa asks why he’s there and he holds her by the neck and tells her not to fuck with him. But then he cages her on the counter, touching her tattoo saying she can’t get over their 10-month fling and belongs to him while touching her lips, homeboy is even grinding. Isa says he’s lying to himself while he unbuttoned her jeans and is touching her crotch but he moves away. He didn’t realize he did that or unbuttoned her shirt. Dylan would’ve been with her if she didn’t lie, he regrets marrying Fran but tries to convince himself otherwise. [image] The recording company fired Tommy since his job was to clean. But they called Isa and Tommy to their office. The business guys asked Isa and Tommy to work with them on a radio show KRXM as hosts. They told Cat who is traveling with some guy named Jean-Pierre who seems into her, I fucking hate this. Dylan goes to a cafe with Fran, and Isa is there. Dylan feels guilty he’s with Fran but stripped Isa the other day, Fran has no idea Isa is his ex. The entire time Dylan is checking out Isa despite his wife standing next to him. The fact that Dylan hid details about Isa from his wife shows the man ain’t trustworthy. Dylan couldn’t get Isa out of his head and fucked Fran hard. Fran talks to him about it and he apologizes. Fran said if he wanted to try new things, to talk about it so they can set boundaries. And Dylan thinks he never used to compare Isa to Fran and how they had a great sex life but he starts to do it, and it’s disgusting. Fran insists they go to a fertility clinic and Dylan is pissed since he said he didn’t want kids but she said they should plan ahead in case. He doesn’t want kids since Dana went through a lot. [image] In 2027 they’re back in the session and Isa talks about how she loves her job. At the fertility clinic, they told Dylan he can’t have kids. He realized he wanted kids but the choice was taken away and he tapped outta life, withdrew from friends and Fran, and fell into depression. The night he saw Isa he felt something, he was pissed she was lessening their night to nothing. [image] It’s 2026 during the Christmas Eve party. Cat is dating Jean-Pierre I feel so bad for Scott, he still hangs around Keith and Cat’s mom. Isa has been celibate and she’s saving herself for someone she has an emotional connection with. Dylan is working there with his restaurant. Once Isa is sitting alone he finds her again and they talk. He says he listens to the show every day and started touching her thighs. He starts kissing her neck and Isa asks what he’s doing. She stops him because she thinks he’s still married to Fran and leaves. He runs after her and they’re under a mistletoe so a photographer tells them to kiss. Isa says no but during the picture, Dylan kisses her. He says that wasn’t enough for him and shows up in her room. Isa asks where Fran is and he says some bullshit about her being a victim of a zombie apocalypse. He could’ve said he was divorced here too but nah, we are led to believe he cheats and are disgusted. He starts undressing and she keeps pushing away, saying she’s been celibate and he says he loves her but hates her more. He fucks her with no foreplay, it’s lowkey dub-con cuz she refuses and feels pain but likes it. Dylan disappears the morning after to wish everyone Merry Christmas and was gonna head back to Isa when the Dana incident happened. Scott refuses to give Dylan Isa’s number. Dylan’s marriage fell apart after he found out Isa didn’t cheat and how he knows there’s a better life out there for him. Dylan got stitches cuz of the incident with Dana and heads out to look for Isa. Isa is outside on Dylan’s Lamborghini with a garden spade destroying his car. Isa asks why he left her and Dylan doesn’t know how to tell her about Dana. She continues to destroy his car and someone calls the cops. Isa taunts Dylan asking if he’s scared Fran will find out, even then he doesn’t say they’re divorced. The cops come and they both dropped charges but need to go to anger management. [image] We are back to the present and Dylan told Isa he was at the hospital but didn’t say why. Isa is pissed Dylan doesn’t feel bad for sleeping with her but turns out Dylan got divorced a year ago. We as the reader find out now too, the whole time I thought he was cheating and was disgusted. He said he made a mistake when he stripped her at the bowling place but other than that he would never cheat while he’s married. And she says he did with Fran during the three weeks and he said it didn’t happen and said the pact she has with Scott ruins everything since he couldn’t call her. Scott didn’t even tell Isa they’ve divorced. Dylan says how Fran started to make him take medication to fix his sperm but he didn’t want to. Then she tries to find sperm donors and every time he voices his concerns she says they have to plan. Then she calls adoption agencies and Dylan is done, he avoids home and they always fought. Fran plans carefully to have divorce papers handed to him on his wedding anniversary and he signs them. What I hate is he isn’t even the one who filed for a divorce, Fran did. Fran was upset he signed without a fight. He moved in with Peter and doesn’t have a car or house. [image] Dylan asks Isa if she has a problem with him not being able to have kids and she said she didn’t. He asked if they can start over and she said no since he keeps secrets. He said he won’t disappear since his sister is home but Isa says no. Dylan says he doesn’t care and they will get together. Dylan meets Isa for lunch and she meets Dana for the first time with Tommy. Dana asked how they dye their hair so Tommy puts an arm around her shoulder and says he will take her to a store. Dylan finally tells Isa clearly that Dana can decide what she wants to tell Isa and her needs will come first, but if Dana never tells Isa, she has to live with it. They make an arrangement and Dylan wants 5 dates. Once they reach date 5 they will be official. Isa doesn’t give him her number. Dylan went to Isa’s mom’s place and asked for Isa’s number. He spent the night on the porch until they did. Dylan asks for Isa’s address and she sends a riddle. Dylan finally figured out her address and takes on a date. Dana is going with Isa to help her help people in a homeless shelter. Dylan’s mom is house hunting because Alan, the guy they put in jail in relation to Dana, might be out for parole. Fran knew cuz of her parents and asked if Dylan wanted to go out for ice cream but he said no. Isa took Dana to the homeless shelter and is hanging out with her at the mall. Isa got Dana a dress and makeup and Dylan’s mom is so happy. The reason why Dylan’s family has this weird try not to laugh game is because of Dana. She noticed her family felt guilty about laughing without her so she told them they can’t laugh or cry while tryna make them laugh. Dylan apologized since he was being selfish for keeping things from her since Isa was an escape. Isa hasn’t seen Dylan in three weeks after they woke up in bed together after cuddling from their fourth date. She finally called him, she did three weeks on purpose with no call or text to show him how she felt and he apologized once she called. [image] Dana admits that the reason Dylan and Isa had issues was because of her. Dana told Isa to tell Dylan to tell her since she can’t do it. Dylan is triggered by a baby since he can’t have kids and takes Isa out. Fran sends him a voice memo so Isa asks him to explain. They listen to Fran’s voice memo and this girl of course ruins everything, she says she heard Dylan’s convo about him wanting to get back with his ex and assumed it was herself. She said it wasn’t a good idea and mentions she doesn’t wanna move since his mom wants to move in case Alan gets out of prison. Isa is pissed and wants to end things. Dylan says it’s a misunderstanding and Isa tells him she’s just an arrangement and was never called girlfriend or wife whereas Fran did. Isa says how he shut her out with the baby in the shelter. She says she’s done and Dylan leaves. But Dylan comes back the same night and asks for a hug first. He went to Fran and ended things since they can’t coexist if he’s with Isa. He says he never opened up to Fran about anything and she was there when everything happened. He says he can’t call her his girlfriend since she’s so much more so they settle with her being his everything, so stupid. [image] Dylan finally tells us who Alan is, the fucker was the one who ran Dylan over at the grocery store. Alan and his friend stole Dylan’s car while Dana was inside and drove away. Dylan jumped in front of the car so Alan ran him over. The guys were supposed to leave Dana so she could find her parents but Alan kidnapped her for 26 fucking days, he hooked her on drugs. His partner fought Alan off Dana while she screamed for help. They left her outside the hospital since they didn’t wanna get arrested. Alan had her locked up in a room so Dylan’s family removed the locks in their home. Dana has dissociative amnesia so she forgets during the episodes. He explains why he disappeared during the three weeks, he went to get his sister a snow globe and Alan was there for the same reason. Dylan calls a detective, the guy had his sister’s bloody shirt and shoes at his place, he’s so fucked up. They arrested him but his house was getting calls and he was heading to the station so he told Fran to shut off his phone. Their mom had a mental breakdown when she saw the room Dana was locked in. Dana had to testify but she lost it so they made her go back to the psychiatric facilities and Dylan went with her for three weeks. Their dad needed help and asked Fran to check up on his mom so Dylan had no idea. Dylan wanted something normal so when he came back he knew Isa would be pissed but when he found out she slept with another guy it wrecked him. [image] Isa apologizes and Dylan said she didn’t know, he blames himself for leaving the car. He says he doesn’t want Isa to change and he loves how petty she is. He opens up about the shelter with the baby. He is scared when they have kids, something like this will happen. He doesn’t know if he’s ready or will ever be but he wants Isa to be okay with it and she is. I still think it’s weird Dylan doesn’t wanna label their relationship but he says he wants her so whatever, they are finally together. Seeing Dylan’s family happy made me feel happy for them. Alan’s parole got rejected thankfully. Dylan proposes to Isa, it was cute how his friends got involved. But Scott realized Cat will be at the wedding and he last saw her 4 and a half years ago. 3 years later Isa and Dylan adopted a baby from the shelter. Peter was an early dad which was a surprise. Scott had drama with Cat during their wedding and it isn’t revealed what happens cuz they have a book. Dylan and Isa adopt another girl, and seeing them happy was cute but this book was torture. I am sad about Scott and Cat, but I need to know what happens, so we’ll see. [image] (hide spoiler)] Stay safe folks! [image] ...more |
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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Racism, bullying, suicide of parent, poverty, death of loved one, slut shaming, drug overdose, PTSD, sexual assault, alcoholic, underage drinking, underage clubbing, fat-shaming, homophobia, bad food diet to lose weight, addiction, psychiatric facilities, sexism, misogyny, hit and run, panic attacks, cheating (could be lying) (hide spoiler)] This is Isa and Dylan’s story, the second book after It Just Had to Be You. I was surprised to have liked Dylan and Isa’s story. Isa presents herself in a way where she doesn’t give two shits, she deals with issues with sarcasm. Dylan is an adorable dork but he has anger issues and will beat you up if you hurt women, he’s also dealing with dark shit. This book was funny and the couple was so entertaining but the arguments did get a bit repetitive. [image] Isa and Dylan dated in high school and separated. 9 years later they are forced to sit through anger management therapy. They’re both pissed with each other and tell their story from the very beginning. Isa’s dad died and she was bullied, so she lost weight and started sleeping around to feel something. The only guy she ever wanted isn’t interested in getting with her and that’s Dylan. Dylan likes Isa but he wants someone who will stick around, he hates hookups and that’s what Isa does. So he never sleeps with her even when she goads him. [image] “Bottom line is, I absolutely cannot fall in love with you.” I throw my hands up. “Then don’t.” “Trust me, I won’t. I’m saving myself for Anna Kendrick, anyway.” Again, I can’t tell if he’s joking or not. “Also, you have too many daddy issues to ever truly fall in love with me, either.” Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ I was surprised the book took place 9 years into the future. Dylan and Isa are in therapy for anger management after they did something. They dated for about a year in high school and tell us the full story and we go back in time. Despite Dylan being rich, his funny crackhead parents make an effort to be involved in his life. Isa meets Dylan before class to have morning chats for 10 minutes, after her dad died, she changed from being a shy girl to sleeping around. She tells Dylan about her sexcapades, he calls her “Bella” which means beautiful in Italian. She slept with Steven who showed up with his girlfriend at the mall the next day. Dylan tells Isa to stop letting people treat her like shit. Isa always goes to the washroom to get ahold of herself because the front stairs traumatize her at school. She waited there for her dad but one day her dad didn’t come, he threw himself off a building. One day while Isa was showering, Audrey took Isa’s clothes and put them in the middle of the football field. Isa had to go to get it in a towel and Dylan gave her his shirt and helped her. Isa always touches Dylan and says sexual things to get a reaction. Dylan asks her “Are we walking,” it’s their routine after their lil chats. [image] Tommy is Isa’s coworker and best friend, he’s bisexual. Shelby was Steven’s girlfriend but he cheated on her with Isa in his car. The weekend before that Isa was with Josh who is Audrey’s boyfriend. Isa says she gives no fucks and did fuck Steven. Isa has slept with 16 guys but Tommy was her first. Tommy found Isa crying at the store and went to console her but they ended up fucking. In the middle she started to cry so it was the most awkward hookup, he held her and she realized he is a good friend. Steven texts Isa wanting to fuck, she craves being wanted even though he’s dating Shelby, so she meets him. Dylan missed days of school since his sister Dana came. Francesca calls Dylan and she knows about Dana. Fran has been Dylan’s best friend since they were babies, and their parents are as well. They had feelings for each other and dated but they didn’t last since he moved. Dylan hasn’t seen Isa and decides to check the washroom. Isa is on the ground and Dylan says he’s gonna hug her and wait outside the washroom after. Whatever happens in the washroom will stay in the washroom. Isa opens up about her dad and cries while he holds her. Then he waits outside and they act as if nothing happened. Dylan told Isa she was the best part of his morning. Steven lies and tells Shelby he didn’t fuck Isa. Isa sarcastically says she didn’t sleep with him while describing his car. Steven yanks Isa and Dylan punches him. Isa hugs and thanks Dylan, and heads to work. [image] Isa is drunk and Tommy has a hangover kit for her. Dylan doesn’t wanna get close to Isa since he will fight people for her. Isa asks Dylan to meet after school and he tells her not to drink and then they will. Dylan explains why Isa is too crazy for him. Dylan imitates girl voices and drew his levels of crazy girls, it was funny. “I talk to my plants.” “Many people do that.” “It broke my heart when Justin and Selena ended it. They were my number one ship. I was devastated.” “Okay...okay, that one made me lose a little respect for you. I just can’t see you in the same light after a comment like that.” Isa goes home to find Scott who explains that he’s helping Cat with chores because the principal told him to. Their family has no financial burden cuz of Scott now. Dylan’s family moments are so funny, their rules of if you cry you’re weak but if you laugh you’re a loser lol. “Oh, no, take your time, sweetie,” Mom says, actively trying to lighten the mood. “Your dad and I might decide to get naked, put on a little show for Kevin upstairs.” I shut my eyes to the visuals her words invoke. “Mom, why are you this person?” “I’m sorry.” “You need Jesus, Lorraine.” Dylan went to the hardware store and ran into Isa and Tommy talking about him. Dylan asks to hang out and they go to the mall. Isa opens up about her dad and he offers to hug her, I love how Dylan is physically affectionate, the guy is a cuddler. Isa goes to the washroom and she’s late so Dylan comes in to check up on her. She kisses his cheek but he turns his head by accident so it lands on his mouth. He asks if their rule about the washroom stays the same, what happens there stays there. Isa says yes and Dylan drags her into a stall and makes out with her. Isa is done with the mixed signals and asked what they are. Dylan says they aren’t friends and he wants her but he doesn’t want her to be his problem and this hurts Isa. Dylan apologizes immediately and Isa says he’s just like other guys for using her and leaving her. [image] Isa ignores Dylan, David says he’s picking her up and Dylan is pissed. At a party, Dylan sees Isa with David and sitting in his lap. Charlotte hits on Dylan while Scott is suffering with Amanda. Seeing Scott silently beg Dylan for help was hilarious. Scott asks Dylan to intervene if Isa is uncomfortable. David is tryna kiss her while she’s turning away so Dylan stops him, David said he can have her once he’s done, nasty fucker. Dylan says he wants Isa but he hates substance abuse. Dylan gives Cat his number to give to Isa but if she’s sober. Isa calls Dylan and they had this magical spontaneous night and tricked security guards into letting them up to the rooftop. They make a contract where if they hook up, Isa can’t be with anyone else for two weeks. If they hook up again, the contract renews, he also doesn’t want her to drink, and they can’t fall in love. All Isa wants is for him to hug her GAAH. Dylan came in his pants after a makeout and says he’s a virgin. They don’t wanna label their hangouts so they go with little adventures. Fran calls Dylan’s phone and Isa asks if he’s exclusive and he says yes. Isa is suspicious so he puts Fran on the speaker and talks to her. Isa is worried he still has feelings for her but Dylan says he doesn’t. Dylan hates the grocery store and his venting was the funniest thing. He hates one in particular and is shaking. Someone ran him over in the parking lot and it traumatized him. Isa and Dylan go to the grocery store and play a game where they steal one thing and tell each other what they stole after, they sing songs together in the car and make each other laugh. [image] Dylan hasn’t called since Friday and has his phone turned off and Isa thinks he dumped her, he hasn’t been to school either. Isa didn’t drink for two weeks and so she drank. Dylan left after saying he wasn’t mad and she hasn’t heard from him since then. Charlotte says Dylan probably has a girlfriend when he disappears and he doesn’t wanna sleep with Isa. Dylan shows up and calls out Charlotte for making shit up about him. Dylan has a cut on his lip and Isa asks how he got it. He tries to joke around about his family but she knew it was a family member. She asked why he disappeared and he said he needs a break sometimes. David’s friend Simon starts following Isa and Dylan, harassing Isa. Dylan asks the guy to stop and he doesn’t so Dylan beats him up. Scott and Peter say Dylan has anger issues. Dylan begs her to go home with him. They have do not disturb signs for their doors instead of locks. He asks her to put his shirt on and cuddles her in bed, he says he hasn’t slept in days. Isa tries asking him what’s wrong but he won’t tell her. Isa’s mom notices something is hurting Dylan. She softly spoke with him and managed to make him feel better and told him he was welcome at her place. [image] Isa wants to end things with Dylan since she feels things for him but he isn’t telling her about his life. Tommy and Isa try to ask Scott about Dylan and he said that even back in the day, Dylan was fighting anyone who talked shit about Isa. Dylan had preferential treatment since his parents talked to the principal. After being with Isa, Dylan is fighting more. Isa thinks she brings the worst out of him. Dylan shows up at her place and she tries to break up but he ignores her and asks when they’re leaving for a party. She goes to her room so he follows and plays Subway Surfers until she’s ready to talk. She tells him to go to Fran and tells him to leave since she isn’t worth the trouble. Dylan says she’s insecure cuz of the terrible men she’s met. He will disappear every 8 weeks and Isa said it traumatizes her to hear the voicemail since it happened with her dad so he told her not to call and that he will always come back. He also noticed she is insecure since they didn’t fuck and he says he’s nervous. They end up fucking and Isa talked him through it. Cat got money from sculpting and is dating Scott, Isa was able to quit her job and she was always with Dylan. In the present day, Dylan says Fran doesn’t even know about them. Dylan hasn’t told Isa what’s going on til this day. [image] Back in the past Dylan and Isa are together but he disappears and comes back with new scars every time. They’d been dating for 6 months, Dylan knows the stairs traumatize Isa, so he got a band to play One Direction and threw roses at her to get her over that memory. Isa confesses she loves him, and Dylan says he loves her back. When Fran calls and he has her on speaker. Fran says she wanted to hear his sexy voice and Isa is like da fuck. Dylan hangs up, noticing Isa is upset. Isa says their friendship bothers her. Dylan says nothing happened and even lets her read their messages and listen to their phone calls. He says he didn’t give her shit when she slept with Tommy but Isa said they were never in love. Isa is pissed that Fran knows about what Dylan is hiding but his parents told her parents. Dylan said he’s willing to end things with Fran if she asks him to. He’s about to end his friendship when she stops him. 10 months into their relationship, Dylan’s mom tells him that Dana is coming home and tells Dylan he should introduce Isa to her. Dylan says they’ll lose the normalcy they have. Dylan knows Dana is willing to tell Isa what happened to her but he doesn’t want her to, Dylan is honestly making the decisions for them. Isa surprised Dylan with an anchor necklace since she knows it’s gonna be a bad Friday for him. [image] Dylan is excited but sad to see his sister, he asks Dana for a hug but she’s angry and throws shit at him. Dylan knows exactly what to say to calm her down and she hugs him and apologizes. She has an addiction to drugs and when they go out she tries to run away. He offers to take her out for ice cream if she doesn’t run. She steals their wallets at night to leave and buy drugs so they all stay awake. Dylan always locks the car door in case Dana runs away. But every night she runs and screams, begging for drugs. She becomes desperate enough to get violent, his parents try to shield him from it but Dylan takes Dana to bed and she throws a snow globe at him. Dylan lets her hit him and once she calms down she says she was calling for him. Dylan blames himself since Dana screamed for him the night something happened to her. Some asshole got her hooked on drugs and did things. But Dylan gets into fights with assholes who treat women badly because of what happened to his sister, who’s going to rehab and psychiatric facilities. I cried when his parents said he did what he could and hugged him. Dana doesn’t remember throwing stuff at Dylan. Seeing Dana beg not to leave broke my heart. Her running to Dylan and their mom begging them to stay hurt. Dylan goes to his punching bag and his mom goes into her room. He needs a few days to calm himself before he faces anyone, he wasn’t lying. Isa goes to Dylan’s place and he holds her by the throat and shoves her into the wall not knowing it was her. Dylan tells Isa to leave but she asks him what’s wrong and he gets angry and says he doesn’t owe her anything because they have an arrangement. Dylan apologizes and says he doesn’t want people around since he doesn’t wanna hurt anyone. He begs Isa not to ask questions, he says once he tells her, they’ll lose what they have. [image] In the present Dylan finally tells Isa everything and she tries to leave. Dylan is pissed since he finally tells her 9 years later but she shuts him out. She can’t understand how he carried this secret for so long and laughed and joked around. He said he didn’t tell her since he wanted something normal, Isa regrets having him deal with her addiction and she said she would’ve been supportive. Dylan says she’s the reason they broke up because of her insecurities. She says she’s done with him but she has a tattoo dedicated to his touch with his nickname. He gets close to her and reminds her she wasn’t done with him six weeks ago when they fucked. But Isa calls him out for disappearing for three weeks with Fran. Isa said Dylan disappeared and promised to come back on Friday but when she called, Fran picked up. [image] Isa is waiting for Dylan, the last time she called Fran picked up. Dylan tells Fran to hang up and Fran says he can’t pick up but asked for Isa’s name and number. She says something came up and they’re leaving. Isa visited his place but the bodyguards won’t let her in, she’s seen Fran and her parents at his place. Isa took body shots with her friend and slept with someone else, I was pissed, I get that she was upset about Fran but come on. There is a video of her going into the room with the guy but honestly, I’m hoping she didn’t sleep with him. She sent it to Dylan because she was upset. After three weeks Dylan is calling and texts and Isa ignores him. He comes over and calls her out for switching off her phone, I wish she did that shit instead of fucking someone else. He apologizes but Isa told him if he wasn’t gonna tell her where he was he should leave. He says there was family drama and she calls him out for being with Fran but he says she was only there for one day. She says she’s done and deserves better and Dylan says he will tell her one day but not today. Dylan realized the video Isa sent was legit and asked if she was sober when she fucked the guy and she said yes, how their arrangement was every two weeks and he was gone for three. Dylan is pissed since they’ve been together for 10 months. I see both sides, but I wish Isa waited to end things before fucking someone, but Dylan didn’t wanna label their relationship which was also shitty. Dylan is heartbroken and says his life has been a living hell but this hurt him. Isa waits for Dylan to explain himself so that she can tell him what “really” happened in that room, oh thank fuck, I am gonna hope she didn’t fuck him. Dylan says there’s no point and Isa wants to take it back but she’s done. [image] Dylan says he got with Francesca two years after their breakup and even dated 3 other girls but Fran bothers Isa the most. He tells Isa that she is deluding herself into believing they had nothing when they had something. He is gonna save what happened during those three weeks for next time. Isa feels guilt for making things harder for him when he was dealing with shit. We still don’t know the details about Dana but Isa hugs him and apologizes. She said he was a kid before but he still left her in the morning after they slept together recently. So he asks to be friends and she says he’s in a relationship with Fran but slept with her and says no. I was like wait he’s with Fran now and cheated with Isa? I hate that there’s a 9-year time jump and how this drama still bothered them for this long. I hate that Isa might have slept with another guy, I hope she didn’t. And I hate that Dylan is with Fran according to Isa but slept with Isa, and he even left her without saying anything. I wanna know why they have to go to anger management together, what happened to Dana, what’s the deal with Fran and Dylan, and if Isa did sleep with the guy. We shall see. [image] (hide spoiler)] Stay safe folks! [image] ...more |
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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Racism, racial slurs, bullying, suicide of parent, poverty, death of loved one, slut shaming, cheating, suicide ideation, drug overdose, hit by car, PTSD, sexual assault, alcoholic, underage drinking, underage clubbing, sex with minor (15 y/o with strip club escort), parental neglect and abandonment, assault (hide spoiler)] This is a bully romance recommended by Phu ...more |
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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Self-harm (girl cuts herself), suicide ideation, cheating, death of loved one, sexual assault, clubbing underage, drugs, alcoholic (hide spoiler)] I only read this for the snippets of the Boys of Tommen series and skipped the other chapters, so my rating is only for the BoT chapters. If you haven’t read it, please check it out. The first book is Binding 13 and the second is Keeping 13. It is about Shannon who was bullied at her previous school, her mom worked hard to get her into the prestigious private school named Tommen College. She catches the eye of a famous rugby player, Johnny, who can’t take his mind off Shan. But Shan wants to live a quiet life and avoid getting bullied again, being with Johnny will do the opposite. Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ (hide spoiler)] ...more |
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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Bullying physical/emotional, anxiety, suicide ideation, accidental minor pregnancy, parental abuse, domestic violence, homophobia, minor pics without consent, underage drinking, drug addiction, minor virginity taken by older, secretary having sex with students (predator), cheating ex, alcoholic parent, foster care trauma, miscarriage, rape, panic attacks, cyclic vomiting syndrome, slut shaming, attempted murder with knife by child, ableism, struggles with dyslexia, death of loved ones, arson homicide/murder, aquaphobia, drowning (hide spoiler)] I fucking loved this. I buddy read this with amazing Mattie. Johnny and Shan have my heart, and Gibsie and Claire are cuties. Joey and Aoife are everything, Joey deserves the world. Their siblings Tadhg, Ollie, and Sean are adorable. Edel and John are a power couple, I would love to read a book with them. I’m gonna miss them all. [image] This follows the first book Binding 13, right where we left off. It is about Shannon who was bullied at her previous school, her mom worked hard to get her into the prestigious private school named Tommen College. She catches the eye of a famous rugby player, Johnny, who can’t take his mind off Shan. But Shan wants to live a quiet life and avoid getting bullied again, being with Johnny will do the opposite. [image] “I love you, Johnny Kavanagh," I choked out. "Most in the world." "I love you back, Shannon Lynch," he said quietly in my ear. "Most in the world." "For keeps?" I breathed. He kissed my shoulder. "For keeps.” Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ We start where we left off, Joey asked their mom to choose between them and their dad, and their mom chooses their dad. Their mom finally tells their dad to leave but he punches her. Joey went to check on her and his dad banged his head on the ground. Their brother Tadhg took a knife and held it to their dad’s throat, he’s only 11. Tadhg cut his neck, telling him to get off Joey. Shan is slowly dying and she passes out. Johnny tells Gibs he’s been seeing bruises on Shan and thinks her dad is abusing her. Johnny calls the cops and tells them to go to Shan’s place. Shan woke up and Darren, her eldest brother, was there. Joey was high, and Shan was upset because he struggled with addiction. Their mom had Darren’s number the whole time. Joey is pissed at Darren for walking out on them. Their dad is hiding since the cops are after him. [image] Joey said their mom was a victim at first but she enabled their dad’s behaviour for 24 years. Darren said their mom was raped repeatedly since she was 14. Joey asked why she didn’t leave them in the foster care home since Shan and Joey had a nice family. It was because Darren was raped, they were taken out and Joey didn’t trust foster care homes because of this. Darren wants them to lie about their mom protecting them so that the social workers won’t separate them, if this happens Shan won’t be able to go to Tommen either. Darren says he will help with their family. He called Joey irrelevant but Joey is the one who slept outside their brother’s door to protect them. Shan yelled at Darren for saying Joey that and he apologized. [image] Johnny yelled at Joey for not saying anything and Joey yelled at him, saying their family would be separated if they told. He told Johnny Shan is at the hospital, and that Shan was beaten by their dad because the coach told their dad about Shan and Johnny. Johnny saw Shan in the hospital and they were both open about their feelings. His dad, John, was there but Shan’s mom, Marie, blamed Johnny when she should be blaming her fucking husband. Darren was struggling with the pressure and Joey wasn’t home for days. Tadhg came and asked if Shan gave a fuck about Joey. He was right, I wish people were more concerned over Joey. Johnny convinced Gibsie to take him to Shan. Gibsie invites Claire, ClaireGibsie energy was everything, they literally speak their own language. Darren said Johnny couldn’t see Shan, so she snuck behind Darren and left with them. Joey fell out of Shane’s car, he is high. Last year Joey met up with bad druggies like Shane and would be high all the time. Gibsie and Johnny helped Joey shower, he had scars on his back from his dad. They made sure Joey vomited all the drugs out. “That's it," Gibsie coaxed, dabbing his mouth once more. "Puke out all the expensive, class A drugs. Good job. Let the water wash your sins and wages down the drain.” Johnny tells Joey nothing was his fault and Joey said he can’t get the image of Shan almost dying out of his head. Joey called Aoife and apologized, admitting he fucked up. Last year Joey hung out with Shane, did drugs, and got into fights. One day, Aoife stopped Joey before he can get into Shane’s car, she said something to him and kissed him. He walked away from the car and he got better slowly. Johnny says they can stay at his place but Claire can’t because of something Gibsie did. Shan and Johnny sleep cuddling on the couch, but Edel comes in. Marie threatened Edel with statuary rape claims, Shan is 16 and Johnny is 17 but she is still a minor. Seeing Edel compliment Joey for working young and Joey listening to her was wholesome, he’s never had a proper mother figure. Marie was yelling at Edel the second she brought the kids back, threatening to have Johnny arrested for statuary rape. Edel is ready to fight, telling her not to bring trouble to Johnny. Darren was frustrated and left and Joey cooked for the boys, taking care of Marie. Joey told Shan he fucked up and Aoife is mad, he doesn’t want her to see him turning into his dad. Joey wants to run away with Shan on their first day back to school. Even though I love Shan, I wish she put in more effort to look out for Joey the way he looks out for her, and even take a day to spend with him. She stands up for him but I want her to be there for him. Bella bothers Johnny and Gibsie tells Bella to back off, his comebacks were everything. “Because I have a dick and you have a pussy?" he offered knowingly. "Oh, please. I'm a twenty-first-century guy. I support equal rights for everyone, which includes the right for me, a dick owner, to tell a stalkerish female, such as yourself, to fuck off!” Johnny officially asked Shan to be his girlfriend. Johnny bought Shan a pink phone with music downloaded on it. Gibsie is determined to get all the free condoms, he says he can’t read the instructions on the condoms, I swear Gibsie is a virgin. He presents himself as a manho but nah man, I doubt it. Johnny introduced Shan as his girlfriend to his friends. Claire said Dee, the predator secretary, bothered her, she handed in permission slips for trips and Dee said she didn’t get them so Claire can’t go. Gibsie left to sort it out with Dee, I fucking hate that. Shan asked Claire what Gibsie was on about with Dee and Claire said she didn’t want to know and get hurt. Claire invites Shan over and Darren is there to pick her up, Shan says she’s going with Claire and Darren wouldn’t listen but she goes anyway. Gibsie got his dick pierced so he didn’t have to be with Dee but didn’t go into detail. Joey told Shan their dad handed himself in to the cops. Their dad went to a treatment center. Since their dad handed himself in, the judge thinks he showed remorse. Joey lays the facts out, their dad will come to court acting changed, come back to the house, the social workers will leave, and they’ll deal with their dad again. Johnny asked Gibsie why he didn’t ask out Claire to be his girlfriend. Gibsie is scared to be another statistic, high school sweethearts rarely last and he doesn’t want that with Claire. Shan tells Johnny about her dad, he’s not going to prison since he’s in rehab. Johnny drove Shan to a beach and even though his legs hurt, they play ball she encourages him. [image] Darren and Marie are screaming since Shan was at Johnny’s, so Johnny walks Shan home. Joey is a savage, Johnny is waiting outside since he’s worried so Joey told Shan to tell him she’s okay so he will leave. Darren says she can’t and Joey says she isn’t a kid and if they’re scared he hands her a condom. Lizzie and Gibsie were always fighting, Liz couldn’t stand Gibsie. She kept making fun of him for not knowing words and he left, he was upset. Johnny yelled at Lizzie since Gibsie was dyslexic. Shan found Lizzie in a room crying, her sister’s death anniversary was coming up. Gibsie reminds Liz of some guy named Mark and that’s why Liz can’t stand him. Gibsie told Johnny he was done dealing with Liz’s shit and he felt bad because of her sister. Johnny asked what happened, and Gibsie wouldn’t say. [image] Johnny shows Shan how to drive and I love how she got confident and said it’s like GTA. Darren showed up at Johnny’s house. Their dad was released and he’s back. “I'm not going anywhere," he said, tightening his hold on me. I tried again. "You can't –" "I'm not going anywhere, Shannon." "You don’t need to –" "I'm with you. All of you. Every part. Good and bad. I'm staying. So, don’t hide this part from me.” Claire and Gibsie had something happen but she didn’t go into detail. Shan and Johnny walk in on his parents fucking and Johnny has a breakdown, it was hilarious. Claire and Gibsie also see them and are gushing about how hot they are LMAO. Gibsie, Claire, Shan, and Johnny went to the movies, and Gibsie and Claire fought over which movie to watch. “I said it's fine, Gerard," Claire said flatly. "Pick the film. I don't care." "You're lying," he accused. "It's not fine and you're going to make me suffer." "Do what you want, Gerard." "Stop mind-fucking me!" "Fine." "Don't say that." "Fine." "Fine!" He threw his hands up in the air. "Fucking fine. You win." Shan saw her dad in a car with a woman and freaks out. Johnny went to her dad’s car and beat him and called him a piece of shit for abusing Shan. Johnny was at Shan’s place when she wasn’t home and saw Sean in the window. Sean opened the door and Johnny introduced himself. Ollie was talking and Tadhg threatened Johnny not to call the cops. They haven’t eaten, so Johnny offers to take them to Mcdonald's. At Johnny’s place, Edel greeted them. What was so sad was when John came, the boys hid behind Johnny. Edel made John look less intimidating and got them cake and Ollie was so happy. Sean hasn’t spoken since Shan was injured and when he wanted cake, he went onto John’s lap who let him sit and eat. John told Edel they have to send the boys back before Johnny gets arrested. [image] Seeing Shan tell Johnny she shaved her coochie and is in pain was the funniest convo, the man is like I have a dick I dunno. They end up fucking and Shan’s virginity is taken, but his mom interrupts. Edel gave Shan the sex talk and drove Shan home. Shan had a nightmare where Darren was protecting them from going downstairs. Their dad was raping their mom so Joey went to attack at 12 years old, Joey predicted Darren would leave after that night and he did. Shan went to the washroom and fucking Bella cornered her. This time Shan fought back and yelled. Bella took her tuna lunch and smeared it on Shan and took her lipstick and wrote Kav’s slut on her, fuck her. Shan called Joey to come to pick her up. What’s kinda sad is Joey is always there when Shan needs him but I feel like Shan could be doing more to check up on him. Joey was ready to hurt everyone and Aoife came and told Joey not to fight. Everyone saw Shan’s condition and Johnny knew it was Bella. Their principal came and Joey yelled at him, Bella came by with Cormac and Joey punches him. THE WAY AOIFE GOT ON BELLA THE SECOND SHE FOUND OUT SHE WAS THE ONE WHO DID IT TO SHAN OMG. “Who the hell are you?" Bella hissed, glaring at Aoife. "Oh, I'm your worst nightmare, bitch." Taking her to the ground in one fell swoop. Aoife straddled Bella. "You like terrorizing little girls?" she demanded, straddling Bella. "Try someone your own size.” Joey got arrested and Bella victimized herself. The way Hughie, Johnny, and Gibsie covered for Joey and Aoife and made their own story was priceless. Bella’s mom made Bella apologize to Shan. The way John threatened the principal and promised to have Joey home was everything. Joey was at Johnny’s place talking to Edel, she told him he mattered, and she begged Joey to let her help him. John got Joey out of jail and got Bella expelled. But Joey is expelled from school. John and Edel want to foster all the Lynch children. They have been approved to do so and his parents asked for Johnny’s blessing. Joey comes home and he’s on drugs, Darren hugs him but yells at him. Joey tells his mom she didn’t even come to jail when he called. Joey leaves them and it hurt because honestly, no one looked out for him. Seeing all the kids, even Sean, beg Joey to stay had me crying. Aoife showed up and Joey told her to let him go because he wasn’t good for her. Darren went to look for Joey and their dad showed up. [image] He came inside drunk and told Shan to go to bed. Shan told her brothers to lock the door and went into her room and called Johnny. Johnny got there and Shan climbed out her window, Johnny said he was going back for the kids. Johnny had to sneak down the steps with Sean, Ollie, and Tadhg. Marie saw so she coughed to cover the creaks. Marie told Johnny to leave and say sorry to the kids. John finds out that Shan’s house is in flames, Johnny saved them all by taking them out. Her dad wanted them in bed in their rooms so that he could burn them all. Shan and Darren break down after they found out their mom died. Johnny blames himself for not being able to save the mom. Joey came back to the house and thought they had all died. Johnny hugged Joey and took him away, telling him not to blame himself for what happened. Joey didn’t want anyone touching him but when Edel hugged him, he hugged her back. Joey told his brothers Marie was an angel looking over them, his brothers really loved him. Gibsie hugging Johnny knowing he needed a friend had me sobbing. Johnny was helpless so Gibsie called Hughie and Feely and fix his treehouse for the kids. [image] Joey was going through withdrawals and was depressed laying in bed. Aoife came and cuddled Joey, Aoife is perfect for him. Johnny and his friends finished building the treehouse and let Ollie and Tadhg play. Johnny was attached to Sean, and Gibsie’s fav is Ollie. Shan told Johnny she didn’t wanna bother his family and how his mom will foster them. Johnny told Shan what happened with her mom and how she saved them. Johnny blamed himself for her death and Shan told him he saved them. The funeral had me sobbing, Joey couldn’t stop crying or looking at his mom’s grave. Joey was gonna leave for rehab and I cried when Aoife said bye to him, her love for Joey was like Johnny’s love for Shan, bulldozey and strong. “You shut up, Joey Lynch," she sobbed, gripping his sides. "I love you." "You shut up, Aoife Molloy," he shot back gruffly and pressed a kiss to her brow. "I love you, too.” Gibsie undressed cuz it was hot and he had his piercings and tattoo out, Hughie was pissed since Claire wasn’t surprised, they clearly did something. Johnny got a callback contract and Shan was happy for him and said she will wait for Johnny. Gibsie and Claire are having baby kittens because Brian got another cat pregnant. Darren moved back but called the house daily. Edel used to live with John’s family before they got together, she ran away from home and John’s mom helped her, I want their story. Ollie watched Shan’s door to make sure Johnny didn’t sneak into Shan’s room. They go on their camping trip, Lizzie was being a bitch, they were building tents and she fought Gibsie, he threw the instructions into the river since he can’t read them. Lizzie is pissed at something “he” did which I’m assuming is Mark. Gibsie says he has nothing to do with it. They’re near the river, and everyone is telling them to stop but Lizzie says that Gibsie is just like “him” and shoves him into the water. Gibsie is drowning and his friends save him. Claire slaps Lizzie and says she’s a heartless bitch and she knows he’s afraid of water. The boys helped Gibsie but Claire dried him off. Everyone yelled at Liz, Feely tells them they aren’t all saints and takes Liz away so they can all cool off. Gibsie’s father and sister drowned when he was small. His parents were going through a messy separation. Keith, Gibsie’s stepdad, had a flashy party for Gibs so his father did one on a boat. Gibsie and his sister Bethany got knocked overboard. Somehow Gibsie made it, but he won’t talk about it. [image] Everyone cried while saying bye to Johnny, even Gibsie. Johnny wrote Shan letters throughout the summer. Ollie wants to be a barrister like John and Tadhg wants to be a mechanic like Joey. The crew went to Johnny’s game at a bar and Bella showed up with friends. Gibsie was taunting Cormac but Claire took him away since he had a warning. Bella continued to insult Shan and Cormac took this long to realize she doesn’t love him and is second best, so he breaks up with her. Johnny is famous and got a contract for Dublin and even though he wants it, he wants to experience being a teenager. He chose to stay at Tommen and promised to marry Shan when he was older. Tadhg was winning the ladies at Tommen and flirted with Claire, and Gibsie was pissed. Joey was at Tommen and I just wanted to see more of him and we will be getting more. He looked thin and lost, I hope everyone looks out for him, he needs good friends like Johnny and Gibsie. This book was everything, I cannot believe it’s over. [image] (hide spoiler)] I wanna read Joey’s book but can’t handle cliffies so imma wait. I am so book-hungover and in tears, I loved this series please check it out. Stay safe folks! [image] ...more |
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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Bullying physical, anxiety, taking pics of minor undressed without consent and distributing, suicide ideation, minor p
Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Bullying physical, anxiety, taking pics of minor undressed without consent and distributing, suicide ideation, minor pregnancy, parental abuse physical/emotional, homophobia, domestic abuse, underage drinking, drugs, minor virginity taken by girl 3 years older (13 and 16), secretary fucking students (predator), molesting (guys drunk and girls assault them), cheating ex, alcoholic parent, foster care trauma, miscarriage, rape, cyclic vomiting syndrome, slut shaming, statuary rape threats (16 and 17) (hide spoiler)] I have been told many good things about this series but kept putting it off because I was intimidated by the book's length. This book takes place in Ireland, I loved the characters, the relationships are meaningful and real, and everything feels so raw. If you’re intimidated by the size, just give this a shot and be a lil patient since it does take a bit to pick up, but this book was so good, the characters and story were just beautiful. [image] Shannon was bullied at her previous school and once it got too far, her mom worked hard to get her into the prestigious private school named Tommen College. She is reunited with her besties but catches the eye of a famous rugby player at their school. Johnny can’t take his mind off Shannon and wants to get to know her. But Shannon wants to live a quiet life and avoid getting bullied again, being with Johnny will do the opposite. [image] “Well, who's this girl?" "She's a river," I sighed and closed my eyes. "I'm keeping her, Da." "Okay, son," he coaxed. "You keep the girl." "She makes my heart go, like, whoa." "Is that right?" he mused. "So bad, Da," I sighed. "Boom, boom, fucking boom." I shook my head. "All the time.” Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ Shannon was going to a new school named Tommen College, her friends Claire and Lizzie go there. She has been bullied her whole life and wasn’t able to go to Tommen College because it was a rich kid private school so she went to a local one where the bullying got physical. The girls took pictures of her in her underwear when she changed and sent them to the whole school. She wanted to kill herself because of this. Shan’s brother Joey looked out for Shan, they had an older brother, Darren, who walked out on them 5 years ago after fighting with their dad. They have three other brothers, Tadhg age 11, Ollie age 9, and Sean age 3. Their dad was homophobic and Darren was gay. A girl accused Shan of seducing her boyfriend and the girls beat her up, her mother took out a loan to send Shan to Tommen College. Their father didn’t work, and their mother does while pregnant. Lizzie, Shan, and Claire were reunited and back to their regular friendship. Shan was gonna be late so she cut through a field of boys playing rugby. A ball hits the back of her head and she fell. Johnny was a well-known rugby player at 17. Gibsie was his best friend who liked to fuck around and party. Hughie and Feely were Johnny’s other friends. Ronan makes fun of Johnny so he throws a ball at his face. The Coach sent Johnny away so he threw a ball that hit Shan in the head. Johnny checks on Shan, she’s couldn’t walk properly. When her skirt fell apart, he put his sweater on her. [image] The principal told Johnny Shan left her last school because of bullying. Johnny thinks Shan is beautiful. Shan asks Johnny to rub her hair and collapses on his dick while he loses his mind. Johnny had a chronic groin injury, he can’t do anything that’ll make him hard or masturbate, so no sex. She’s scared she will get bullied and Johnny says it won’t happen. Shan’s mom yells at Johnny, thinking he assaulted her, even when Shan defended him. Shan’s mom told Johnny to stay away or he would get suspended. Johnny tells everyone to stay away from Shan. The school secretary Dee hit on students, Gibsie fucked her to get Johnny Shan’s file. Johnny wants to know about Shan and sees all the bullying Shan went through and won’t let it happen again. [image] Johnny nor Shan didn’t talk for a month but Johnny smiled at her whenever he saw her. Gibsie calls Claire “Claire-bear” and she calls him “Gerard,” I already ship them. Gibsie said she was his number one so she called him out for being a player. Gibise calls Shan “Little Shannon”. Claire’s older brother is Hughie, so Gibsie hangs around Claire’s place since he lives next door. Claire’s first kiss was Gibsie. Bella, Johnny’s 19-year-old fuck buddy moved on with Cormac, Johnny’s teammate since she was pissed with Johnny. Gibsie tells Johnny that Claire is beautiful and that he wants to marry her, but after he fucks around and he’s 30. Gibsie says his cat, Brian, shat in Claire’s bathtub. Seeing Gibsie tryna make Claire pick up his cat but then doing it, saying he loves pussies, to only run away screaming once the cat turns on him was so funny. Gibsie convinced Johnny to go out and Bella is there. He kept rejecting her but Bella kept sitting on his lap. He kept saying no and she kissed him. When he pushed her off and yelled at her, everyone looked at him like he was the monster, what the fuck, she was assaulting him. [image] The Tommen boys play and won the game, Gibsie swings Claire around and Shan is confused at how they’re not together. Johnny found Shan and asked how she was but photographers interrupted so he took a picture with Shan. Gibsie flirted with Claire and Lizzie yelled at him for playing with her feelings. Johnny sat next to Shan, if we didn’t see Johnny’s POV we would have no idea how he obsessed over Shan. Ronan asked for Shan’s number but Shan refused, he told Shan to go to the washroom to fuck and Shan kept saying no. Gibsie came to the rescue, calls him out for being rapey, and locked him outta the school. He told Johnny what happened, Johnny punched Ronan. Johnny offers to give Shan a ride, he was interested in everything Shan had to say. Johnny opened up about his struggles and tried asking Shan why she moved to Tommen but Shan didn’t wanna tell him about the bullying. Johnny tells her he fucked up his abductor's muscle and it isn’t healing. She realizes it’s his private, Johnny regrets telling her. He drives while ignoring her but Shan is hurt since Johnny thinks she’s gonna tell people. He asked her not to tell anyone. She gets out of the car and walks the rest of the way. [image] There was a picture of Johnny and Shan on the paper with her name. Shan’s dad was drunk and was yelling at her for being late. Her dad had the newspaper with Shan and Johnny and asks her to explain it, choking her. Joey showed up and their dad stopped, Joey covered for her, asking if Aoife, his girlfriend, drove her home even though he knew it was Johnny. Joey called his dad out for not working, and how the food in the house was Joey’s that he bought with his work money. Their dad even cheats on their mom, he was abusive, gambles, and cheats. Joey let Shan leave and fought their dad. Shan went to Joey’s room after and hugged him. He had a sleeping bag and slept on the ground while Shan slept on his bed, telling Shan he will never leave her and that if he leaves, he was taking her with him. Their brothers are taken care of by their great-grandma Nanny Murphy. Joey said he can’t take their brothers, he couldn’t afford to take them all. Joey asks Shan about Johnny and tells her who he is. Shan told her mom about her dad hurting her and Joey. Her mom looks out for her when it comes to bullies. But she’s a victim in an abusive relationship that defends her abuser and allows him to abuse her kids. Her mother figures out Johnny gave her a ride ready to call the school when Shan threatened to tell the school about her dad. [image] Shan apologized to Johnny, she had no idea her mother told him to stay away from her. He noticed the bruise on her face and asked what happened. Shan left and steered clear of Johnny. He thought it was best she ignored him but he hates it. Bella says she wants to get back together and Johnny calls her out for cheating, she admits they weren’t official, she’s such a manipulator. Shan barfed on her way to the washroom, and Johnny ran after her. Johnny noticed Shan’s neck was bruised. He took Shan’s bag and gave her his jacket. She kept apologizing and he drove her home and asked what happened but Shan wouldn’t tell him. Johnny took her to a pub and always kept his attention on her. The bitches who beat up Shan were there. Johnny noticed Shan was scared and realized they were the bullies and told her she was safe. Johnny told Shan to go wait in the car. He called the bully out for hurting Shan and beating her boyfriend, asking how it felt to see her boyfriend get beaten. Johnny didn’t wanna leave Shan and asked to go to the movies. Shan’s dad beat her and her mom took him off, he slapped her. They both left the house separately. Joey and Shan took care of their siblings, their mom wasn’t answering the phone. Aoife said they should call authorities since their dad can’t keep doing this shit. Shan, Joey and Darren were put in voluntary care by their mom, but Darren was put in a fucked up home and was raped repeatedly. Shan and Joey got lucky with a good family. Their mom went to court and got them back. Once their dad heard what happened to Darren, he couldn’t stop drinking and was abusive. Gibsie kept taking Johnny to hangouts with Bella by accident. Bella made out with Cormac in front of Johnny. Cormac tries to start a fight with Johnny and Gibsie is pissed, the way he stepped in to protect Johnny was everything. [image] Johnny ran into Aoife and Joey who gave him a ride. Gibsie stops the car and told them to give back Johnny, he’s such a cutie. Gibsie realized Joey was Shan’s brother and told him Johnny looked out for her. Joey dropped them off at Johnny’s place and told Johnny to keep looking out for his sister. Aoife let Shan and Joey rest, and even bought them groceries. It was Shan’s birthday and Joey got her a present, Aoife too. Johnny left his phone in Joey’s car and Gibsie asked them to bring the phone over. At Johnny’s, Shan was attacked with kisses by Johnny’s dogs and got drool and mud on herself. Johnny noticed the black eye her dad gave her and asked who did it. Johnny confronted Joey about the bruises Shan had. Shan said she fell over legos. Joey said if that’s what she said, that’s what happened. Joey’s mom had a miscarriage, Joey tells Johnny to take care of Shan. Shan wore Johnny’s giant clothes. Johnny told Shan about her mom having a miscarriage. She was relieved another baby wouldn’t be subjected to their hellish life. Shan cried so Johnny held her in his lap. They watched the game together. She fell asleep with her head in his lap. [image] Joey said he couldn’t go back into the house and Shan cried, he said they should call for help. Shan said she might as well die at the hands of her dad and Joey can live happily with Aoife. I was crying so much, Joey did what he can but there was no easy way out. He told Shan to defend herself if their dad hurts her and left. Shan’s fear is Joey leaving and I don’t blame him but Shan is left alone. Johnny asked Gibsie to be the cockblocker since he didn’t wanna like Shan but couldn’t help it. Shan’s dad blamed Shan for everything, continuing to abuse her. Joey returned after 3 days and pushed their dad off when he was hurting Shan. Johnny sees Shan and has no idea about her family’s situation and Shan said she didn’t wanna talk about it. Johnny took Shan’s school bag and gave her his jacket and his mom gave them a ride. Shan dropped her shoe and was gonna fall when Johnny catches her and carries Shan to the car. Johnny’s mom takes Shan to her place. Shan finds out Johnny plays GTA and so Johnny and her play. Johnny is pissed with his mom for making Shan shower. I couldn’t stop laughing when his mom gave him the sex talk thinking he was a virgin. Shan finished her shower and had no idea Johnny was there naked looking for clothes, putting on boxers. Johnny sees Shan’s bruise on her face and asked what happened. Shan refuses to tell him it’s her dad. Johnny freaked out cuz Shan’s towel was falling apart and closed it. She kissed him and ran to the washroom after apologizing. Johnny didn’t kiss her back, he tries to talk to her but Shan locks herself in. [image] He asked if they were gonna talk about it, reassuring her that he liked it but he will be gone in a few months. He told her she deserves someone who will put her first and he likes her but can’t be in a relationship. Claire is pissed Johnny is leading Shan on since he didn’t kiss her back. Johnny told Gibsie what happened and Gibsie called him an idiot. Shan had her period leak, it was her first one. Bella showed up in the changeroom, asking why she had Johnny’s jacket, taking it from her. Bella threatened Shan telling her to stay away from Johnny. Shan bumped into Gibsie and was crying and Gibsie asked if she needed a hug or help. Her cramps were acting up and she was in pain and Johnny came. Bella called Shan a slut and Johnny yelled at her. Shan pecked him on the cheek after he drove her home. He went back to her place, Shan said she has trouble with courses and Johnny helped her with math, and Shan hugged him. Her dad noticed she was smiling when he was back and asked for her phone. He punched her in the face and dropped the phone in the water. Lizzie told Johnny Bella is spreading rumors about Shan fucking him. Johnny says Bella was going to apologize. Johnny attempted to punch Cormac, but Hughie and Gibsie drag him out. Bella asks if they’re together, she is so fucking annoying. Johnny told her to stay away from Shan, or he will ruin her reputation. [image] There was a game day field trip for Tommen and Shan had no idea. Johnny was the only one with a free seat and they did an awkward shuffle and Shan kneed his nose by accident. Shan asked Johnny to tell her about rugby. Johnny wrote a note that asked if she would be his friend with a yes and no check box, so fucking cute. Shan tried to bring up Johnny’s injury but that pissed him off. Johnny apologized for shutting her out when talking about the injury and Shan is pissed and tries to block him out. Johnny made himself vulnerable saying his career is on the line. Shan told him she didn’t want him playing and getting hurt but respected his decision. Shan tells Johnny she was bullied her whole life. Johnny asked about Shan’s neck scar bruise, but she wouldn’t tell him. She told him about the bullying so he feels safe and has leverage. He tells her Bella feels threatened by Shan since she is beautiful inside and out. He told her she is safe, putting his forehead to hers. Gibsie shows up to cockblock Johnny, he was vague and Johnny and he were arguing. Johnny’s iPod had a playlist dedicated to Shan and they were all love songs. Gibsie kissed Claire’s cheek she said it was disgusting, and Shan told Johnny to be safe and he kissed her forehead. [image] They won the game but Johnny was injured and didn’t get up and finally did but was in pain. Gibsie yelled at Johnny and took care of him, telling him that this stops. The stitches that were supposed to heal didn’t since someone kicked the area, Gibsie called Johnny’s parents. Gibsie found Shan and told her to go to Johnny. Johnny was limping and had a crutch. Johnny asks Shan to stay with him and when she said she’ll get Gibsie he said he just wanted her. Shan continued to distract him while holding his hand. She asked to see his injury and he let her and it looked painful. Shan kissed his thigh and Johnny said they couldn’t and pulled her away and she kissed him. She apologized and tried to leave but he went after her and kissed her. It was her first kiss and he told her she was perfect and they made out. The coach yelled at them and threatened Shan and Johnny telling him not to talk to her like that. Even through the pain, Johnny apologized to Shan for not kissing her back the other day. Shan had to leave so she went back with the school to the hotel. [image] Gibsie shows up to take Shan away. Johnny was high, saying he loves Shan and will marry her. Gibsie shows up and Johnny tells everyone he’s in love with Shan asking for her to be brought in. He dragged Shan to sit on the bed and told her he loved her. The nurse says only one family member can stay and Johnny says Shan is his wife, and he wouldn’t let her leave. Johnny asked her to sleep with him and asked who was hurting her and she said it was her father but he passed out. Johnny woke up and told Shan to get his dad, he forgot everything. Johnny can’t play for 6 weeks meaning it’s a slim chance of him getting into a team. His dad told him he believes in him but he needs to heal. Gibsie and Shan are in trouble for breaking out of the hotel. Johnny regrets sending her out so quickly and his dad knows that they were making out cuz of the coach, he remembers Shan saying her father but why. The second Shan got home, her dad said he knew she was a whore, he threw her and she hit the kitchen table. Their younger brother Tadhg told their dad to stop, telling his brothers to get help. He beats her, kicking her while the kids watch. Joey and their mom showed up and Joey beat their dad after telling their mom that he was beating his kids. Joey stopped after Shan begged him to. The fact that their mom was concerned about their dad bleeding when Shan was beaten to death, fuck her. Joey told his brothers to pack their things and hugged Shan. Joey told their mom to either choose to keep their dad or they were leaving. The way everyone looked at Joey like he was the protector. I’m crying so much that I can’t wait to start book 2. [image] (hide spoiler)] Onto the next book. Stay safe folks! [image] ...more |
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Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Attempted rape, parental abandonment, domestic abuse, intimate partner violence, suicide mentioned, alcohol, death of
Trigger Warnings:(view spoiler)[Attempted rape, parental abandonment, domestic abuse, intimate partner violence, suicide mentioned, alcohol, death of parent, homelessness, cancer, weed, parent negligence, boy accidentally shot brother because gun was lying around and had no idea, relationship between boy who is 18 and girl who is 15 (they kiss and makeout) and they sleep together when she turns 16 so sex with minor (hide spoiler)] Pinky: May 17, 2017 - 5⭐ Pinky Reread: October 19, 2022 - 5⭐ I wanted to reread this book to prepare for It Starts with Us. I loved this book when I originally read it ages ago and wanted to refresh my memory. Please go into this book knowing the triggers if you have things that will trigger you because this book is dark and heavy. [image] This follows Lily who meets a guy named Ryle. Their relationship is fun until it isn’t and she is forced to deal with something she never thought she would experience. This is the darker side to relationships. Lily is in a rough spot trying to find out how to move forward when the man she loves acts like a completely different person, hurting her in ways she never saw coming. [image] Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ Lily was at her father’s funeral and Ryle had a terrible time at his job, so they’re both on a rooftop. In their first meeting, Ryle is frustrated so he kicks a chair aggressively and smokes. Rereading this made me notice the red flags Ryle had. Ryle is a neurosurgeon. Their conversation is super open, they’re honest when they’re strangers (typical for CoHo). Lily says she had sex with a homeless guy named Atlas, and he lived at her place in secret. She had a father who abused her mother. She was told to say good things about him so she just stood there. Ryle admits he wants to fuck Lily. Of course, he says he doesn’t do relationships cuz he doesn’t have time and doesn’t want kids. Even though Lily said she wasn’t into one-night stands, he starts touching her and asking if he was going too far. Lily was into it but his phone rings and he leaves, but he takes a picture of her before he leaves. [image] Lily’s past is told through her journal which has letter entries to Ellen, super cringey. It focuses on her past with Atlas. Lily was a 15-year-old and Atlas was 18. I wasn’t a fan of the age gap at all, I do not remember this. He lived in an abandoned house next door to Lily’s. She started to leave food for Atlas who thanked her, then she let him shower at her place when her parents weren’t home and gave him her dad’s clothes. Atlas brought Lily gardening tools, she sat with him on the bus whenever she could and watched Ellen with him on the tv. He seemed sad that she was 15 which is honestly nasty. Lily’s dad beat her mom and sometimes she would go out to prevent it cuz he wouldn’t do it in front of her but she was pissed her mom was sticking around instead of leaving. [image] 6 months after she met Ryle, Lily bought a store to make a florist shop. Lily meets a girl named Allysa who is beyond rich and offered to work for Lily for free. Lily ends up spraining her leg and talks to Allysa’s brother, who happens to be Ryle. They’re still attracted to each other, he helps her with her leg and tells her he still wants to fuck her which freaks out Allysa. Ryle avoided Lily after that since it wouldn’t be best if they acted on their feelings. [image] What was so cringe and pathetic was that Ryle ran around Lily’s building trying to figure out which door was hers so that he can beg her to have sex with him. Lily called him pathetic, he even begged her on his knees and hugged her like ew stop. But Lily gives in and tells him to wait while showering but he passes out. When he wakes up he promises not to bother her again and he doesn’t for over a month. Ryle was Lily’s first customer and he sent flowers back to her shop with the note “Make it Stop,” admitting he hasn’t stopped thinking about her. Lily goes to Allysa’s party and sees Ryle had the picture of her from the rooftop all blurred. She calls him out on the rooftop for wanting her and not wanting her and he tells her he hates that he wants her. When she’s about to leave, he carries her into his room and they make out. He says he does want her cuz he has never felt anything for anyone before so he asks how he can prove that and Lily tells him not to have sex with her. So he strips her and himself and they sleep. [image] Lily reads the journal, and what I hated was that Atlas was 18 and Lily was 15, it’s so wrong knowing they’ll have sex at some point, bruh she’s a minor. Lily’s dad was pissed with her mom so he choked her, Lily attacked him and he threw her off and she needed stitches. Her mom told her not to tell the doctors and say she fell. Atlas showed cigarette scars on his arms when Lily lied about her head and said he fell too. He never met his real dad and his stepfather was abusive and kicked him out. His mother didn’t care and wouldn’t let him come back, he lived with his friend but once they moved, he had nowhere to go. Lily noticed how he lived in the cold and let him sleep on the floor in her bedroom. He planned to go into the military in 6 months. [image] Ryle shows up at Lily’s place and she massages his arms and they end up fucking. Poor Allysa has been tryna get pregnant but hasn’t been able to for two years so she wants to distract herself. Ryle wants to meet her mom,they go to the restaurant. But Lily’s waiter is Atlas, and they haven’t seen each other in 9 years. She runs to check if it’s him and they hug. Atlas watched Ryle and Lily make out and asked who he was once he left and Lily said she met him a year ago despite only recently getting with him. Atlas says he has a girlfriend named Cassie who he met a year ago too but wishes he saw Lily a year ago. In the past, Atlas got sick and Lily took care of him. He kissed her neck and that’s why she has a tattoo there. What’s nasty is when he sleeps in the same bed, he asks when she will turn 16. Like bruh he’s two and a half years older, an adult, and she’s a minor, he turns 19 in October. Despite knowing she’s 15, he makes out with her after asking if she’s kissed before. Like bruh I don’t remember the age thing so this really bothered me. She helped this guy out and she’s like this naive teenager, a fucking minor and he’s 18. [image] Atlas says that his uncle said he can stay with him in Boston. Ever since the day he made out with Lily, they do it everyday and he feels her up too. She’s like uwu Ellen he touched my boobs. Atlas kissed her in public on the school bus and one of the girls made fun of them so Lily openly kissed his cheek and held him and she gave them the finger. Lily was chilling in her room with Atlas when her dad walked in with her mom, arguing about her flirting. Lily walks out to help her mom while Atlas told her not to and she sees her dad trying to rape her mom. She grabbed a knife but Atlas carried her away and said they should call the cops. But her mom walked in and said she’s fine. She didn’t even question Atlas being there. Atlas leaves for Boston and it’s sad. [image] The first time Ryle hits Lily is when they have a date night, it’s going great and he tells her about how important his hands are. He has an important surgery for conjoined twins and then he accidentally burns his hand while taking stuff outta the oven. The first thing he does is push Lily since she’s drunk and laughing, she hits her had on a cabinet handle and falls on glass. First he told her she shouldn’t be laughing since she knows how important his hands are. He apologizes and promises it won’t happen again. He then thinks it’ll be best to fuck her. She made it clear that if he does it again, she will leave him and how it takes 15 seconds to change things. She makes excuses for him like her mom did, saying his hand is important but it’s no fucking excuse. They tend each other’s wounds and he apologizes. [image] Lily and Ryle are at the restaurant with Marshall and Alyssa. Ryle lied and said Lily fell and got the bruise. Atlas is the chef/owner of the restaurant. He sees Lily’s bruise and Rylee’s hand and tells her to leave Ryle. Ryle sees them and I loved how Atlas and Ryle fought but Atlas won and yelled at him to not touch Lily again. Ryle realizes that this is Atlas since he remembers everything Lily tells him and screams is this the homeless guy you pity-fucked. After Atlas kicks Ryle out, Lily and Ryle leave. Ryle asks Lily about the bathroom incident, he’s more hurt than angry. He says he never wanted this stress and Lily told him to leave and he said he didn’t want to. Lily told him everything and he asked if she wanted to be with him cuz it hurt to see her with someone else. Lily says she loves him and she wants him and they make up. [image] Atlas shows up to Lily’s shop and asks to speak with Lily. He gives her his number and puts it in the case of her phone. He had a gift for her from three years ago and it was a signed book from Ellen and it said “Atlas says to keep swimming.” In her journal, Atlas left for Boston but came back for Lily’s 16th birthday. He was going to the military but wanted to give her a gift and tell her thank you for saving his life. He planned on killing himself but he saw her across the lawn through her bedroom window and felt something. He gave her a Boston magnet that she has on her fridge til this day. It’s still wrong she 16 when she had sex with Atlas. Her father found them, beat Atlas up and he was taken away by the cops while Lily was taken away by an ambulance. [image] Lily wants to get married and Ryle overhears it and immediately they get married in Vegas. They moved so quickly and discussed important things on a plane. Their marriage is good for 6 weeks but Ryle finds Atlas’s number in Lily’s phone case after he dropped it. He loses it, doesn’t give her a chance to explain and leaves. Lily follows him to the stairs and he fucking pushes her down. When she wakes up, he’s tending her wounds and lying that she fell. He’s all distant and makes sure she’s okay and leaves again after calling her a fucking liar. Then he’s back and apologizing and begging Lily to tell him it’s nothing. So Lily tells him she has Atlas’s number cuz he thought Ryle was unsafe and HE IS. Lily kicks him out and has a breakdown. [image] Ryle slept outside the door and begs Lily to forgive him. Alyssa sees Lily and is so upset but tells Ryle to talk to Lily. Ryle tells Lily that in his past, he was 6 and accidentally killed his brother with a gun. His parents are so fucked up for having a gun lying around. Lily cannot believe she is in the same boat as her mother. She believes that Ryle is a good person that did bad things and told him if he feels angry to just walk away. Ryle admits he gets episodes where he’s angry and blacks out, he wanted to get away from Lily and wasn’t thinking when he pushed her away. They got into a small fight since Ryle wanted to do a program in London for three months but that wasn’t a problem. He wanted to move to another state afterwards to work at a clinic, and Lily was angry he didn’t bring this up before the marriage, her business is in Boston. He got mad and knocked over a vase of flowers but he left and said he needed time. He came back and said Lily was important and they can stay in Boston. He bought them an apartment and surprised Lily. Alyssa and Marshall name their kid after Ryle. Ryle got into the program in London and Lily is happy for him while Lily got on the Boston newspaper. [image] Ryle is waiting and asks her where she got the magnet from. Lily thinks he wants to fuck and is excited when he kisses her but he continues to ask where she got it from. He’s tugging her hair hard but he stops and tells her to take her clothes off and read the newspaper to him. Atlas dedicated the restaurant to Lily and it’s after the magnet he gave her. Ryle then assaults Lily, bites her tattoo since he even read her journal. He knows everything. Ryle attempts to rape Lily while she fights for him and it was devastating, she tried to scream but he headbutted her. It isn’t clear if he raped her but Lily says he didn’t, but this scene was so fucking traumatic. Fuck him I didn’t remember he did this. [image] He apologizes and holds her against him while he sleeps but Lily quietly escapes. She calls Atlas who got to her right away and took her away. Lily doesn’t want Ryle’s colleagues to know even though what he did was so fucked up. Lily continues to protect her abuser which is so real it hurts since she loves him. Atlas takes her to the doctor and Lily confirms she wasn’t raped since he head butted her and when they asked if she wanted to check she said no. They thought it was Atlas and I felt so bad. Lily finds out she’s pregnant and the worst possible time but Atlas takes her home and gives her a change of clothes. Poor Lily cries her eyes out. [image] Atlas has a house and makes Lily breakfast. It was realistic seeing Lily’s reactions, how she kept blaming herself and making excuses. How she felt bad for thinking it was easy to leave an abusive partner when it isn’t. Lily heads to work for the first time and Ryle comes and gives her the keys to their apartment. He says he’s leaving for London for three months and promises he won’t be home. He didn’t apologize or explain himself since he knows nothing will change it. He leaves and Lily tells him before he leaves that all he could’ve done was asked her, but he instead went crazy on her. [image] Lily meets Atlas’s friends Brad, Jimmy, and Darin who come over for poker night. They all work for Atlas and Lily tells them openly about the domestic abuse she’s faced. Turns out Atlas lied about the girlfriend to Lily to make her jealous. Lily asked Atlas why he didn’t come back for her and he did after 4 years in the marines. But Lily was dating a guy and he saw them kiss and left for the marines again. Then he saw Ryle and Lily together and admits he might’ve been jealous and he lied. Lily goes home, Atlas makes sure the apartment is empty. She admits she doesn’t want him in her life since it’ll be hard and he says he can’t do casual but to call in an emergency. They say goodbye and when Atlas hugged her and said she’s still his fav person and if she were to ever fall in love, to fall for him. [image] Lily told Alyssa everything including Atlas. Alyssa said as a sister she would say forgive him but as a best friend, she will never speak to Lily again if she gave Ryle another chance. I fucking love Alyssa. Ryle shows up earlier and he has Marshall there if Lily feels unsafe. Lily goes off at him and says he had no right to treat her like that even if she did actually cheat, there is no excuse for him to touch her. Ryle is speechless since Lily is pregnant, he was planning on telling her he would take the job in the other state since he knew there was no coming back from what he did and she would leave him. But after he finds out she’s pregnant, he hugs her stomach after asking for permission and tries to makeout with her. But Lily freezes, remembering all the times he’s hit her. And he knew she would never come back to him. Lily tells him she wished the baby wasn’t his and she felt bad but fuck him. [image] When Lily told her mom she was pregnant and everything with Ryle, her reaction made me cry. Her mother said she always had a limit that would move further every time she was abused. She would be grateful with just a slap or that it’s been so long she can continue. She thanked her for standing up for her during his funeral. Ryle helps Lily with the nursery, you see his regret and his sadness for knowing he won’t have a family, how he won’t be able to experience this pregnancy and baby like normal. Lily is so damn strong for dealing with this on her own. Lily told Ryle she can’t trust him especially with her kid. He says he would never hurt their kid but Lily says he never should’ve hurt her and he did. She begs him not to kiss her or beg her to get back together when the baby comes. Ryle promises and Lily and him hug. [image] Ryle stays over and sleeps on the couch while Lily sleeps in the guest room and he takes care of her. She’s in labour and he takes her and they have a girl, Lily names her after Ryle’s dead brother. Lily immediately says she wants a divorce and I lost it when she asked Ryle what he would do if their daughter came up to him and told him someone did the things he did to Lily to her. Ryle was crying and said he would beg his daughter to leave him. So they finally end it, Lily and Ryle take turns with the baby but I was wondering how Lily could trust him with her kid when he’s abusive. I’m hoping it’ll be covered in the next book. She sees Atlas, she asks him a buncha questions and Atlas says he’s ready for her and they get together. I never thought It Starts With Us was gonna come out and now that it has, I’m so excited to start it. I’m a mess right now but I still adored this beautiful book. [image] (hide spoiler)] That is all, stay safe folks! [image] ...more |
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Trigger Warnings: (view spoiler)[Orphans, parental abandonment, loss of loved ones, child abuse (beatings in orphanage), death of family to cholera, s
Trigger Warnings: (view spoiler)[Orphans, parental abandonment, loss of loved ones, child abuse (beatings in orphanage), death of family to cholera, sexual assault, pedophilia, violence, stabbing, kidnapping after being drugged, rape, publically flogged, murder, slut-shaming, prostitution, PTSD, molestation trauma, dub-con (hide spoiler)] So Tee, Apoorva, and Shilpa recommended this book so I knew I had to give it a go and I am so glad that I did. The characters in this book have such a pure, lovely connection fulla love. I loved the FMC, Farah, more compared to the MMC, Dorian, which is rare. Farah is so selfless, she constantly thinks about others rather than herself. Both of the characters go through so much, you just wanna give them a hug. The only problem I had was that the MMC kept pushing away and was too rude to the FMC. I wanted them to be together and they deserved each other but at some points, the way Dorian treated Farah pissed me off. He did go through some traumatic stuff but it still hurts. Some scenes lowkey were dub-con so Imma put that out there. Regardless, I enjoyed this, this is my first Kerrigan Byrne book and I look forward to reading more by her. I am so glad I was able to experience such a beautiful story. [image] Farah was 8 when she was in an orphanage and first got married to 11-year-old Dougan, an orphan that was treated poorly in the orphanage. Though they were children, they believed in their love and said their vows in a secret marriage. But tragedy struck and they were separated. 17 years later, Farah works as a clerk at Scotland Yard, where police officers arrest criminals. She comes across Dorian Blackwell, a well-known criminal who seems interested in her. What she didn’t see coming was that Dorian was so interested, he kidnapped her. [image] Now for spoilers [image] (view spoiler)[ This starts off in an orphanage and these two kids had me teary-eyed. Dougan is beaten after stealing a loaf of bread and Farah (who he calls Fairy, bloody adorable), helps him tend his wounds. Farah is so sweet, despite Dougan being rude, she told him stories about her dad and him fighting in the military. She takes Dougan to a library later on and gives him a book about weapons and says she will teach him how to read. And she saved extra food for him and said she would never let him starve again. Dougan says since they both don’t have family, they can love each other and Farah agrees. Farah’s family died from cholera and Dougan’s mom was murdered by her lover, she was a maid in the Mackenzie household. Dougan and Farah became very close. What was disgusting was that Farah was supposed to marry an old man that was her father’s friend and he put her in the orphanage until she was old enough. So Dougan and Farah have this fake marriage and it had me teary-eyed. Farah shows up in his room with the buttons of her dress ripped off, one of the Fathers in the orphanage tried to kiss her and assaulted her but she stabbed him in the shoulder. They try to escape, but they are caught. Dougan stabs the Father in the chest, murdering him and everything hurt. [image] There’s a time jump 17 years later and Farah works at some office and her boss Morley was interrogating Dorian. Dorian is a well-known criminal who’s kinda like Robin Hood. When Farah came in to record the interrogation, Dorian was ruthless and scary to her. Morley dismissed her since Dorian kept bringing her up and pissing off her boss. Dorian meets up with an inspector and pays him but asks about Farah. He’s pissed that he wasted time when Farah was right nearby. Farah is sad about her marriage, she remained loyal to her vows with Dougan which she made when she was 8 YEARS OLD since she loved Dougan so much. She even took his last name Mackenzie. She goes on a date with Morley, and he admits that he likes her and wants to court her properly. They kiss and Farah thinks about Dorian, but she likes Morley. When she goes home, Dorian is there and he saw the kiss and was pissed. He kidnaps Farah after he drugs her, she’s on a train, then she wakes up in a castle. [image] Dorian asks her about Morley and asks her if she’s kissed or slept with anyone and she says no. A sweet guy named Murdoch helps Farah with breakfast and tells her not to be afraid. I fucking loved Farah, everyone was being nice and telling her she wasn’t a prisoner but she’s like fuck that I don’t wanna be here. So she tries to escape through the kitchen and this adorable giant named Walters stops her. He knows about Dougan and says she’s his fairy, which makes it certain that Dorian is Dougan. Walters lets her eat a tart and lets her name him Frank, he says Dougan and him were in prison together. Farah is terrified but she leaves to meet Dorian, who is so chill about her attempting to escape. [image] I started crying so much when Dorian tells Farah about Dougan. I was so confused since I thought Dorian was Dougan and he is, but he tells Farah that he was friends with Dougan. Dorian and Dougan were both prisoners and Dougan died. Farah left bread for Dougan every day because she promised he wouldn’t starve and Dorian was angry, he hated how she went to prison. He mentioned how Dougan wasn’t hung because he was 13 and how he was Dougan’s close friend. Dorian mentioned how he was beaten, raped, and publicly flogged. Farah heard the details about Dougan’s death and she cried because she blamed herself and Dorian didn’t know how to console her. Since he was in prison, he stopped touching people and didn’t want to touch her. She runs away crying and Dorian lets her because he is speechless. Walters was so adorable, he shows up and says his name is Frank now that Farah named him. [image] Poor Murdoch was arrested because he had an affair with an earl and when they were caught, his lover lied and said he was a predator. He was good friends with Dougan and told Farah he owed her since she helped Dougan. It was clear Dorian was Dougan, he said he knew all about Farah. He made her talk to him while she bathed since she won’t run away. In the past, Farah ran away but her dad’s friend found her and Dorian saved her by getting rid of them and finally found her after being a highwayman for so long. He tells Farah he wants to marry her so she can reclaim her title and riches and will help him have access to more power. She will in return have all her assets back. Farah refuses at first but then realizes she wants a family since she’s lonely. She makes the condition that she and Dorian have to have children if they marry which Dorian refuses. He doesn’t wanna have sex with her since he doesn’t touch people but Farah refuses and even stands naked before him. Farah says they can fuck with clothes on until she is pregnant. She says she can fuck someone else but that pisses Dorian off. So he says they will marry in the morning. [image] While having dinner with Farah, he lets Farah sit at the head of the table and he watches her eat. It ends up turning him on to the point where he breaks a wineglass and is hurt, Farah tries to help him and Dorian yells at her to never reach out toward him. He leaves and he’s pissed with himself for being aroused and wanting Farah, he has a buncha wounds all over his body that he tended himself. Farah was so confused and I felt so bad but Dorian doesn’t want her to see a specific scar since his secret will be revealed that he is Dougan since Farah knows that scar. [image] Farah and Dorian get married, he shows up in her room and doesn’t take anything off but tells Farah to. They ended up fucking, Dorian used his gloves to finger her like bruh yeast infections. He didn’t take anything off and when Farah reached for him, he tied her wrists up. I didn’t like how he wasn’t gentle with her and kinda kept going despite her being kinda afraid. Sure she orgasmed but come on, it was her first time and he covered her mouth and tied her up since he didn’t want her to touch him. She still had the cloth that Dougan gave her from her marriage and Dorian said they can use it to symbolize their marriage. After they finished, Farah asked him to stay but he didn’t, he was hiding his body from her. He also didn’t want her calling him Dorian and said to call him husband and he called her Fairy in the middle. [image] Farah fell asleep tied to the bed and Murdoch was disappointed, thinking Dorian would be gentler with her. Dorian was preparing for them to head to London immediately. They’re on a train and Dorian is worried about Farah since he thinks he hurt her and gives her his seat. When she’s about to fall, he catches her and couldn’t help but kiss her. Farah asks him why he didn’t stay and he said he has nightmares and might hurt her. When she said they can work on it and how they would have sex again, he said he won’t since she could be pregnant now. Murdoch interrupts and we find out how Farah left. Farah ran away since her dad’s friend was coming to pick her up after the Dougan incident. She got onto his carriage and hid and got all the way to her cousin’s place. She was looking for Dougan the whole time, which was so fucking sweet. She worked for her cousin and used her wages to buy Dougan food and left it outside of the prison. She then worked at Scotland Yard as a maid and worked up from there. [image] Dorian was so jealous of Morley, he didn’t want Farah wearing green since she kissed Morley in a green dress. When she said Morley’s first name, Dorian was so offended it was funny. One day Morley needed help reading documents so Farah helped him and eventually became a clerk there. No one stuck around that job long so eventually she named herself Mackenzie and said she was a widow. Murdoch was laughing since Farah was under their noses and all Dorian had to do was get arrested to find her. [image] Dorian bought Farah a buncha dresses and lingerie. Farah realized she was supposed to save her friend Gemma who was a prostitute. Dorian never woulda done it but he couldn’t say no to Farah. But he told her she’s important to him and he couldn’t care less about Gemma. Gemma was beaten up and Farah offered to take her away but her boss showed up and said he was gonna steal Farah away. Dorian was pissed and literally went into assassin mode and killed everyone. Farah tried to stop him from killing the boss so Dorian sliced his arm. But Morley caught them all and had them arrested. [image] I was relieved that Morley wasn’t an immature guy who was jealous. He was upset Farah lied to him about being a countess and thought it was a lie that she and Dorian came up with. He was angry she married Dorian and disappeared but Farah handled the situation perfectly. Morley forgave her and even offered help, another person lied and said she was Farah but Gemma knew her as another prostitute. Farah finally gets them all out of jail but Dorian won’t talk to her and it upsets her. [image] They go to court and Farah’s stupid dad friend Warrington tries to lie and say he already married Farah. He had some con artist with him but Dorian had all the receipts. And Dorian wouldn’t even be given a title, everything would go to Farah. She is shocked he went so far when he gained nothing. He did this all to save her so that her life wouldn’t be at risk since she will be known as the real deal and no one can try to kill her since she has claimed her title. Farah got her title back, but they still had to confirm with the queen. The way Dorian had her back and Farah hugged him was everything. Dorian asked for Warrington and Lucy to be arrested. [image] Dorian asks if Farah slept with Morley in order to get him released or if she touched him. Farah wants to know why Dorian is mad so she tries to confront him but he just binds her to the window and fucks her, a dub-con moment honestly. Dorian just leaves her there without untying her. Murdoch is pissed when he finds her since she’s hurt but Farah runs after Dorian. Farah realizes that Dorian is Dougan since he says “My Fairy” and it’s the first time he touched her with no gloves. She ran after him since he walked away after she called him Dougan and confronts him. They kiss in the rain but Dougan pushes her away and tells her what happened. Dougan begged his dad to help release him and save Farah, but his dad hired someone to kill him instead. Dougan switched places with Dorian and since they looked similar, Dorian was beaten to death and died in his stead. They switched shifts since they do it sometimes when they’re tired so it was unintentional. Walters was apparently some brilliant forger who ended up being beat as well and kinda lost his memory a bit, so he doesn’t remember that Dorian is Dougan. Dorian says that Dougan died and how he has no heart and Farah says all the right things. He says he has no heart, Farah offers hers, he says she loved Dougan, and she says he stole her heart. He says he isn’t Dougan and she says then she will be Dorian’s wife. [image] What pissed me off is that Dorian just didn’t seem to understand that Farah just wanted him. He went through shit, I know nothing can change the fact that he has PTSD and trauma from prison, he went through so much. I know Dorian is afraid and avoids her but what the fuck does he want from Farah? She can’t be with anyone else but he refuses to be with her too. Even after she knows that he’s Dougan, he literally pushes her and she falls on her ass. She already has bruised wrists and he STEPS OVER HER. Here she is in the mud, telling him desperately that she loves him, and he fucking steps over her and walks away. Like bruh, you couldn’t even step around her? Come on that’s mad disrespectful. He could have told her he was dealing with shit and take her home. He didn’t even have to say anything, he could have taken her home. But he left her outside in the cold after everything she did for him. He did stuff for her too and I know he dealt with a lot, but come on man. She doesn’t even care that he killed people and became this cold man. She loves him so much and is willing to die for him and I know Dougan would do the same for her. But to leave her outside like that? What the fuck? [image] It makes me so mad cuz throughout the book, he pushes her away in the harshest ways possible and despite all of that, Farah always came back because her heart was so pure and full of love. Even as a kid, he pushed her and she came back to help him, and it fucking hurts me that he hurts Farah like this often. He believes she doesn’t deserve to be with him since he constantly hurts her. So Dorian sends Farah away to Hampshire at her father’s place. Murdoch told Dorian off but Dorian believed that he would hurt Farah since he already has. But he doesn’t realize that he’s isolating her away since she’s married to him and she wouldn’t have anyone to go to. It was honestly selfish, I felt so bad for Farah. They had a two-month separation, Murdoch and Tallow were with her and it was so cute how they were in a relationship. Frank and Gemma were also in a relationship, working in the kitchen together. Dorian just stayed in his castle, Farah didn’t wanna go back to him since she was pissed. [image] The ending was really rushed, Farah sends Dorian a letter that says she’s done waiting, she’s gonna find someone else to give her kids and have a family with her. This pisses Dorian off and he immediately leaves to find her, ready to give her all the kids she wants. But Warrington was in Farah’s room with a gun, he planned to rape her but the STD fucked up his cock, thank fuck. Warrington shoots Murdoch and takes Farah away, the fact that Farah continues to defend Dorian after everything just makes me love her more. Dorian shows up but Farah was a badass and defended herself, getting the gun in her hands. Dorian shows up and kills Warrington for Farah and kisses her, finally giving in and calling her Fairy, he gives her his coat and carries her away. [image] Murdoch was fine, I was so relieved. Dorian and Farah finally get back together and he is afraid to touch her but they fuck. He wants to leave and tells her that he dealt with horrible treatment in prison, he was raped, he was beaten, and hurt. In order to get revenge, he tortured and killed them, he feels like he isn’t good enough to touch Farah, but Farah accepts him. She finally sees his whole body, full of scars and he is embarrassed but she said the right things. He thought he would hurt her in her sleep and wanted to leave but Farah was patient and told him she knows he won’t hurt her and they slept together. We don’t see them dealing with his PTSD and nightmares, it was all brushed over, it would’ve been nice to see more of that being explored. But years later, they have a daughter named Faye and a son who Farah named Dougan since Dougan was the start of it all. Despite the annoying stuff near the end, I loved how it ended and was so glad I gave this a shot. [image] (hide spoiler)] Stay safe folks! [image] ...more |
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Trigger Warnings: (view spoiler)[Death of parent, drugs (shrooms, weed, etc), boating accident, drown, slut-shaming, cheating, parental abandonment, bad foster care home, suicide ideation, pet death, sexual assault, attempted rape, rape, violence, blackmail, debt collectors, drunk driving, no consent sex tape, child molester, alcohol addiction, house fire, homeless, imprisonment of sibling, emotional cheating, panic attacks, PTSD, cancer, pedophilia (hide spoiler)] THE ENDING OF BOOK 2 FUCKING KILLED ME, the whole reason I started this was cuz amazing Mel ...more |
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